I slipped
I slipped
and drank at the casino last night. I thought I was strong and could handle being around alcohol, but it won...again. I can't even describe how I feel.... I'm sorta depressed, but I'm more numb - and that scares me.
Well, I'm off to get ready for school - thanks for listening.
FallGirl
Well, I'm off to get ready for school - thanks for listening.
FallGirl
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You are alive. You are sober so far today. Sometimes "One Day at a Time" is even a tall order. Try one second....you are only responsible for the moment in which you exist. Do it the best you can. YOu displayed humility in coming and telling on yourself. That's HUGE. sending love your way....
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FallGirl, part of sobriety is staying away from slippery places that threaten our recovery. I'm a little over two years sober, I can handle about 1/2 hour in a bar and I wouldn't even consider getting near a casino.
If you haven't read it already, I highly recommend the book Living Sober. It's got some excellent suggestions for, well, "living sober".
If you haven't read it already, I highly recommend the book Living Sober. It's got some excellent suggestions for, well, "living sober".
and drank at the casino last night. I thought I was strong and could handle being around alcohol, but it won...again. I can't even describe how I feel.... I'm sorta depressed, but I'm more numb - and that scares me.
Well, I'm off to get ready for school - thanks for listening.
FallGirl
Well, I'm off to get ready for school - thanks for listening.
FallGirl
I had to go get a key to open up our One Year NA Anniversary last night and the owner of the hall that we are renting owns a bar. She asked me to go get it. I was thinking of taking someone with me, but I felt that I was OK with it. When I got there, OMG it was like all that crap from the past came back, and not the crap that I hated but the crap that I LOVED> I had to get the key and leave! I probably won't be doing that again
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You did the right thing by posting and fessing up. Congratulations!
Lest you should be feeling like one (as many might be inclined in your shoes), allow me to remind you that failure is a relative term.
As I see it, what you did last night was:
SUCCESSFULLY
DETERMINE
WHAT DOES NOT WORK
People, places, things...
DON'T TEMPT FATE if you DON'T HAVE TO, girl.
Learn that lesson, stop drinking TODAY, and in the long run you might determine that last night was a WILD SUCCESS.
Lest you should be feeling like one (as many might be inclined in your shoes), allow me to remind you that failure is a relative term.
As I see it, what you did last night was:
SUCCESSFULLY
DETERMINE
WHAT DOES NOT WORK
People, places, things...
DON'T TEMPT FATE if you DON'T HAVE TO, girl.
Learn that lesson, stop drinking TODAY, and in the long run you might determine that last night was a WILD SUCCESS.
Thank you everyone for your comments and support.
Yes anna - I have definately learned something. I've learned that I am not strong enough to be in certain situations/places, I probably won't be for a while. I need to have alot of sober days under my belt before I can even begin to think of going somewhere like that - if ever.
The thing that is so frustrating is that with my friends and family - summer is a busy time, theres always bbq's on the weekends - and we have alot of summer birthday parties! I want to go - but I need to put my sobriety first if I'm going to make it.
After writing that down though .... it sounds kinda lame! Because I also feel the same way around the holidays, and well.... I guess there's temptation everyday, if there wasn't I wouldn't be where I'm at would I?
FallGirl
Yes anna - I have definately learned something. I've learned that I am not strong enough to be in certain situations/places, I probably won't be for a while. I need to have alot of sober days under my belt before I can even begin to think of going somewhere like that - if ever.
The thing that is so frustrating is that with my friends and family - summer is a busy time, theres always bbq's on the weekends - and we have alot of summer birthday parties! I want to go - but I need to put my sobriety first if I'm going to make it.
After writing that down though .... it sounds kinda lame! Because I also feel the same way around the holidays, and well.... I guess there's temptation everyday, if there wasn't I wouldn't be where I'm at would I?
FallGirl
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The thing that is so frustrating is that with my friends and family - summer is a busy time, theres always bbq's on the weekends - and we have alot of summer birthday parties! I want to go - but I need to put my sobriety first if I'm going to make it.
After writing that down though .... it sounds kinda lame! Because I also feel the same way around the holidays, and well.... I guess there's temptation everyday, if there wasn't I wouldn't be where I'm at would I?
After writing that down though .... it sounds kinda lame! Because I also feel the same way around the holidays, and well.... I guess there's temptation everyday, if there wasn't I wouldn't be where I'm at would I?
Lemonade tastes pretty good at a BBQ, so does ice tea, club soda with lime. Last weekend at a BBQ a friend made me a drink that was 1/2 Rockstar, 1/2 pink grapefruit juice. It was yummy!!
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