Change4life

Ive been having urges to smoke crack all day. I havent touched it in awhile. Nothing thatI can think of is bothering or upsetting me today. Yet I justr feel like using anyway.
Usually its when Im drinking that those thoughts creep in, but I am sober and still thinking about using anyway.
I am very tired and their are a lot of things i should be doing. Maybe in the back of my mind Im thinking a few hits will wake me uo and I can get something done, but that is just trying to rationalize irrational behavior.
I was already feeling this way when I got home, but now an aquaitence just called saying he feels like doing it also. I told him to sve his monet, but the truth is I feel like calling him back and using with him. This feeling is scarying me. I dont want to fall back into that.

xfresgirl

I'm having urges to smoke on a pipe too. Just try to get thru 1 minute at a time is what people are saying to me. Prayers help too.

Change4life

Im thinking I should just go to sleep and maybe I will feeel different when I wake up. For now I am just taking it minute by minute. wats driving me nuts is that its free. one call and 2 blocks away.

xfresgirl

Thats rough, dont forget its ok to do the right thing (not use)

splendra

Hey wait a minute...crack is never free even if you are not paying money for it there is still a price.... your lives are precious too precious to give one minute to cack

Change4life

splendra thanks for reminding me their are consequences. I always get obssessed with the using part, not the problems afterward.