nogard

Got a touch of the f*** its here, on my own and no one answering their phones. I know it will pass, but I keep wondering if I am doing things right and wondering how things will work out....

Yeah I know the 3rd step prayer but man I seem to be saying it all day and things seem to be slowly crumbling around me.

Then my disease starts talking to me, slowly at first. See what difference has it made....


Kevin

mps101

Keep holding on! You'll make it through this time. I'm wishing I had the other night...might lose my job tomorrow because of a poor dicision I made (stayed out and then didn't show up.) The anxiety is horrible. It's worse that craving, or similar in a way. You can make it through...god regret. It's horrible.

CarolD

Prayers that both of you find peace
and that todays events are beneficial.

nogard

Thanks Carol. Got through to a couple of members and am feeling more grounded now. I do have a lot going on and I need to stop juggling and do one thing at a time. Also remember I havea disease and it wants to kill me and its ok to ask for help and pray a lot for gods will for me.

((((((mps101))))) hang in there man I am praying for you an me together we can do this.

Kevin

mps101

Thanks to both of you. We can get though this. I'm going to AA before work, then after...just found my meetings.

Nogard, I'm glad you got through to some memebers and are feeling more grounded. I am praying for you. We can do this.

CarolD

mps...good plan!
I always said that if my drinking
ever got me fired...I'd quit drinking.
It did and I was at a noon meeting.

Took me awhile I finally stop
but getting fired turned out to be
in my best interest!

O Kev...I am so pleased you got thru
to others. You shine...

mps101

That's sort of the deal I made myself...I'd quit it I got fired. Right now I'm thinking If I do get fired I'll HAVE to deal with this but if I can recover while keeping my job and going to AA that would be amazing. I know if I do keep my job this will be my LAST "wake up call" and I have to stop. So, i guess, it's going to be okay one way or the other--as long as I get help. I'd rather not face the hummilation of being fired...but life will go on. Thank you.

Dee74

seems to be something in the air today Kevin. I won't give in if you won't !
(((nogie)))

D

nogard

thanks guys and nope I won't be giving in D, so don't you

The thing in the air is our stinking rotten horrid smelly low down sneaky ******* disease of addiction!

Kevin

nogard

thought about skipping my home group today and having a drink.

mps101

and?

nogard

still thinking about it, phoned members and am doing physical stuff to keep me busy. I am a very angry person right now

stone

Kev!!!!!!!

mps101

keep doing the physical stuff and talk it out! I appreciated your post the other day...I didn't drink and KEPT my job today. Also felt really good for most of the day so that's a plus to stay on the sober side...

Rowan

Kevin, how are you doing now? I'm here if you need to talk

cmc

****{Kev}}}

mps101

Kevin,
I'm going to sleep now but my prayers are with you. Let me know how it goes.


We can!!

GlassPrisoner

From pg 157 of the 12 X 12. "We of AA should not be all things to all men, nor should we try".

In general, alkies are absolutely horrible at multi tasking. We work better towards a single purpose. Do what's in front of you. I find it makes things a lot easier.

Aysha

Kev...Keep ya head up!

Pilgrim

Kev - you did it right. I did it wrong. Sponsor cancelled and it got too much.