today is my first day
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Join Date: Jun 2007
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today is my first day
hey this is a great site.
today is my first day on the site and to recovery...Im a cocaine addict.
Im very proud of myself as its 10pm and I havent called my dealer...tho Im sure I will want to, I want to fight this, I dont like the way Ive been living my life and I want it to change.
Ive tried to quit a few times before...but I find that something simple as going out for dinner and having a glass of wine triggers my craving and then the night will end around 8 or 9 am with me struggling to breathe...not really fun so I wonder why I do it.
Im going to start yoga tomorrow to give some focus and have booked a 10 am class which means I have to sleep and therefore cannot WILL NOT take drugs today
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today is my first day on the site and to recovery...Im a cocaine addict.
Im very proud of myself as its 10pm and I havent called my dealer...tho Im sure I will want to, I want to fight this, I dont like the way Ive been living my life and I want it to change.
Ive tried to quit a few times before...but I find that something simple as going out for dinner and having a glass of wine triggers my craving and then the night will end around 8 or 9 am with me struggling to breathe...not really fun so I wonder why I do it.
Im going to start yoga tomorrow to give some focus and have booked a 10 am class which means I have to sleep and therefore cannot WILL NOT take drugs today
D
get it, give it, grow in it
Join Date: May 2007
Location: Calif coast
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Try abstinance of all drugs + alcohol. if you give up the coke any other substance will just trigger. You are an addict. Admit it. Start a program of AA, NA or rehab.
Do it before another yr. of this slips by.
Do it before another yr. of this slips by.
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Join Date: Feb 2006
Location: Recovery
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Welcome and congrats on making the decision to change. Avoid alcohol if it's your trigger and give yourself the best chance at sobriety. Alcohol would impair your focus and could end up getting you back into a dangerous situation with coke.
Yoga is a good step. Getting positive stuff going in your life is a big thing.
Also, be prepared when the cravings hit. Abstinence and recovery are 2 different things. Not using drugs is simply abstinence. Recovery is about changing your thinking, behaviors, and facing what lead to your drug use.
Different things work for different people. Find a recovery program that works for you and work it hard like your life depends on it. Because it does.
There is life after drugs. Go for it!
Stick around and you'll find lots of support here. We care!
Yoga is a good step. Getting positive stuff going in your life is a big thing.
Also, be prepared when the cravings hit. Abstinence and recovery are 2 different things. Not using drugs is simply abstinence. Recovery is about changing your thinking, behaviors, and facing what lead to your drug use.
Different things work for different people. Find a recovery program that works for you and work it hard like your life depends on it. Because it does.
There is life after drugs. Go for it!
Stick around and you'll find lots of support here. We care!
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Where the heart is
Posts: 10,209
Hi Dante..Good choice.
I agree with SS in quitting everything.
I use to hate those days when you been up all nite and here comes the sun blasting you in your face . Snapped back to reality.
Glad you are here.
I agree with SS in quitting everything.
I use to hate those days when you been up all nite and here comes the sun blasting you in your face . Snapped back to reality.
Glad you are here.
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Hi Dante,
It sounds like you've made a great decision. And, I think starting a yoga class is a really good idea. I think it takes balance in life to maintain sobriety and yoga is a perfect part of that balance.
It sounds like you've made a great decision. And, I think starting a yoga class is a really good idea. I think it takes balance in life to maintain sobriety and yoga is a perfect part of that balance.
Welcome 
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Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: wherever my feet take me
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Dante welcome to SR. I am also addicted to coke, well mostly crack at this point and I am bery happy to hear you are tryong to quit. i dont know how bad your addiction is, but it almost killed me. So I just wanted to tell reinforce your great decision to not call your dealer and take up yoga. Great way to relax and get the drugs off the brain. i hope you kep posting. i am glad you are here it is a good place to be.
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Join Date: Nov 2005
Location: my room in ct.
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dante, welcome to SR, and to perhaps a new, way better life...
dante suggestion dante...
try cook'n in, or get'n take out for now... no wine, and toss out the dealers phone #...
then you have a good shot!
all good wishes our new friend...
xxoo, rz
dante
I find that something simple as going out for dinner and having a glass of wine triggers my craving
try cook'n in, or get'n take out for now... no wine, and toss out the dealers phone #...
then you have a good shot!
all good wishes our new friend...
xxoo, rz
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Join Date: May 2007
Location: GA
Posts: 53
I'm with hope4life. I always failed in my sobriety efforts because I was focused on being abstinent. Only when I started educating myself and talking with others did I have longer and more frequent stretches of abstaining.
I think I have it this time. But time will tell. 28 days here.
I think I have it this time. But time will tell. 28 days here.
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