Aysha

This is the second night in a row that I havent been able to sleep.
I am so tired and just cant get there.
Having nightmares of rage, fighting, confrontations, cops, hospitals, and dead people too when I finally do fall asleep.
My mind is racing. I cant stop thinking about anything and everything.
About the future ..the past..now..just everything rushing a million miles an hour through my mind when I try to lay down.
I fianlly got out of my house the past few days and did stuff.
My wounds are healing good and dont hurt too much anymore. I did twist my ankle twice this past week. Once falling through the dam deck step and today up a tiny hill in my backyard.
It's hot but not hot enough to turn my air on.
I cant get comfortable.
How much more can I complain??
I feel good though other than that..LOL
I just wish I could go to sleep. I am worn out!

Live

I hate nightmares like that, especially the violent ones and most especially the ones where I am violent.
Have you tried totally focusing and blanking your mind to anything else other than breathing. It takes some practice but is very effective for me.
My hubby can't do it, his mind races too much hes says.
I had to practice alot and study some meditation.

Aysha

I cant even get in a comfortable position to get a calm thought in my head.
No matter how I lay it just isnt right.
My mind keeps going from one thing to another so fast. I watch tv and get sleepy then try and fall aslepp and my mind starts going.
Reading too. Then as soon as the eyes shut my mind starts going on overload.
I am thinking of good things..bad things..average things.
Just things in general.
Yea my dreams lately have been me fighting people..even getting really psychoticly raging mad at my grams and physically hurting her.
My God..I would never do that.. I dream like that about her alot sometimes. I hate it.
I get so in a blinding red rage over nothing and just go insane on her.
I tell her I dream this stuff and she thinks its kinda funny.
I dont. I am going through cigarettes like my life depends on it.
Man...I need to start back to work. I think I am getting antsy.
But the new job is being built right now and wont be ready until sometime in July. Thats if this court crap doesnt mess that up.
It's times like these I miss the beach.
I could go sit by the water and just forget everything.
I love sitting on the beach at night. So peaceful and quiet.
Man I miss Palm Beach so much. But that is a very bad place for me to be.
Well I am going to shut up now.
I am going to lurk a little and try it again. SIGH.

Introvrtd1

Chi,

Some of the good advice i got from the forum for sleep was:

* Chamomile tea
* Calcium/magnesium/zinc supplements
* Kava kava
* Exercise

Just to name a few. Hope you get better.

Introvrtd1

Dee74

hope you find some rest soon Chiy
D

CarolD

Hugs...
I hate to sleep...just feel it's a waste of
my time.
However...

http://www.well.com/user/mick/insomnia/

Blessings

Aysha

Green cows..Thats good..LOL..Never heard that one before.
I need my tv on..I am scared of the dark and dead silence too.
Probably anxiety. I had a very active day today...Played Basketball twice..Played with the kids on the swings and in the yard. Cleaned my truck inside. Even scrubbed the carpet in it. Hung out with my family and we BBQ'd . I was playing with a 3 ,4 and a 5 year old most of the day. Sghooting the paintball gun. That was fun. We shot it in the air and it went all the way to the next street. Good thing it didnt land on anyone. Kicked the soccer ball around. I am BEAT!!!
I should be knocked out. And now I am more awake then ever.
I know I said I was gonna shut up.
Oh well.
I can tell you dont like sleep Carol. Seems like you are always up. LOL.

Lizrox

It's 2:30 in the morning right now and I cant sleep either. PM me if you want to chat.

Liz

Luckyv2

but hey we have to talk about the stuff that is going on in our lives that is the most important part of recovery I believe! We have to find someone that we can relate to and be in contact with them everyday. It helps so much to be able to vent and not only does it help you but it also helps all of us. Kinda weird ehhh.

Anyways hoping that you did better last night! Progress and in early recovery sleep isn't good. I know last night I went to bed at midnight and woke up at 6 and inbetween was up 3 times. Ugghhhh

Alive

(((Chiy)))

newtosobriety

Chynita my prayers are with you! I too suffer from insomnia and I went through an episode like you were I couldn't calm down. My mind was racing at 100 mph.

I don't know what to tell you except that my prayers are with you. I don't have and majical remedies for sleep becasue I've yet to discover them. Its hard for me to deal with sleeplessness because I rarely struggled with it the last decade or so. In addition, I guess when ever I did have a problem with it I would always medicate it through alcohol.

I can tell you that, at least for me, those anxieties lasted about 6 weeks. I was taking clonazepan and that help me through the worst times but I know it is an addictive drug and that if taken it should be a doctor's supervision.

Good luck and like I've said I'm praying for you!!

indigo

Oh I hope you get some good restoring sleep soon Chiy.

indie

Rusty Zipper

chiy... look in to my eyes, sleep, sleep, sleep... hope you got some rest...

xxoo

parentrecovers

thinking about you, chiy. restless nights are tough..

blessings, k

Aysha

Good Lord..Finally Passed out at 9 am!!! Got up about 12:30 and cancelled my dr appt. I wasnt ready to drive one eyed. In the bright hot sun.
I think I will take some melatonin tonight for sure.
Thanks all of you.
Boy I must have tired. I was just a ramblin away.. LOL..

hope3

Hi Chi, glad to hear you got some sleep....my mind doesn't

work well with sleep, but without, forget it...so I can imagine

what you are going through.....

Hang in there beach bum, thats my new name for you...

This Heron agrees, beaches are great!

Take care, hope4