I need your company
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I need your company
I am starting to have that dreadful completely alone feeling.
It's a huge trigger for me.
What happens is that I can't see the future at all and my mind goes into survival mode like a baby and I panic that no one is here.
I have had my children with me for a whole month and they are leaving today and I just severed my last ties with my xab/f at work.
I have had a huge week that was really badly stressful.
I feel like I have no one in the world.
I am not doing well at all today and I don't want to drink. Please stay close.
It's a huge trigger for me.
What happens is that I can't see the future at all and my mind goes into survival mode like a baby and I panic that no one is here.
I have had my children with me for a whole month and they are leaving today and I just severed my last ties with my xab/f at work.
I have had a huge week that was really badly stressful.
I feel like I have no one in the world.
I am not doing well at all today and I don't want to drink. Please stay close.
I sometimes get that way too. I'm divorced, but have a good relationship with my kids and ex. I live by myself, with no real friends outside of work. I only have 2 days sober now, no expert by any means, but I mkaing a commitment to myself to start getting back into some old hobbies I've given up, and to start using those phone numbers I get at meetings.
If you can, just get out of the house and take a walk or something. If you get outside of your own thinking, it may help. I know I'm my own worst enemy at times.
Take care
BHJ
If you can, just get out of the house and take a walk or something. If you get outside of your own thinking, it may help. I know I'm my own worst enemy at times.
Take care
BHJ
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stay strong..what you have won is so much more powerful than you might be able to see on a hard day..but as soon as the dust fades you will be proud of being strong...
you're worth every second sober..
stay strong Steph
you're worth every second sober..
stay strong Steph
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Thanks so much. I am not after advice or anything on this thread. Just companionship. And I would like to think that there might be others here who wouldn't mind grabbing a cup of tea and having a chat too.
Maybe we could talk about the weather today where we are living? Today is lovely here in Wellington NZ. We were supposed to have blizzards but it is calm and sunny and warmer. Yesterday we had a wind chill factor of minus 5!!!!
Maybe we could talk about the weather today where we are living? Today is lovely here in Wellington NZ. We were supposed to have blizzards but it is calm and sunny and warmer. Yesterday we had a wind chill factor of minus 5!!!!
Hi Pilgrim,
You are getting into winter weather, aren't you! During our winters, it gets really cold here too. We usually get windchills as high as -37deg C! But, it's beautiful and warm here now.
You are getting into winter weather, aren't you! During our winters, it gets really cold here too. We usually get windchills as high as -37deg C! But, it's beautiful and warm here now.
Pilgrim..I couldnt wait till my cousin came and got his kids today. LOL..
But I can imagine how you are feeling.
But you know we are only a click away.
Maybe not the same..but we are always here for you. SO you are never alone.
But I can imagine how you are feeling.
But you know we are only a click away.
Maybe not the same..but we are always here for you. SO you are never alone.
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Hey Steph!
I'm in and out today-but I'll keep checking back here to see how you're doing.Just know that I'm thinking of you and praying that you'll find some comfort amongst the lonliness you've been feeling.We are all here for you and care very much.
*big hugs* sweetie.You'll get through this,
Love,
Rose xox
I'm in and out today-but I'll keep checking back here to see how you're doing.Just know that I'm thinking of you and praying that you'll find some comfort amongst the lonliness you've been feeling.We are all here for you and care very much.
*big hugs* sweetie.You'll get through this,
Love,
Rose xox
Steph...
Here is something Chance taught me the other day...I was
depressed.
It's OK to feel depressed..lonely...you can insert any feeling
I suppose...
Accept I am depressed..(feeling lonely)
It's OK..it's how you feel.
We can "feel" emotions today.
Then just let it go.
That helped me a whole lot.
It took the pressure off of trying to feel diferent..and when I
realized that..I felt better.
And I thought I knew it all..
:andy:
Love,
IO
Here is something Chance taught me the other day...I was
depressed.
It's OK to feel depressed..lonely...you can insert any feeling
I suppose...
Accept I am depressed..(feeling lonely)
It's OK..it's how you feel.
We can "feel" emotions today.
Then just let it go.
That helped me a whole lot.
It took the pressure off of trying to feel diferent..and when I
realized that..I felt better.
And I thought I knew it all..
:andy:
Love,
IO
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I'm here. I went to sleep for a while. Sometimes all these feelings make me feel so tired. I was a bit sick as well.
Thanks so much for all that love and kindness. Kev - when you gonna pop over for a weekend in Wellington. We can do the meeting rounds and eat lots.
Anna - brrrr. That's the sort of weather when your nose falls off isn't it?? We had the shortest day yesterday. Thunder, lightning etc. Today is lovely and calm but cold. It doesn't matter tho cos I am not getting out of bed today. It's all too hard. I keep crying and then sleeping.
Thanks so much for all that love and kindness. Kev - when you gonna pop over for a weekend in Wellington. We can do the meeting rounds and eat lots.
Anna - brrrr. That's the sort of weather when your nose falls off isn't it?? We had the shortest day yesterday. Thunder, lightning etc. Today is lovely and calm but cold. It doesn't matter tho cos I am not getting out of bed today. It's all too hard. I keep crying and then sleeping.
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