cyberwolf

I seem to be on a bit of a slippy slope just now, had alcohol yesterday sorry, I am sorry to me and to those who believed I could do this.

Away to docs today

Struggling a bit with a few things and went back to what I know

Stupid huh

Dee74

hey CW,
look, nearly everyone slips...like you say...you find yourself in difficulty, maybe panic a bit at how to deal with it, and go back to what you know....

but I think it's actually a positive thing in a way...everytime we stuff up we end up knowing knowing a little more about ourselves and our problem...it's all about adjusting my thinking and finding new tools for me, so that next time I find myself under pressure, I'll have these other non-alcoholic options to call on...

the re-wiring process is a hard one, and sometimes a long one, but I feel confident we'll both get there in the end.

and, hey, another very vital skill is to *not* obsess over this and bury yourself in self loathing or icky thoughts...todays a new morning, OK ?

D

Rowan

You're right, CW, we go back to what we know - it may not 'work' for us, but it's familiar.
Tell yourself you'll make different choices the next time you feel that way - it's as simple as that.
Start over - we are here with you. Don't give up.

ghostgirl

(((((((cyberwolf))))))))))))))

well, you can only do what you can do in this moment. please keep posting.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((())))))))) )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))\

gg

AcceptingChange

great job on your attempts, on moving forward.
i don't think anyone of us (certainly not me) achieved
the goal of 'never another drop' the first time.
every day you don't drink, your body says THANK YOU!!
if you go back a bit, it means your not perfect.
and you're a member of the human race.

but as someone important to all of us,
please keep struggling with us.
we need all the support we can get.

Never,never,never,never,never,never,never,
never,never,never,never,never,never,never,
never,never,never,never,never,never,never,
never,never,never,never,never,never,never,
never Give Up.
-- Winston Churchill

stone

((((((wolfie))))))

CarolD

Just start again CW....

You too can recover!

Aysha

All you can do is learn and keep trying.
No sorrys needed here.
We all have done it.
But your will is what will keep you trying.
I will be thinking of you.

parentrecovers

thinking about you, cyber - you can do this. blessings, k

cyberwolf

Hi guys

Thanks 2 bottles of wine and no hangover crazy eh!! But ya know what all the hassles were still there!! and I was £10 worse off.....hmmmm solved a lot then eh!!!

I was /am just having a really rough patch and went a bit crazy and irrational and illogical and unreasonable and sad. Managed to fall out with B/F over a complete misunderstanding (yes Stone it was a misunderstanding!) had myself convinced he was gonna sleep with an ex that was back in town when what had actually happened was he'd agreed to maybe meet them and if he does there will be nothing to stop me going! they were friends both before and after "the relationship" (and I guess what happened to trust on my part aswell) so that was a day of worry and anxiety for nothing!

Then yesterday, well like other SR members I was triggered " by Jeremy Kyles show about paedophiles (great show topic well covered) which sent me into great saddness as in a few days it is the anniversary of when A great wee boy was taken from his family (which includes my best friend) by a paedophile and murdered and then a week later is the anniversary of my pals suicide. Not a great time

Then I went to doc today and he prescribed me more (yes Stone MORE) valium. I dont want to take them anymore incase I get addicted I dont even like them this is now 6 weeks....it just makes me more anxious. I asked for something different but he said they were the best. So came home in a state convinced I would ennd up with a benzo habit and scared about all the stories I have read about withdrawal. Went to see a homeopathic guy and got magnesium tablets called ignatia.

Also phoned a counselling service. Iy did help to talk, butstill feel really really low and cant stop crying and shaking AGAIN.

Sorry about the lack of positititey but just feel Sh*t

GlassPrisoner

Nahhhh, it's not like skiing. Skiings fun!!!!!!

Rowan

Thanks for your honesty about what you have been going through, Cyberwolf. I understand the feelings of insecurity/lack of trust in a relationship - it comes down to 'us' and our own relationship with ourselves.
I know it's hard but do your best not to drink today. All that other 'stuff' that we go through - the drama, and all of it - does get better. It just takes time.
It's really really hard to give up what we use as our primary coping mechanism, but I promise you that your life can and will change in wondrous ways if you have the willingness to try again, and to give it your all.

Here for you.

Rowan

Jules62

Hey there CW (((((((hugs))))))

I slipped too.Sometimes it all gets to be too much and we do what's familiar to try and cope-instead of what's good for us.It sucks, but heck-today is another day and we can start over.I'm thinking of you,

Love, Rosexox

Change4life

********{CYBERWOLF}}}}}

How many threads do we read from people that have been giving ti their bst and then fall. Its all part of the addiction.

You are in no way stupid and I know you know that.

Mistakes will be made, thats a part of life. Just use it as a lesson and move on forward.

We love you.
Hugs,
Beth

stone

Hi wolfie, how are you today?

parentrecovers

hey cyberwolf, wish you weren't struggling so. thinking about you today. sending encouragement, k

teej

((((((((hugs wolfie!!!! ))))))))

cyberwolf

Hi all,

Struggling a wee bit just now. I'll be ok though, just gonna take a wee bit of time to sort my head and emotions out. Thanks for your thoughts and hugs. No tears today yet (though adnmittedly it is only 08.24!!)

CW