Aysha

I dont know why but all of a sudden out of nowhere I feel so sick to my stomach.
Urges. I dont know why.
Just like BAm ..out of nowhere.
My brain is grinding thinking of possible ways to go.
This is the first time since I was in the hospital I have had urges.
Theres no way I can get anything.
But my wheels are still turning.
I knew I shouldnt have watched that dang intervention.
I was watching this girl smoke rocks and I got sick watching her.
I was almost mesmerised.
How sick is that.
I am not gonna pick up. For one ,,no money.
For two..Its not that bad.
I just dont understand why one second I am far from thinking about it. then out of nowhere I feel sick and want to get high.
It's nuts.
Anyway..Just had to get it out.
I will be ok....

marle

Chiynita, My daughter is my addict and I watched Intervention too. My daughter's doc is heroin and her abf's is crack. So the first show hit on both. Anyway, when I watch Intervention, I get triggered too. I start having those codie feelings of wanting to jump in and help. Not as bad as I used to be, not enough to actually do anything, but those feelings are there. I am happy that you did not pick up. I follow your threads and I am always rooting and praying for you. Hugs, Marle

Dee74

(((chiy)))

brains are funny things...sometimes it takes a while for the suckers to rewire...it'll drive you mad if you let it.

Don't let it !

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Anna

Just recognize the feelings for what they are Chi and then put them aside. You don't need to act on them. Your mind is trying to manipulate you.

CarolD

It helps to watch cheerful funny shows

My addiction led me into depression
My recovery will not be dark or sad.

Mega Hugs

Hope

I'm glad that you didn't give in. They do pass even though it feels like eternity when you're going through them.