starbuck

so I got a speeding ticket trying to go to my 3rd ever AA meeting. Turned around and went home and now I am trying to hold things together and I'm not doing well. I feel like such a loser I can't even drive. I know I shouldn't beat myself up, but I feel like such a mess inside. How can a person get so emotional over a stupid ticket! I just want to go numb...

Alive

welcome!glad to have you here..there's a lot of info and support..a lot of great things in SR...
it's normal to feel irritated...but things do fall into place, it takes time..the body is getting rid of destructive forces, they try to fight back, you just need to stay strong and know this too shall pass..give yourself a break...i have to...because there are so many mistakes i make, but you know we are in recovery, we are trying to get out of life or death situations, it's supposed to be tough, but it's worth it!

stay strong! keep posting!

2stop

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I am sorry you have had such a rough day.....sounds like the days I have been having recently.I know how it is wanting to just go numb and not have to deal with emotions..it is really tough, but with sobriety and a strong workable program of recovery....it DOES get better.

I am soooo glad you found us here at SR! It is the right place for support and friendship and resources to help. Come on in and stay awhile, others will post soon. Hang in there k?

************{Huge Welcoming Hugs}}}}}}}}

starbuck

thanks karimpatim and 2stop. I've been a lurker here on and off for a while. I just haven't been sober most of the time. I guess I just didn't realize how messed up my brain and emotions really have been. I keep trying to get better, but it seems like it is 2 steps forward and 3 steps back sometimes.

Aysha

Hi starbuck..Glad you are here.
I am sorry for your bad day.
We all have em.
They certainly dont make this recovery process any easier.
You have found a great board here.
Lots of caring people.
I hope your day goes better.

Anna

Hi Starbuck and Welcome,

You're right sometimes it does seem like two steps forward and three steps backward. But, keep trying to move forward. Everything happens for a reason, even though we don't always know what it is. I'm glad you found us!

2stop

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Yep! We all know about those times, 2 steps forward, 3 or 4 or 5 steps back...it DOES get better though.

I really hope you stya and get to know some of the awesome folks around me. I came here in 2003.....here it is 2007...and I am doing things I never thought I could accomplish!

************{Hopeful, encouraging hugs}}}}}}}}}

ghostgirl

hang in there, starbuck. it will be o.k. please don't drink. a couple of months ago, on the day my (X)bf broke up with me, i was pulled over by the police after my a.a. meeting. what a day! but here i am... i'm o.k. the bad feelings won't last forever, i promise... and you have plenty of friends here to vent to!!

((((((((()))))))))))))

gg

Campergirl

Ugh. I feel your pain. It's my first week sober and my H just informed me that he wants to move out. Things haven't been that good for s long tome, but i am not ready for this right now.

CarolD

Hi and Welcome!


The bad thing is you speeded and got a ticket.
The good thing is you were sober and did not get
in an accident or a DUI.

Sat. afternoon 4 of us AA friends were going
to Wally World after our meeting.
We got pulled over and
"Click It or Ticket" caught 4 Grannys.

I think t was about 3 months of sobriety when I really
noticed how much better I felt mentally .
And it has continued to improve!..

Keep posting....we do care and understand.

Surlyredhead

Hi Starbuck..and welcome. I am also sorry you are having a rough day....but don't feel bad about getting upset over a speeding ticket.....I swear, I had about 4 years sober and got a parking ticket...I was sobbing like a baby. I realize now it was more than the ticket hat had me upset...but at the time...you couldn't tell me that..it was that darn ticket...sniffled for two hours...LOL It is funny now, but it sure wasn't then....daw-gone-it-all!!!

You will be fine, just don't pick up.....and I promise, one day you will realize it wasn't the actual ticket that got you so upset....and maybe you will laugh too!!!

Cathy

OnRecoveryRoad

How can a person get so emotional over a stupid ticket! I just want to go numb...[/QUOTE]


Sorry about the ticket. (But look at it this way...could have been worse....like a DUI. Right? Let's put it into perspective!)

Don't be yourself up! Emotional reactions are a normal part of the sobering process. Just go with your emotions...they will even out as you progress in your sobriety.

(Day 79 for me with the grace of a higher power)

This site will help you to understand the changes going on in your body.

http://www.interventionctr.com/paws.htm

starbuck

made it to the 8pm meeting, then came home and ate dinner. No drinking! I'm feeling a lot better now. Thanks everyone

Rowan

Way to go, starbuck!