Aysha

I just want to say to those struggling lately.
Hang in there.
I am struggling too.
I have a little over 3 weeks now. I am recovering from a suicide attempt..major surgery due to it. A 20 year drug addiction...My grams having major health issues. And the loss of my income again.
But as I sit here and the days seem to be years. And I am so tired and it seems like things are taking forever to get in place. I just had quite a feeling.
My little cousins are jumping all over the place. Off my bed. Running up and down the hallway. Being loud and crazy.
But you know what I see and hear in all that chaos?
I see big huge smiles and non stop giggles. I see innocence and happiness.
I guess what I am trying to say is.
There are spots of light in this darkness.
And everyday the darkness clears a little more.
I am learning to be tolerant and patient.
I am learning that life doesnt always have to be in the fast lane.
Even though I am struggling. I have alot to look forward to.
This struggle is for a good cause.
It takes a 3 ..4 ..and a 5 year old to remind me that happiness can be found in the simplest of places.
It does get better.
It is a long hard road at times. But the rewards are endless.
I wish you all the best and I thank each and every one of my SR friends.
This post seems a little pointless. But these kids just never seem to keep surprising me with what they teach me without them even relizing it.
It is truely amazing.
These are my faces of inspiration and hope.
I learn more from these three than anyone else.

CarolD

Thanks for sharing your journy
and the 3 special angels with us!

livefree

Thank you for sharing you hope. The kids are beautiful. I'm having a really hard day. Not thinking aout drinking... just thinking about how much I've ruined my life through drinking and for some reason I just can't stop crying. So, thanks for sharing about how you look for happiness in hard times.

Aysha

You know the funny hting is. I wasnt looking for anything. I was just sitting here reading posts and I got to thinking.
These kids are running wild. And I wasnt bothered by it like I use to be.
And what I heard above all the loudness was their giggles and laughter.
It just came out of nowhere and I got a warm fuzzy feeling. I thought how great it is to hear them laugh like that.
Sometimes its there right in front of you the whole time.
I dont know...Its hard for me to explain.
Usually I would be yelling at them to calm down or something. But I didnt even get the littlest bit aggravated.
All I heard was giggles and it brought a wonderful feeling over me.
I hope you feel better.

TINLIZZY

Hi Chi -

Your post was anything but pointless. It's good to know that I'm not struggling alone!! Thanks for sharing -

TinLizzy

2stop

Not pointless at all.........!!! ****{Hugs}}}

trust me, the struggle, the pain..it is all worth it.........
proud of you for what you're doing. Those kids I am sure love you loads......

Dee74

thanks Chiy !
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Rowan

Thanks for sharing your light with us, ((((Chiy))))

Alive

((((Chiy)))))......

thiskidknows

ur post is very inspiraring and so much hope jumps out..kids do have a great gift of making u smile when eveything around u seems bleak..

Thinking of u, u give sound advice and such amazing support and understanding, I hope to be able to return that one day.

Take care of urself

Lost x

IO Storm

Chiy...

Struggling with a dark depression today...fear of the unknown...

I read your post and thought.."after all Chiy's been through..

if she can do it...I can!

Thank you sweetie for encouraging ME tonite.

(The kids are some of the most adorable I have ever seen)

Love,



IO