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I've been reading your message for a while now. I decided to post my own message (finally) while I sit here another Monday with a Hangover and a no show at work. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I do O.K. Monday thru Thursday. Then comes Friday and I think I could handle it and drink, drink, drink till I pass out Sunday evening. I hate this with a passion. I've been to AA meetings in the past. But feel so embarrassed and a shame that I haven't gotten this under control. I'm also scared to death that someone I know will see me. No one knows at work. My family doesn't know. My husband does but he's also an alcoholic, he only drinks Friday & Saturdays. He's wanting to stop as well. My kids have seened me drunk off my *** and I feel like I've been a terrible roll model - I KNOW I've been a terrible roll model. Thank you for letting me vent, now, please please please any words of wisdom will be much appreciated.
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You've been to AA so maybe you remember that Step 1 is "WE admitted we were powerless over alcohol, that our lives had become unmanageable".
So, are you willing to take that Step, and are you willing to do whatever it takes to achieve sobriety? AA and recovery are "we" programs, we don't attempt them alone when there's so much help that's freely offered to us. Reach out and take it, from this day forward you'll never need to drink again if that's your desire.
Glad you're here, keep reading and posting, there's much to be learned from others.
So, are you willing to take that Step, and are you willing to do whatever it takes to achieve sobriety? AA and recovery are "we" programs, we don't attempt them alone when there's so much help that's freely offered to us. Reach out and take it, from this day forward you'll never need to drink again if that's your desire.
Glad you're here, keep reading and posting, there's much to be learned from others.
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Hi w2s-
I do understand however there is no other place in the whole world that people will relate to and understand us than in an AA meeting.
Go to obe in another town--but GO!
just my 2 cents
I've been to AA meetings in the past. But feel so embarrassed and a shame that I haven't gotten this under control. I'm also scared to death that someone I know will see me.
Go to obe in another town--but GO!
just my 2 cents
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Originally Posted by want2stopnow 
I've been to AA meetings in the past. But feel so embarrassed and a shame that I haven't gotten this under control. I'm also scared to death that someone I know will see me. No one knows at work. My family doesn't know.
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Hello W2SN...welcome to SR, lots of support here....make that non-judgmental support!!! No shame in asking for help, even if it is not your first time asking. No one here or at meetings will look down on you for not quite getting it the first time....
I know it took me more than once!! But here I am anyway....I look forward to your posts.
Cathy
I know it took me more than once!! But here I am anyway....I look forward to your posts.
Cathy
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thanks for your post. i feel the same way, but i know that whoever is there is just like me. i cannot shock anyone there, we are all the same in many ways. very few are able to quit the first time around. the madness of this disease is baffling to me. any ideas on how to deal with the mind games that ensue after becoming sober?
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