finally owning up to it
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Join Date: Jun 2007
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finally owning up to it
hi
new to the forum and have enjoyed readng some of the threads and the messages of support or understanding that go with them
i am a binge drinker and as such never thought of myself as an alcoholic. I can stop drinking for days/weeks without any craving but boy when i have that one drink then its game over, blackouts ensue, friends reminding me of my obnoxious, abusive, agressive behaviour, trouble with the police - you get the picture. Yet still i convinced myself i didnt have a problem. Even a failed marriage didnt convince me. But after another day that started innocently enough, a game of golf, but resulted in a horrendous binge session i have had enough. Been sober for 1 week but like i say i have done that many times before, its just avoiding having that first drink. Resorted to avoiding my social life to avoid just that scenario.
Being an english speaker in germany there are no english AA meeting here so looking to the internet for support but have found an alcohol therapist who should be able to provide advice.
anway it felt good to wake up today, no hangover or not knowing what the hell i did the night before
all the best to you
new to the forum and have enjoyed readng some of the threads and the messages of support or understanding that go with them
i am a binge drinker and as such never thought of myself as an alcoholic. I can stop drinking for days/weeks without any craving but boy when i have that one drink then its game over, blackouts ensue, friends reminding me of my obnoxious, abusive, agressive behaviour, trouble with the police - you get the picture. Yet still i convinced myself i didnt have a problem. Even a failed marriage didnt convince me. But after another day that started innocently enough, a game of golf, but resulted in a horrendous binge session i have had enough. Been sober for 1 week but like i say i have done that many times before, its just avoiding having that first drink. Resorted to avoiding my social life to avoid just that scenario.
Being an english speaker in germany there are no english AA meeting here so looking to the internet for support but have found an alcohol therapist who should be able to provide advice.
anway it felt good to wake up today, no hangover or not knowing what the hell i did the night before
all the best to you
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Hi Hari, I can sure relate to the blackouts....they are what led me to AA. I hated waking up and not knowing what I had said or did the night before. Glad to have you with us. You will meet many kind and understanding people here. Keep reading and posting!
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Originally Posted by GlassPrisoner 
Welcome to SR !!!
That said, learn German, or move.
SR is great, but it's no AA. You need face to face, a sponsor, and step work.
That said, learn German, or move.
SR is great, but it's no AA. You need face to face, a sponsor, and step work.
i have thought about moving as germany isnt an easy place to escape the beer culture but i would be foolish to leave my job at this time
finding stuff to do at the weekends away from my usual enticements will be a great help and going to a AA meeting in one of the bigger cities
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Weclome to SR Hari
Your drinking sounds like mine. I say goodbye to myself if I have a glass of wine. I am never sure if I will make it through. The binges got closer together.
I am with GP on this. We are with you all the way and you are not alone. We understand exactly what you are facing. Meetings and a sponsor and doing the steps is what we need - ASAP.
Stay safe. Go to a meeting anyway. You never know - you might pick up the lingo after a while. Alcoholism knows no boundaries and there is sure to be an English speaker dying to practice on someone by talking English.
Your drinking sounds like mine. I say goodbye to myself if I have a glass of wine. I am never sure if I will make it through. The binges got closer together.
I am with GP on this. We are with you all the way and you are not alone. We understand exactly what you are facing. Meetings and a sponsor and doing the steps is what we need - ASAP.
Stay safe. Go to a meeting anyway. You never know - you might pick up the lingo after a while. Alcoholism knows no boundaries and there is sure to be an English speaker dying to practice on someone by talking English.
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