Aysha

Ok...Maybe a stupid thread. But I have thought about this all day.
Maybe someone can help shed light on it.
Because these are my fears and feelings and I don't even get it.

Ok...Why is it. A Palmetto bug..spider..the dark...ghosts..and heights scare the crap out of me to the point where my skin crawls and sometimes consumes me with fear.

But it is nothing to mess with drugs...hang in the streets..Stab myself 5 times...Challenge someone with a gun to go ahead..drive fast and reckless..all these things that I know will kill me.

I know this is dumb. But I am serious.
Why does all those things not phase me in the least? But those other stupid harmlesss things do. Extremely.

It is just crazy to me.

I will jump out of my skin over nothing and charge head on with real death and harm.
just doesnt make sense and probably never will.

xXBacktoBlackXx

I know exactly what you mean...I have so many phobias, people one of them. But, for whatever reason, I never thought twice to dance on tables, make a complete ass of myself, insult people from day to night while high on some drug, steal money from someone, and drive in a car while drunk. It's horrible, really.

Alive

I think is the unbalance that leads us to addiction.In a way there's an idea in society that you're tough if you mess with danger to your life.....what i know is we are both strong and weak...at the same time....For that destruction we are willing to do anything....until we stop!

parentrecovers

hugs to you, chiynita. addiction is tricky, it fools folks into doing things they would not do in recovery. blessings, k