Made a decision today
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Made a decision today
I am a binge drinker. Last night I drank a ton of wine with friends woke up this morning in my clothes from last night in puke. I threw up in the middle of the night and thank God I turned my head. That scared me. I don't know what scared me more, the not remembering going to bed or the waking up in a flood of vomit. I don't mean to drink so much I just like the way it tastes. I hate the way it makes me feel. I have good friends that would support me not drinking I just to make the decision. I don't drink to be cool, I don't drink to be drunk, I don't drink to feel good, I just like the way to tastes. I feel so bad today. I feel like trash. I'm endangering my life and the lives of thoughs around me. I drove. Not while I was drunk across town but later in the night when I had to drive around the corner. Most accidents happen at home and I know that. Funny how when you are not drinking your perspectives are so clear. I hate myself today.
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You may like wine but it certainly does not like you!
I did not get sik from drinking every time
but I only did destructive unhealthy things
with alcohol in my system.
So I quit ingesting poison....regardless of taste.
I do hope you plan to do the same...
I did not get sik from drinking every time
but I only did destructive unhealthy things
with alcohol in my system.
So I quit ingesting poison....regardless of taste.
I do hope you plan to do the same...
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Thanks for the comments. I do not drink often but when I do it is A LOT! I just need to remember how I feel today so that tomorrow I won't drink. I hate not being in control. All I can do today is ask God for forgiveness and the strength to carry on, sober.
Hi there,
The fact you found SR means you were looking for a bit of encouragement and support , you will sure find that here. I really wish you well in your decision. Good luck and Staying sober atarts with the first day, today, good on you.
The fact you found SR means you were looking for a bit of encouragement and support , you will sure find that here. I really wish you well in your decision. Good luck and Staying sober atarts with the first day, today, good on you.
welcome whothat !!!
Cheeya, right !
You're in the right place. That's why all of us are here, we like to control things. That's how I used to be. I've found only is it not possible, but life is SOOO much easier when you roll with the changes. (*cues REO Speedwagon*)
don't mean to drink so much I just like the way it tastes. I hate the way it makes me feel.
I hate not being in control
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Join Date: Oct 2006
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welcome!
hi whothat......welcome to SR.....i can so relate to what you said....i remember throwing up in my bed,then passing out.....when i woke up,all i saw was RED...my head was stuck to the pillow,and for a second,i thought it was blood....(red wine)...one of my more memorable drunk moments,to be sure....
I thought i drank because i liked the taste too......but what i liked more was the effect......it relaxed me,and made me forget my troubles for a few hours....and,over the years it started taking it's toll....i am learning now how to live a sober life....relearning how to handle things when they come up...and discovering who I really am.....
The people here at SR have been a great help to me...couldn't have done it without the whole gang.....So,if you think you have a problem....keep coming here and reading the posts....I started coming here when i was still drinking...reading all the supportive posts made me think i could do this too.....
So,nice to meet you,and i hope you keep coming back....KT
I thought i drank because i liked the taste too......but what i liked more was the effect......it relaxed me,and made me forget my troubles for a few hours....and,over the years it started taking it's toll....i am learning now how to live a sober life....relearning how to handle things when they come up...and discovering who I really am.....
The people here at SR have been a great help to me...couldn't have done it without the whole gang.....So,if you think you have a problem....keep coming here and reading the posts....I started coming here when i was still drinking...reading all the supportive posts made me think i could do this too.....
So,nice to meet you,and i hope you keep coming back....KT
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Welcome to the boards, who_that. Ay, I remember nights filled with wine drinking. That and vodka used to be my alcohol of choice. I, too, remember throwing up all over the place after drinking it. Ugh, it was horrible. Best of luck to you in stopping. You've came to the right place.
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leave the car at home.....
hi again whothat.......what i forgot to say before.....PLEASE don't drink and drive again.......If you are going to drink away from home,and i hope you decide NOT to,PLEASE don't drive! get a cab,or designate a driver....KT
You've admitted the problem; maybe now you will seek and work hard on the solution. Sounds like you're ready for a change and that is the 1st step. Recovey works if you work it. Get yourself around people in recover cause when you see what they've got you're gonna want it I bet.
Hi whothat, welcome to SR.
I was a wine drinker also, six months I gave it up when
I finally realized I was addicted to alcohol....
I do have to ask you this though...If you drank enough to
pass out and puke, did you really taste those last glasses
of wine. For me, I really didn't taste it after the 5th oor 6th glass...
I couldn't afford the bottles anymore, so the box won out.....
If you can't stop drinking it, after starting, I would deffinately be concerned..
Keep posting and reading, I'm glad you found us, hope3
I was a wine drinker also, six months I gave it up when
I finally realized I was addicted to alcohol....
I do have to ask you this though...If you drank enough to
pass out and puke, did you really taste those last glasses
of wine. For me, I really didn't taste it after the 5th oor 6th glass...
I couldn't afford the bottles anymore, so the box won out.....
If you can't stop drinking it, after starting, I would deffinately be concerned..
Keep posting and reading, I'm glad you found us, hope3
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Location: long island,ny
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for the love of the,"box'..
ah....Hope 3.....i was a,"box o wine" lover too...I used to sneak the boxes(not easy) up to my place......and sneak the empties down and store them in the trunk of my car. And,the last time i went to the dump,I had a trunk full of 10 empty wine boxes.....embarassing...
Now,when i take my recyclables to the dump,i have a trunk full of cardboard coffee cup trays......much better,right?
no,my first sip was for taste....after that...i didn't taste it either.....kT
Now,when i take my recyclables to the dump,i have a trunk full of cardboard coffee cup trays......much better,right?
no,my first sip was for taste....after that...i didn't taste it either.....kT
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