Successful Idiots Who Need Help
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Join Date: Feb 2005
Location: CA
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Successful Idiots Who Need Help
Hello,
I know I need to quit my addictive habits. My excuse has always been working hard and keeping my life together. I used to look so innocent, and for a long time seriously believed I was regardless of my actions.
I started looking at this site about 2 years ago. I managed to quit smoking pot for more than a year with the help of a boyfriend. I would love to say it was on my own, but i am being honest with myself here. This was the second time i had quit with help.
Now, I have dove into the mess again head first. My outside life is in GREAT order, but inside I am going nuts trying not to smoke or drink. Sometimes I wish I could hit rock bottom to kick my ass into recovery. I seem top be searching for it.
I am going on a road trip tomorrow and will be doing a lot of soul searching along the way. This was quite a ramble for a first post, but I would enjoy hearing from any of you that are in or have been in the same boat. Let's set sail together...
Cheers,
K
I know I need to quit my addictive habits. My excuse has always been working hard and keeping my life together. I used to look so innocent, and for a long time seriously believed I was regardless of my actions.
I started looking at this site about 2 years ago. I managed to quit smoking pot for more than a year with the help of a boyfriend. I would love to say it was on my own, but i am being honest with myself here. This was the second time i had quit with help.
Now, I have dove into the mess again head first. My outside life is in GREAT order, but inside I am going nuts trying not to smoke or drink. Sometimes I wish I could hit rock bottom to kick my ass into recovery. I seem top be searching for it.
I am going on a road trip tomorrow and will be doing a lot of soul searching along the way. This was quite a ramble for a first post, but I would enjoy hearing from any of you that are in or have been in the same boat. Let's set sail together...
Cheers,
K
IO Storm
Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Southern California
Posts: 18,436
There IS a cycle of addictive behavior....
Part of the circle is self searching or soul searching....
I wish you Godspeed and protection on this journey..Grrrrr.
Only you know or WILL come to know what it is that you need.
You have taken a critical step and that is asking IF you have a problem...
and you will eventually know if you need to ADMIT you have a problem.
You are on the right track..however you look at it.
Stay here and read,read,read, and share.
You will find your answers.
My best for your recovery!
Love,
IO
Part of the circle is self searching or soul searching....
I wish you Godspeed and protection on this journey..Grrrrr.
Only you know or WILL come to know what it is that you need.
You have taken a critical step and that is asking IF you have a problem...
and you will eventually know if you need to ADMIT you have a problem.
You are on the right track..however you look at it.
Stay here and read,read,read, and share.
You will find your answers.
My best for your recovery!
Love,
IO
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Join Date: Feb 2005
Location: CA
Posts: 252
Thanks IO,
I have done a lot of reading on this site, and will continue to do so. I appreciate your posts that I have had an opportunity to read. Thanks for supporting me here.
I agree that I need to work on admitting I have a problem, great point. I need to think about how I will deal with it, and who to tell that can really help me.
This website has a wealth of information, and I benefit from it every time I visit.
Thank you again,
K
I have done a lot of reading on this site, and will continue to do so. I appreciate your posts that I have had an opportunity to read. Thanks for supporting me here.
I agree that I need to work on admitting I have a problem, great point. I need to think about how I will deal with it, and who to tell that can really help me.
This website has a wealth of information, and I benefit from it every time I visit.
Thank you again,
K
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Join Date: May 2007
Location: Ca
Posts: 13
HI Grrr,
You say you wish you could hit rock bottom to stop, I was just thinking about my rock bottom today and know I could have gotten alot lower in my addiction. I thank God that I didn't have to hit the very bottom, because anywhere on the decline is a horrible place to be.
I'm also new to this sight and recovery but am loving it. The way I figure the sooner you recognize the problem(which looks like you have) the sonner you can fix it. Enjoy your road trip, what a great time for self reflection.
You say you wish you could hit rock bottom to stop, I was just thinking about my rock bottom today and know I could have gotten alot lower in my addiction. I thank God that I didn't have to hit the very bottom, because anywhere on the decline is a horrible place to be.
I'm also new to this sight and recovery but am loving it. The way I figure the sooner you recognize the problem(which looks like you have) the sonner you can fix it. Enjoy your road trip, what a great time for self reflection.
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Join Date: Feb 2005
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Thank you all for your kind words.
I do want to quit. I feel good today that I have made that choice. And I feel good to know that you all understand what I am going through.
I choose health and life. I know that route feels so much better than being high. I am starting that journey today by not picking up (and throwing out what I dont want to pick up).
Now, onto my sober road trip...
Thanks again! Will check back in soon.
K
I do want to quit. I feel good today that I have made that choice. And I feel good to know that you all understand what I am going through.
I choose health and life. I know that route feels so much better than being high. I am starting that journey today by not picking up (and throwing out what I dont want to pick up).
Now, onto my sober road trip...
Thanks again! Will check back in soon.
K
everything is already ok
Join Date: May 2005
Location: Melbourne Victoria Australia
Posts: 19,789
hi grrr, welcome to SR, great place to start your recovery. Best thing you can do right now is keep coming back and ask questions as well as read posts.
Kevin
Kevin
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Join Date: May 2007
Location: Littleton, Co.
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Welcome Grrr,
I hope you find the answers that you are looking for on your road trip. And remember that everyones rock bottom is different; this could very well be your's!
Keep posting...
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Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend.
I hope you find the answers that you are looking for on your road trip. And remember that everyones rock bottom is different; this could very well be your's!
Keep posting...
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Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend.
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Join Date: Feb 2005
Location: CA
Posts: 252
Thanks everyone!
I did have a good vacation. Some troubles sleeping, but mostly over that now.
Working on not going back to my old habits. I am feeling lonely today.
I got the job I wanted yesterday and am trying to focus on the positives.
K
I did have a good vacation. Some troubles sleeping, but mostly over that now.
Working on not going back to my old habits. I am feeling lonely today.
I got the job I wanted yesterday and am trying to focus on the positives.
K
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Join Date: Feb 2005
Location: CA
Posts: 252
Hi k! thanks for your post.
No, I am not going to any meetings right now. This site has been my way of reaching out. I have more of a problem with smoking than drinking, but am not good at being 100% sober for very long. Trying to figure out what that life looks like for me.
K
No, I am not going to any meetings right now. This site has been my way of reaching out. I have more of a problem with smoking than drinking, but am not good at being 100% sober for very long. Trying to figure out what that life looks like for me.
K
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