Standing my ground is very painful
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Standing my ground is very painful
My son who got into a wonderful rehab was kicked out. It seems that he drove the people crazy. I had to make him leave for my own sanity 3 months ago.
Now that he was kicked out, he has absolutely no where to stay. Not one single person.
He called me crying, begging me to take him in.
I found myself screaming and yelling and getting so upset I was nauseated. I wound up hanging up on him. It seems all he wants to do is make excuses for his behavior.
He has no insurance, no job and not one single penny.
He called back, and once again I found my voice getting louder. I hung up and realized I was getting caught up in the very insanity I made him leave for. I turned off my phone. It's just too much to take.
I hate it. I don't want to fear what will happen to him.
I think he's mentally ill, self inflicted due to drug use.
I can't help him.
I just feel so miserable because of it all.
Why is it that we have to constantly fear the call whe hope we never get?
I would love some encouragement. Thank you all in advance.
Now that he was kicked out, he has absolutely no where to stay. Not one single person.
He called me crying, begging me to take him in.
I found myself screaming and yelling and getting so upset I was nauseated. I wound up hanging up on him. It seems all he wants to do is make excuses for his behavior.
He has no insurance, no job and not one single penny.
He called back, and once again I found my voice getting louder. I hung up and realized I was getting caught up in the very insanity I made him leave for. I turned off my phone. It's just too much to take.
I hate it. I don't want to fear what will happen to him.
I think he's mentally ill, self inflicted due to drug use.
I can't help him.
I just feel so miserable because of it all.
Why is it that we have to constantly fear the call whe hope we never get?
I would love some encouragement. Thank you all in advance.
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I think you are doing the right thing. I cannot imagine how hard it is as I have no children. You asked for encouragement.. you got it.
I wish someone had handled my XABF the way you are handling your son. If that had happened when he was young maybe he would not be an addict of 40 years?
We can do nothing and nothing changes. We can do something and nothing may change but we have increased the odds in our favor.
I wish someone had handled my XABF the way you are handling your son. If that had happened when he was young maybe he would not be an addict of 40 years?
We can do nothing and nothing changes. We can do something and nothing may change but we have increased the odds in our favor.
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find out where he is call 911-he is a danger to himself as you say he is mentally ill--they will take him to the hospital--where they don't throw you out....let the pros take it then you won't have to worry.Or you can just leave him in the street.And you just may get that phone call you fear.
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It's okay Wabbit,
Please don't believe he has nowhere to go. It's all manipulation. He is trying to guilt you into rescuing him from another one of his failures. When that didn't work he escalated into anger to shame you into rescuing him. He has places to go. There are shelters available. He is just trying to find an easier, softer way through you.
Regardless of whether you lost it or not, you did great! My boundaries are being pushed right now and since I am new at setting them I tend to get so frustrated I use anger to do it for me. Good thing I am not employed at the U.N.
Take care,
Lithloren
Please don't believe he has nowhere to go. It's all manipulation. He is trying to guilt you into rescuing him from another one of his failures. When that didn't work he escalated into anger to shame you into rescuing him. He has places to go. There are shelters available. He is just trying to find an easier, softer way through you.
Regardless of whether you lost it or not, you did great! My boundaries are being pushed right now and since I am new at setting them I tend to get so frustrated I use anger to do it for me. Good thing I am not employed at the U.N.
Take care,
Lithloren
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1==he is mentally ill
2==he is an addict
3==he has a mental disorder that got him kicked out of rehab
4==she is worried about him
5--with all the above he is a danger to himself and to others
6==no one can judge if this really is manipulation-let a pro decide that
7==some really have no place to go and not enough sense to figure out a shelter/alternative.
Sorry--I don't mean to be a bitch--I can see you are worried and angry-no disrespect to you--if you don't want to worry about him--and you are--the hospital for an evaluation is a good start. Better than leaving him in the street crying ...
2==he is an addict
3==he has a mental disorder that got him kicked out of rehab
4==she is worried about him
5--with all the above he is a danger to himself and to others
6==no one can judge if this really is manipulation-let a pro decide that
7==some really have no place to go and not enough sense to figure out a shelter/alternative.
Sorry--I don't mean to be a bitch--I can see you are worried and angry-no disrespect to you--if you don't want to worry about him--and you are--the hospital for an evaluation is a good start. Better than leaving him in the street crying ...
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Wascally, Do you know 100% for sure that he has nowhere to go or is this what he is telling you. Addicts lie to get what they want and right now he wants you to enable him. My daughter told me in March how bad her situation was and yet a month later she is telling me that she is doing good and for me not to worry about her. What that meant was that the abf now had money for drugs. Your son is looking to you for a bailout because you have always done it in the past when things got rough. Turning off your phone was a good first step. Now take a few deep breaths and try to remember the other times you have felt the same fear for your son and nothing has happened to him. Say a prayer and give him to his HP. Sending hugs and prayers for some peace for you. Marle
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Wascally, If you know where he is right now and you think that he is a danger to himself you can always call 911. You don't have to let yourself get sucked into the drama. They will send someone to evaluate him. If he is a danger they will take him to the hospital. If he is just pulling your chains then he will know not to do that in the future. Marle
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What you ultimately decide to do is up to you and you WILL make the right decision for YOU at the time. And it's ok no matter what you do. I have a very VERY hard time giving up on my AH, as evidenced by my recent threads. Last night I sat with him for two hours trying to talk him down and get him to agree to rehab. Was that the safest or smartest thing for ME? Probably not...but he went and I feel better in the long run. I won't regret it.
I will say from experience that addicts are verrrry good at finding what they want. The things my AH has done to get drugs or use drugs, it blows my mind. MOST times the addict on the street is there because they choose to be, NOT because they have no where to go. There are shelters and detoxes and hospitals. What you could do is compile a list of phone numbers for these places and if your son calls for help give him the numbers. I would help my aH go to rehab but he could not come home because it wasn't safe for me or my son. If my AH choose to be out there and homeless, then I could do nothing to help him.
You are obviously upset and for good reason, so be gentle with yourself. Don't feel pressured one way or another. This is a horrible situation for anyone to be in, but remember if a rehab kicks someone out it IS for a good reason. rehabs are there to help, not screw people over.
Hugs and serenity to you....
I will say from experience that addicts are verrrry good at finding what they want. The things my AH has done to get drugs or use drugs, it blows my mind. MOST times the addict on the street is there because they choose to be, NOT because they have no where to go. There are shelters and detoxes and hospitals. What you could do is compile a list of phone numbers for these places and if your son calls for help give him the numbers. I would help my aH go to rehab but he could not come home because it wasn't safe for me or my son. If my AH choose to be out there and homeless, then I could do nothing to help him.
You are obviously upset and for good reason, so be gentle with yourself. Don't feel pressured one way or another. This is a horrible situation for anyone to be in, but remember if a rehab kicks someone out it IS for a good reason. rehabs are there to help, not screw people over.
Hugs and serenity to you....
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Wascally.
I wish I had an answer for you.
Man, I hate addiction. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
It sounds like you are doing the only thing you can do at the moment.
You've tried everything else, right?
When things are at at their worst and most painful, the only thing I could really do was offer the whole tangled up mess to my HP and let Him figure it out.
You didn't cause this.
You can't control it.
You can't cure it.
You're powerless. Back to step one...
Sending prayers for you and your son tonight.
I hope you find the peace and strength you need.
I wish I had an answer for you.
Man, I hate addiction. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
It sounds like you are doing the only thing you can do at the moment.
You've tried everything else, right?
When things are at at their worst and most painful, the only thing I could really do was offer the whole tangled up mess to my HP and let Him figure it out.
You didn't cause this.
You can't control it.
You can't cure it.
You're powerless. Back to step one...
Sending prayers for you and your son tonight.
I hope you find the peace and strength you need.
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i think that you are doing the best you can, addicts are very resourceful, they can always find a place to do drugs and find away to get the drugs that they do, yet they depend on others for their true necessities.
i helped my ah until i was literally insane, and then when i was so sick that i couldn't help myself, he walked away. i believe if my family had been there to bail me out of everything then i wouldn't have found enough determination to fight my addiction.
i know that depression sometimes is a sympton of active addiction. keeping you and him in my prayers.
i helped my ah until i was literally insane, and then when i was so sick that i couldn't help myself, he walked away. i believe if my family had been there to bail me out of everything then i wouldn't have found enough determination to fight my addiction.
i know that depression sometimes is a sympton of active addiction. keeping you and him in my prayers.
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(((((((Wascally)))))))
Just wanted to send you some love and support, sweetie.
I know what your going through. I took my son to a hospital once
and told them that he tried to kill himself in his closet. Just so they would hold him for 72 hours to be evaluated. He got tired of waiting for a doctor to "do something" and wanted me to tell them the truth. That he was a junky and sick. Truth was, he wasn't even living in my house. I just told him I would ride him somewhere to get help. He wanted to leave and I had him 302'd. A danger to himself and others.
24 hours later, he was kicked out, because he had his gf bring him heroin into the ward, and he used in the bathroom.
He knew he couldn't come home, so he couch hopped from one "friend" to another.
A few weeks later, he broke into our house and stole alot.
You know the rest...
Your doing what you need to do for your own sanity. That's all you need to do right now. Breathe...
Know that we are here for you, with support, prayers, and love.
Your a good mom. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
All said with love and understanding.
Just wanted to send you some love and support, sweetie.
I know what your going through. I took my son to a hospital once
and told them that he tried to kill himself in his closet. Just so they would hold him for 72 hours to be evaluated. He got tired of waiting for a doctor to "do something" and wanted me to tell them the truth. That he was a junky and sick. Truth was, he wasn't even living in my house. I just told him I would ride him somewhere to get help. He wanted to leave and I had him 302'd. A danger to himself and others.
24 hours later, he was kicked out, because he had his gf bring him heroin into the ward, and he used in the bathroom.
He knew he couldn't come home, so he couch hopped from one "friend" to another.
A few weeks later, he broke into our house and stole alot.
You know the rest...
Your doing what you need to do for your own sanity. That's all you need to do right now. Breathe...
Know that we are here for you, with support, prayers, and love.
Your a good mom. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
All said with love and understanding.
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if you are sectioned for 72 hours they do not''kick you out" for ANY reason--they can't legally--he is a danger--they have to keep him.As far as his girlfriend getting in and bringing him herion--HOW? They don't allow them to have visitors and the unit is locked. If you went to visit--they search your bag etc...very secure.In the hospital I worked in she would have been arrested--but he still would have had to stay...how did she get acsess to him--they even guard you in the ER prior to getting a room---sounds fishy.
Remember after the 72 hours you can go before a judge and have his time extended to 30 days(against his will)and then you can do it again for another 30---you can even have him commited to a state mental institution for a year---horrible I know--but he will be clean won;t he...it at least gives him time to think clearly. And maybe none of it will work--who knows--but for over a year or a few months--you know where he is--you know he is eatting-has a roof over his head-individual and group counseling---some time for the fog to clear out of his brain. To me it's worth the try...I did it all short of the institution--because by then he was in recovery--but It was the next step and I would have done it to him--He is my son--I want him alive.
Remember after the 72 hours you can go before a judge and have his time extended to 30 days(against his will)and then you can do it again for another 30---you can even have him commited to a state mental institution for a year---horrible I know--but he will be clean won;t he...it at least gives him time to think clearly. And maybe none of it will work--who knows--but for over a year or a few months--you know where he is--you know he is eatting-has a roof over his head-individual and group counseling---some time for the fog to clear out of his brain. To me it's worth the try...I did it all short of the institution--because by then he was in recovery--but It was the next step and I would have done it to him--He is my son--I want him alive.
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i feel for you.i am pretty much where you are with my son but he does not ask to come here.i feel bad for them.it actually breaks my heart but we can not do it any more.prayers for you & your son.
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((((((((((Wascally)))))))))
You know sometimes what we fear usually doesn't happen. We always fear the worst. I agree with Teke, they are very resourceful people. Sounds like you are really being strong. I know how upsetting all of this drama can be. If you can't deal with it you did the right thing, don't answer the phone. I had my daughter 302'd once. She spent 2 weeks in the hospital. She got clean, at least for a while.
Take care and stay strong. Prayers for you and your son.........Lo
You know sometimes what we fear usually doesn't happen. We always fear the worst. I agree with Teke, they are very resourceful people. Sounds like you are really being strong. I know how upsetting all of this drama can be. If you can't deal with it you did the right thing, don't answer the phone. I had my daughter 302'd once. She spent 2 weeks in the hospital. She got clean, at least for a while.
Take care and stay strong. Prayers for you and your son.........Lo
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