OMG..... I need to go to bed....
OMG..... I need to go to bed....
I so thought I was in the Substance Forum.... I think I've done this two nights in a row now....
I was wondering why all of these posts were written by non addicts.....
I was getting so confused....
lol, I was wondering how these new posts had so many replies already...
omg.....
Goodnight...
I was wondering why all of these posts were written by non addicts.....
I was getting so confused....
lol, I was wondering how these new posts had so many replies already...
omg.....
Goodnight...
If you are confused, wandering and can't remember where you are or why you are here...then you are probably in the right place after all.
Besides, you make me feel better knowing I'm not the only person who does this.
Hugs
Besides, you make me feel better knowing I'm not the only person who does this.
Hugs
Thanks All~ :
Hi Jewel!~ I've missed seeing you around also, we must miss each other's posts..
I am Good!!~~ Have a year and 6 months or 7 months on the 14th...
I've been working Alot lately, I can finally do that again. lol, I used to be such
a workaholic, always busy doing something, then even before meth I was not in
a job I liked, which made meth so much more desirable, so I wasn't working as
much as I normally do, or making enough money....
Then even after I was off meth for a long time, I just had no energy to work as much as I wanted to... That was all a mental nightmare for me, lol...
But finally it's all starting to get better, so I've been working like crazy, lol, the more I work, the more I want to work. Always been like that, the less I work, the less I want to work... But I'm exhausted, I have a hard time with balance.
But work and being busy is good for me....
And I was able to shop for my mom at 'Tiffany's' for Mother's Day this year! : lol, She got one expensive keychain.. Was going to get her a necklace but she doesn't do silver, the keychain was more than the necklace so I am thinking she'll stop her bad habit of losing her keys all the time...
Ughhh, I cringe at the thought of the few years she got nothing but a phone call from me in my meth years... omg, I remember how bad I hated myself but I still bought my meth.... I think I might not of even sent her a card one or two years, lol, Never seemed to phaze her, as long as she got a phone call... Moms...
Anyway, She will be surprised this year.... and it was nice to write out that check
and walk out the door with my little blue bag and down Rodeo this year, as opposed to some dark location with a wad of cash...
Life is good, not easy, but good....
How are you? How's the baby?
I am Good!!~~ Have a year and 6 months or 7 months on the 14th...
I've been working Alot lately, I can finally do that again. lol, I used to be such
a workaholic, always busy doing something, then even before meth I was not in
a job I liked, which made meth so much more desirable, so I wasn't working as
much as I normally do, or making enough money....
Then even after I was off meth for a long time, I just had no energy to work as much as I wanted to... That was all a mental nightmare for me, lol...
But finally it's all starting to get better, so I've been working like crazy, lol, the more I work, the more I want to work. Always been like that, the less I work, the less I want to work... But I'm exhausted, I have a hard time with balance.
But work and being busy is good for me....
And I was able to shop for my mom at 'Tiffany's' for Mother's Day this year! : lol, She got one expensive keychain.. Was going to get her a necklace but she doesn't do silver, the keychain was more than the necklace so I am thinking she'll stop her bad habit of losing her keys all the time...
Ughhh, I cringe at the thought of the few years she got nothing but a phone call from me in my meth years... omg, I remember how bad I hated myself but I still bought my meth.... I think I might not of even sent her a card one or two years, lol, Never seemed to phaze her, as long as she got a phone call... Moms...
Anyway, She will be surprised this year.... and it was nice to write out that check
and walk out the door with my little blue bag and down Rodeo this year, as opposed to some dark location with a wad of cash...
Life is good, not easy, but good....
How are you? How's the baby?
I think you accidently dropped in because you were sent to give us a little bit of needed inspiration! LOL Thank you for sharing your story. I know your Mother will treasure her gift as well as the blessing of having you as a daughter.
Thanks..... I wasn't sure whether or not to bring up the part about my Mom or not, I know you all are happy for me, but I hate to make anyone feel bad. But I am glad you saw it as inspiration. Like I always say there is hope, as bad as it seems right now (for some), things can change. And your kid is still there some where, just know that one in there whose buying drugs instead of calling you or buying you a card has no idea what they are doing, and really wants with all their heart to be doing anything but that. I justified buying meth instead of her something I can still remember but gawd I hated myself so much
at the same time.... I also remember coming upstairs and cutting myself before I would even touch the bag of meth, and just wonder what the hell I got myself into... and how could I get out.... Things can change, I didn't think I could ever ever get myself out of the mess I got myself into.... But I did, One day, I did, "Just like that".......
You all are the best!! I love you all!!! And hope you all have a Very Happy
Mothers Day.... Just because your kids "Do love you"...
at the same time.... I also remember coming upstairs and cutting myself before I would even touch the bag of meth, and just wonder what the hell I got myself into... and how could I get out.... Things can change, I didn't think I could ever ever get myself out of the mess I got myself into.... But I did, One day, I did, "Just like that".......
You all are the best!! I love you all!!! And hope you all have a Very Happy
Mothers Day.... Just because your kids "Do love you"...
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