helpus

I think about how just 2 days ago I found out my daughter relapsed & is shooting heroin.
I think about how lucky she is to have her friend Josh who took her to the ER & is supporting her recovery.
I think about when I told my husband he cried.
I think about how he asked me, did she share a needle?
I think about how I didn't ask that question because I'm not ready for the answer
I think about how we went shopping when she was 18 to start getting things when she was on her own.
I think about how the beautinful sliverware set has probably been used to heat the herion.
I think about how she told me she has been wearing the same couple shirts to work to hide her trackmarks.
I think about how I didn't ask to see them cuz I can not look at my little girl like that.
I think about how I have dreamed the oppenheimer account she had from her dads death when she was 8 would pay for her college educaion.
I think about how the money is almost gone & she could end up homesless.
I think about how she will probably loose her job.
I think about the beautiful child she was with a beautiful soul.
I think about how she's got to be in there somewhere.
I think about how I could have done things different.
I think how I never knew my heart could ache so much.
I think I am greatful for today.

Done_With_It

((((Helpus)))))

She is still in there somewhere...
And you did everything just perfect.... Just as my mom did.
It's normal for kids to spread their wings, fly, make mistakes,
horrible ones for some of us for some reason, she'll find her
way.... don't lose hope....I'm sorry you are hurting so much..
Love and Light... ~Done~

teke

im sorry that all this has happened to your beautiful little girl, addiction brings so much sadness. seems like you have spent her whole life thinking about her, you've done all you know to do, and it still is what it is. please try to feel what you feel and ask your hp to help you release her to him. he loves her so much, he will take care of her and lead her to the place where he wants her to be, and now maybe think about you too.

i pray that i'm not over stepping a boundary here, i have kids too, and i know the pain of a mother's heart. i love you and your daugther, i don't want to see either of you hurting, my heart is hurting for you. maybe its time for you to trust your hp to do what he do best for her while he helps you take care of you.

just want you to know that i'm here for you just like you've been here for me.

marle

Helpus, Don't give up hope. Like Done said, your daughter is in there somewhere. Try not to think of all the things that should or should not have happened. That will only make you sadder. I know going there does not help me. Last time I saw my daughter she was wearing clothes that had not been washed in months. She had gained 30 pounds, weight that she did not need. I have even taken down her graduation pictures because she is no longer that girl and may never be again. I know it is so hard to see our beautiful daughters destroy themselves. I try to hold on to the hope that like Miss Done and so many others, that their addiction will make them into better people. People that someday we can be proud of even if they are not living the dream that we had for them. Lots of mom hugs coming your way my friend. Marle

lil516

Your words brought tears to my eyes...

I am praying for your child...
I do not know what will move her along her path to recovery but I pray that she finds what she needs

Everything you described was happening in my life and with my son this time last year...
I was in absolute despair....
i tried (unsuccessfully) to prepare myself to let him go and by that I do not mean "detach"...I believed we were going to watch him die...

What happened?
Why did he accept the long term committment in a facility?
Why did he hang on one day at a time?
Why did one day become 11 months?

I don't know ...but it did happen

a miracle happened
and the miracle continues
but the miracle requires a lot of hard work

I often wonder why he got another chance...
no answers but just the understanding that he (and I ) must pay it back

please don't give up hope
your daughter is still there fighting to get free of the pain of addiction

I will pray for those that support her recovery
I pray she gets another chance to try again

tropikgal2

Oh my......I could feel the pain in your post so much, I shed a tear with you. I hope and pray that your daughter finds a way to the Truth and a happy and peaceful life.
((BIG HUGS)))) and prayers

Hurtbad2505

Wow, if you only knew how your post reflects my thoughts and life...wow...

Please don't blame yourself for any of this..in my son's 'sober' moments we have talked about this, and he's emphatically looked in my eyes (not a usual occurance these days) and assured me that no matter what I would have said or done, it wouldn't have changed a thing.

If you believe in a 'Higher Power' now is the time to put this in his hands, I'm serious, I've been there and He has never let me down....

Lovestoomuch

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mjpaao

Helpus,
I could understand every line you wrote, even though my husband is the addict. She is in there, somewhere. I have no doubt that is true of all our a's.
I pray that she can find her way back soon.

sun daisy

Helpus- how true. I look at pics of son and think that some where in the mans body is the son I see in the pics. Kind of wishful thinking. All of our kids were at one time the light of our life. They still are as adults and we have all had dreams of what they would be like when grown up. But life doesn't always go the way we want. Even for us. I just hope and pray everynight to God to watch over and guide my children it the right direction. It helps me sleep at night that I have placed them in Gods watch. He will watch over all of us. Take Care

patchoulli

I've been there too. Just waiting for your baby to die, a phone call in the middle of the night. Please, take care of yourself, Don't give up hope, My daughter is 2 years clean and sober...Miracles do happen...Saying a prayer for you right this second, and for her too...Marian

bookmiser

Helpus,


Your not alone, sweetie.



Sending love and prayers up for you both,

hope213

she is in there & she will be back.hugs & prayers,

itiswhatitis...

helpus,

i think this post and it's responses are the reason sr is the best support forum i've ever found...

i think we are all in this place, at this time, for a reason none of us could have imagined...

i think that we will help each other through whatever may happen just by sharing and listening...

i think we will all be ok...

i hope...

love,
s

greeteachday

I'm having a hard time with words. Your post touches so much in my heart. She is there, sweetheart and you did nothing wrong...You have loved and continue to love your daughter unconditionally. That and asking HP to wrap her in his loving arms and bring her back again is all we can do. I'm praying for both of you. I'm here...you know that don't you? Love, lots of hugs and prayers.

mooselips

((((Helpus))))
There's always hope, always.
One year ago, I had doubts in my mind, that my sons would ever seek recovery, and be sober. Just for today, they both are.
Miracles happen.


Prayers for you, and your daughter...

Amanda930

Helpus you are not alone. My AB was suppose to turn out somewhat living an okay life. But drugs got into him. It's horrible. I had to go through alot of years wondering and waiting for him to recovery. Lets hope and pray that God will take these beloving children to heart and mend themselves back together again. You and your daughter are in my prayers.

Stay strong.

Ann

(((Helpus)))

Your words touched my heart today and the responses have rekindled my little flame of hope.

Two words have stuck with me...."Miracles happen"

My prayer goes out that your little girl finds her miracle today.

Hugs from a mother who knows.

marteen

((((helpus)))))

Don't ever give up hope. Hope for my AD's future is what keeps me going but I know that I can't help her get there.

I knew exactly what you were saying!

Lots of hugs and prayers.