Hope

I'm barely hanging on but I'm still hanging. This day has sucked so bad. I really want to drink............ and I hate that I want to drink. I miss drinking but it causes so much trouble in my life. I had a love/hate relationship with alcohol. It seemed ok only for a little while but when blackouts, hangovers, police intervention, and humiliation came in the picture, the fun was long gone.

I want to go the distance. I want to stay sober and yet I want to drink so bad!

I'm postponing it for tomorrow. If I say I'll drink TOMORROW and only focus on TODAY then TOMORROW will become TODAY and I'll deal with it then.

Not drinking or using just for today.

Dee74

yeah, I know what you mean, man...

today has been the first whole day I spent at home since I got 'dry' a week ago (well, first full day home and not detoxing) and I've had thoughts here and there that I 'should' have a drink in my hand...

so I've tried to keep busy, I cleaned up a bit, I took a walk, listened to music, I jumped on here a fair few times to get some inspiration and draw some strength...I think when you miss something, you gotta try and put something in it's place.

Seems to be working, at least for today. I'm getting through.

hang in there...I think it's the right way, compartmentalising it and looking at it day by day...deal with tomorrow tomorrow

D

Dee74

yeah, I know what you mean, man...

today has been the first whole day I spent at home since I got 'dry' a week ago (well, first full day home and not detoxing) and I've had thoughts here and there that I 'should' have a drink in my hand...

so I've tried to keep busy, I cleaned up a bit, I took a walk, listened to music, I jumped on here a fair few times to get some inspiration and draw some strength...I think when you miss something, you gotta try and put something in it's place.

Seems to be working, at least for today. I'm getting through.

hang in there...I think it's the right way, compartmentalising it and looking at it day by day...deal with tomorrow tomorrow

thinking of ya
D

barb dwyer

hope4 -

I'm starting eight months sober, and am still not 'above' tricking myself into not going for that first drink. We do what we gotta, and I think that's a good way to tell yourself to hold off...

way to go!

Smyle

hope....you can,t drink today either....okay....

keep hanging on ....

much love,
~Beezy

parentrecovers

sending encouragement to you, hope. you can do this. keep posting! blessings, k

Missymae737

Hope,


I too share your struggle of truly wanting to be sober and not drink, and at the same time, thoughts of wanting to drink,to drown my sorrows, is like slow torture...

You have done the right thing by expressing it here, Hope...You will be ok...


Thinking of you...

Luckyv2

One thing that I try to do today is to live according to the Principles that I have been taught. Yes to be honest I love getting high! I would be lying if I said that I didn't but what I don't like is that I can not control it. I hate that. So today we have a choice. I guess this is what I like. I can choose to use or not. I have the choice there was a time when I was using when I didn't have that choice. Actually one time someone says that relapse usually happens in the first year. So maybe we just need to hang on like you said until this passes. Glad that you are here.

With Love and Respect

Vic

wezzy55

Remember, go ahead and take that drink--but the problems wont go away they'll still be there along with more guilt and shame.....I am writing this for me..too....Good Luck

Tazman53

Oh yea, that right there was the answer for me, I replaced the pain and misery of 40 years all around me while I was drinking almost 7 months ago! I am now happy, joyous and free from alcohol and I have my HP, AA, the fellowship of AA, my sponsor, and the 12 steps of AA to thank for that.

Lollipop

((((Hope)))))

Stay strong sweetie!!!!! This too shall pass.......

Vic is right, you have the choice!!! That is a good thing!!!! Just tell that evil voice to go away because you chose not to play TODAY!!!!!


Let us know how you are!!!!

~HUGS!~ Liss

Missymae737

Hope,

Are you OK?? We are in this together, we can make it through the day...

Thinking of you...

Hope

I'm still hanging on. I was having an ok day until the last hour or so now the cravings are starting in full force.

I had a drinking dream last night. I dreamed that I was in a bar drinking tequila. I woke up and it was scary because it felt so real.

I am really upset now because my mom has flipped out on me and she is screaming. Anger is a big trigger for me so hopefully I will get through this crap.

Hope

I won't drink today.
Who's with me?

wezzy55

I'm still going stong--day 2--think I may go to my friends house tonight--she doesnt drink..I'm with ya

Missymae737

I am with you Hope!!! We are in this together, as I am still battling cravings.

Hope

We can do this!!!

Anna

Hi Hope,

I'm glad you made it through last night and today too!

You can do this!

nogard

Cheryl always with you congrats on getting through this and keep going.

Remember drinking/using dreams can also be a form of release you being getting rid of the past by expressing it.

I am with you and holding your hand we can do this, I can't but we can.

Love Kevin

Dee74

I'm with you too, Hope4Life...no drinks today.
solid.

D