splithead

i stopped using pain pills (hydros, oxys) you name it for four months. i started using again about 2 months ago takiging 200 to 300 milligrams a day. i miserable and afraid. imout of pills now and am tired of trying to find my next fix. i wanna quit again, but am very afraid of what im gonna go thru. need help. please. im very scared. ive lost everything.

TINLIZZY

Splithead -

Welcome to SR.

I have no experience with pills. . . only alcohol. This site is like a family, and I'm sure that someone will be along soon with some good advice for you.

Hang in there. Have you been to the doctor and been REALLY honest?? It is important!!!

TinLizzy

Hope

It is good that you are ready to give this another go. I wasn't addicted to pills but I understand the desperation of running out and the suffering that follows. You have 4 months as a foundation and you can do it again. The first thing is to not beat yourself up. What's done is done but be proud of yourself for making the decision to stop now. You can fix what has been damaged in your life. Everything looks hopeless and dark now because you have been lost in addiction. Addiction wants you to think it's hopeless- but THERE IS HOPE!

We are all here for you! You do not have to go through this alone. *hugs*

splithead

im not sure. i physically feel like i might die. im very paniced. need someone to talk me thru this. where the hell is vic.

nogard

hi splithead,

When I got that desperate I did what it took. First you probably need to see a Doc and tell them openly and honestly whats going on and then maybe a detox and of course after that you need support, supported accomadtion, rehab and a program are all good options.

Just hang in there and keep talking.

Vic will be around at some point.

I am here if you want to talk.

Kevin

nogard

You still using at the moment? Best thing you can do is get some rest.

Rowan

Definitely see a doc as soon as you can - I know the crazies that come from getting off pills. Hang in!

splithead

nogard, and rowan, im very afraid! im detox'n real hard! am i gonna be ok? im scared!!!!

nogard

if your having a rough time physically then get your self to hosiptal now, in fact phone them now don't try and detox on your own, get help NOW.

Kevin

CarolD

Go to the ER...Go to the ER...Go to the ER

Hugs

nogard

yep splithead what Carol says - NOW

splithead

the er sent me to rehab. i dont need rehab, ineed to detox safley.

nogard

instead of posting here get to ER and let them decide the rest.

splithead

the er didnt do ****, but send me me to a rehab. posting here is of more help than they were!

CarolD

If you want to be safe...
call 911 and get to the ER.

Do you mean they sent you to de tox
or to rehab?

nogard

debating here won't help. You need to be somewhere they can help you, thats ER and if they send you to a detox then go there.

splithead

they sent me to rehab not detox! im not debating, im telling it how it is!

nogard

well if your sitting there detox'g on your own your in trouble, so whats your plan?

CarolD

No debate from me either...sorry

I think you need professional help to be safe.

Neither you nor I are doctors.
And your mind is not clear at this time.

Good luck

splithead

i have no plan! thats why im so afraid!