topetah

im a firm believer in one day at a time now. thats how im going to kick these demonds. they still talk to me. today even louder than usual. i had the thought today just drink one more time. its fri you already messed up earler this week, just do it! all day these words came to my mind. im not going to drink i keep telling myself. today im staying sober. tomarrow will be better. funny how these negative thoughts come and go as they please. i have 2 days sober now and im not going to mess it up again. wish these demonds would shut the hell up lol. plus when i was working i got an office e mail. it says next sat come all to the yacht club for free food and a keg of beer! relax and welcome spring with us! seems there is temptation every where. even here at work. this isnt going to be easy but im going to do this.... im tired of failing over and over again. time for me to put the ole foot down and stay possitive. its a beautiful day today

Aysha

Yes it definately is a beautiful day. My mind has been bouncing a little the past couple days. Nothing major. I seem to be able to get over really quick. Thank goodness. But still its like a debate in my brain sometimes. My test is when I get a good amount of cash on hand . Plus for some reason when I feel I am kickin butt and doing really good I feel so good about it I think ok I am making it ..One time isnt going to hurt. But it will! And I wont. Its like everyone want to get messed up to celebrate ...to medicate or eliminate. Theres just no way around it. Its there and always will be. Thats why we need to keep on our toes.
Good job Jason. You are doing good.

Anna

Hi Topetah,

It sounds like you made the right decision today. Each time you beat one of those cravings, you will get stronger and next time will be easier.

Rowan

Yup, Anna's right. Every time you say no to that craving, and get through that painful stuff, you'll be that much better prepared the next time. It's hard work, and it hurts, but it's SO worth it.

Rowan

hope3

Yep, thats the spirit Topetah, just keep telling

those voices, no, no, no, no, no....

One day at a time, hugs, hope3