patchoulli

Today I picked up Keiths ashes. I drove over a bridge that we spent many nites on and boated and rafted in the water[actually caught a shark in a rubber raft], and I sat and talked to him, I held his ashes next to my heart for about an hour, for some reason It was comforting, and I just reminisced about the wonderful things we did[including fooling around on a rubber raft, wouldn't recommend it]....I spoke about how much I loved him and that I have no regrets, and that I would go for that ride again, because the Keith I loved was worth loving. The addict that had no conscience, and that stole, hid, lied, and killed Keith, was not anyone that I knew...I cried and cried and I let him go in the water, the wind picked up and some of what was him, was carried away...He would have loved that...I am doing well. I spent the afternoon riding with my girlfriend and her fiancee, and had a lovely afternoon with people that truly care for me....How lucky am I....Marian

havehope

Marian
My heart goes out to you. You set such a good example for everyone here. You are not bitter about what has happened and are choosing to remember all of the good things between you and Keith. You are an inspiration to me and I'm sure others here. You are simply amazing. I'm sorry you had to know the addict side of Keith, but I believe you are a better person for it. We are the lucky ones who get to read your thoughts about this whole addiction stuff. Glad you had a peaceful day.
Hugs
Terri

marle

((((Marian)))) Thank you for sharing. Keith may have died due to his addiction but he will live on in your heart due to love. Hugs, Marle

greeteachday

((((((Marian)))))))
I'm so glad you had this special personal memorial to Keith. He sounds like he was a loving and fun person who cared so much for you. Addiction took Keith from you, but the memories of the beautiful times you had together will live on in your heart. They are precious gifts Keith left for you always. Hugs and prayers.

outonalimb

((((((Marian)))))

You are one beautiful soul.

Thank you for sharing your precious memories with us.
Keith was truly blessed to have you in his life...and you were both blessed to have such happy times together. I'm so glad that you have such sweet memories of him to comfort you. He's still with you. He always will be. Death might be powerful but it can't rob us of our memories or our love. It just can't.

Loving thoughts and prayers to you tonight...

teke

i glad that you are finding peace at last, your love for the man keith is shining so bright through you and your post, i'm sure he's know and will allow be a part of your heart, i personally believe that you two may meet again someday, that physical death is the end here and the beginning somewhere else. love ya and thanks for all you give.

Ann

That was truly beautiful, Marian. Addiction can never steal the good memories you have and will carry in your heart forever. I have a feeling Keith smiled down on you today as he rested with God.

Hugs

faith123

Your post brought tears to my eyes. This is the end we all fear. Thank you for reminding me to remember the good times.

duet_4-8

Thanks for sharing your heart

lilac

Bless you.

hopeforever

marian!!!
thank u for sharring!!
im happy that you didi what u did.. it will bring lots of peace to your life!!
lets saya prayer together
GOD
give peace to marian
and help her and her family amen

hope213

you have got a lot of strength.my your H.P. keep blessing you.hugs & prayers,hope

patchoulli

thank you so much everyone... Marian

mooselips

(((Marian))))
Like Ann said, nohing can erase good memories...
And I'm sure he's smiling down on you, and proud of you.....