hopeforever

i dont know isit good or bad
but how i start to feel lately is like im alone,, with the kids,,andthat immarried ,,butso many times im alone,, im looking at pictures of our family,,
andin almost every picture ,, there is something that my husbands addiction took away from us..all of us including him,,,,,,,and sometimes ifeel so empty inside,,,idont know how to explain it,,,,,and than today when iwas with my kids in thecar,,myfavorite music was on loud,,, ifeltsolucky that i have my kids and my husband,, even if he wasnt with us, now in thecar.and than i felt,,like im getting stronger from all the things that happen tome in life,,,like ill be ok,,and will beok,,and thatican survive everything,,and get stronger from all ofthis pain...and that my husband will always stay my husband,,addict or not but ill be strong,,and raise the kids to behappy,,to be strong people,,and be atpeace with themself .and one day myabe my husband will be ,,ok,,but for now ill concentrate on me and the kids anddo anything i have in me to make my kids happy..
justwanted to share my thougths that wasinmy head today,thanks for having aplace to share

jeepgirl

Hang in there (((Hope))). You sound like you are growing with your experiences. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
Jeepgirl

teke

i'm so proud of you, you are such a brave and strong person, i feel your beauty radiating through the comp. keeping you and your family in my prayers

patchoulli

you are so strong...