SOOO Scared, Part II
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SOOO Scared, Part II
I leave for "detox" in four hours, and I AM DRINKING. They told me to not stop due to the possible side effects (um, death?), but instead of trying to work through it on my own, I had way too much to drink last night, woke up, and started drinking again. It's my routine, and one that I fell into so damned easily again.
This is going to be so freakin' hard. I am so scared to even check myself in tomorrow. Can I do this? Can I do this and be SUCCESSFUL? I think the latter is the most important question.
Anyway, I just had to put it out there, on the off chance that someone is online and can talk me from stopping to pour that next drink. If I was ever confused that this is a true addiction, I'm sure as heck not now!
I have a few Lunesta's left, and I think I'm going to take one of those and see if I can sleep off the rest of the few hours. I am so scared. I am set to do 3-5 days in detox and then figure out a way to live with this addiction...and it's the hardest thing I've been through thus far. God, how did it get to this?
Anyway, I'm going to (heavy) pour one more drink and pop a Lunesta. At the very least, I'll stop drinking and get a little sleep. And then it's off to what's most likely the hardest 5 days of my life. I have NO qualms about going; waking up and doing this makes me know that what I am doing is right...and more importantly, NEEDED. But I'm going to be struggling with replacements to this activity. That's for sure.
A good night/morning to all. Thank you for listening/reading.
Jess
This is going to be so freakin' hard. I am so scared to even check myself in tomorrow. Can I do this? Can I do this and be SUCCESSFUL? I think the latter is the most important question.
Anyway, I just had to put it out there, on the off chance that someone is online and can talk me from stopping to pour that next drink. If I was ever confused that this is a true addiction, I'm sure as heck not now!
I have a few Lunesta's left, and I think I'm going to take one of those and see if I can sleep off the rest of the few hours. I am so scared. I am set to do 3-5 days in detox and then figure out a way to live with this addiction...and it's the hardest thing I've been through thus far. God, how did it get to this?
Anyway, I'm going to (heavy) pour one more drink and pop a Lunesta. At the very least, I'll stop drinking and get a little sleep. And then it's off to what's most likely the hardest 5 days of my life. I have NO qualms about going; waking up and doing this makes me know that what I am doing is right...and more importantly, NEEDED. But I'm going to be struggling with replacements to this activity. That's for sure.
A good night/morning to all. Thank you for listening/reading.
Jess
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jess, your doing the right thing by going...
jess you say its needed... make shure you want it too...
all good wishes, and report back when ya can...
set the alarm clock too...put it on LOUD! lol
xxoo, rz
jess you say its needed... make shure you want it too...
all good wishes, and report back when ya can...
set the alarm clock too...put it on LOUD! lol
xxoo, rz
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