Hope

The mental obsession to use is really bad tonight.

My cell phone is broken because when I did my laundry, I forgot my cell phone was in the pocket of my jeans. Arggh.. My cell phone is fried and dead.

I guess not having my phone is good in a way because I can't call around looking for drugs but I also don't have anyway to call any body in recovery.
I just feel like getting drunk, high or anything to change the way I feel because being in my own skin is really uncomfortable right now.

I probably won't drink or use because I'm so tired tonight that I don't even have the energy to go to the bar, to a dealer, and the liquor store is closed. Another sober day for me even though today has been a struggle.

I feel really good when I don't let my addiction win. It does scream in my ear sometimes... REALLY loud. Makes me wonder if I'm going crazy.

nogard

Hi Cheryl,

Try going for a walking and then reading something. Drink a large milk drink that will fill you up. Just hold on, go to bed early.

Kevin

Hope

Thanks Kevin. I just wrote my sponsor an email telling her about my phone.

I'm going to go to bed early. My body feels exhausted. Probably from the craziness in my head today, lol.

Grateful for another clean and sober 24!

CarolD

Prayers for your peace

teej

Hi Cheryl!!
I agree, just go to bed! You will feel differently tomorrow I bet! Hang in there!!

hugs,
tj

Phinneas

Ditto, Hope. Be well. Things will look different in the morning.