Sunflower

OK right now my AS is in recovery--but before that he was always throwing inn my face that I was an ''addict''
I have lupus and other chronic pain conditions.For 5 years I could barely walk or get out of bed or dress my self.
They tried all kinds of medications for me--eventually when all was exhausted they put me on Narcotics.
Right now I take morphine--it is the only medicine I have taken that gives mme some kind of life---I was able to give up my crutch--walk better-think clearer--and have a level of pain I can live with....
I know when or if I have to stop this medication I will have to be hospitalised. So in a sence I am an addict--under doctors care..
Does that bother some of you..
Should I be posting here?

miss communicat

it doesnt bother me, but then I am not the judge of anyone else.

I am sorry that you are in pain and stressed to the point of having symptoms from chronic lupus.

Have you gone deeper in your inner work to find the root cause of lupus, maybe so that it could become less debilitating so that you won't need painmeds?

I know a few of my clients have had some breakthroughs with this condiion that are outside of the parameters of what western medicine prognosticated for them. Maybe it was magic, luck or spiritual healing. I dont know, but I would not give up....Keep the faith Frzzylynn!

eliza

To answer your ? yes you should be posting here ,there are alot of good people with good advice ,and more than likely he is only saying that to make himself feel
that he's not the only bad guy here which is understandable because when we realize we have a decease that we can control by abstinence we tend to be envious or jealous that some body might be getting away with a free high, not understanding ,that I'm sure you would probably trade pretty much anything ,not to need to have to take the morphine
Keep coming back

FormerDoormat

Everyone is welcome, FrizzyLynn. Have you tried going to a pain management specialist? That may be of great help to you.

mallowcup

I don't think it's wrong. I think it is poinient.

Sunflower

Thanks so much for your repliess-I want you to know I have been everywhere and done everything I can do to live a better life--Every doctor and specialist and test known to man kind. I am actively involved with a pain management clinic and MD-neurologists-rheumatologist-immunologists- I live on the East Coast and I even went to Boston!
I have found a medicine that works(actually I never feel high at all)-I walk alot-I meditate-chant-pray-sing-I do yoga-and I write--all these seem to help me keep centered. I also se a psychologists with my pain management.
I will tell you it has been difficult to try and get myself to a halfway normal life dealing with the AS at the same time.I am sure it hasn't helped any--But all in all like I have said I have learned to enjoy the little things--and be able to see the signs the HP sends me all the time.
Imagine how low you have to go to beat up a sick mother?? Broke my arm-left me more of a mess than I was in..But that was in the past--looking forward now.....

DesertEyes

You are free to call yourself anything you like. In AA and NA the word "addict" is only used for people who take mind-altering chemicals in a non-medical manner. If a doc prescribes _medicine_ for you, and you take it as prescribed, then the official view is that you are not an addict.

The al-anon / nar-anon view is that if chemical use by another person is affecting our lives in a harmful way then we need to take healthy actions to protect ourselves.

I have a few health conditions too, and the docs have given me morphine and percocet from time to time. I currently take a variety of other stuff. I see myself as "dependent" on those meds, the same way I am dependent on ordinary food and water. I'm not addicted to them cuz if the docs came up with better meds I'd switch in a minute, and if they came up with a cure I'd be off all meds in a second.

From what you describe you are taking medication as prescribed, and it's use is _beneficial_ to you, and you are not causing harm to anybody else. So as far as I'm concerned you're not an "addict" and you are more than welcome to post here.

Mike