KJBiersteker

On the side of the road covered in vomit. My fuel line was torn out, due to the drunk guy I let drive my car apparently...

I passed out for 4 hours and woke up... the fallout from that night is still coming and it was 2 days or 3 days ago... Legal implications aplenty...


I nearly died from alcohol overdose, drug overdose, there was a loaded gun in the car apparently, there was so much crap that happened that I don't even know about because I was either unconscious or my brain just didn't have the capacity to remember any of it...

That's my story of why I'm now pushing myself to stay sober. I won't go into rehab, and I won't seek professional help again, it never worked. I 100% believe in myself that I can do this now.

But what do other members do when the urge strike's 'em? I just decided to cook a meal instead of chugging my parents beer.. so far so good heh.

Midas

We're glad you're alive and here. Welcome!

What do I do when I think about drinking? I rewind the tape (all the crap that led up to quitting) and play it all the way through. I usually have to stop the tape because the ending is a little too gruesome. In other words, I contemplate whether or not I want to go through outpatient treatment and everything all over again. My answer is a simple "No". I used to say the serenity prayer a lot too. I still do sometimes.

Hang in there & Keep Coming Back!

best

As we get some recovery under our belt, the steps will tell us to let go of yesterday.
For now it is good to remember everything that you can and like Midas said...rewind the tape.

I added to the tape with the thoughts of what could happen if I continue drinking...
#1 Repeat of past mistakes...as bad as they were, that would be the least of my problems.
#2 Maybe hurt or kill someone while drinking and driving?
#3 Increase the severity of my past mistake and/or add more amounts over a shorter period of time.
#4 Get caught for the mistakes of the past or the mistakes to come by continueing and end up in jail.
Oh and remember that vomit smell. That helped a bit as well.
I happened to be wearing a white crushed velvet tux at the time and the car windows were closed when I woke up at 9AM - 80 degrees in the car.

aasharon90

Welcome KJ...this is an awesome place to be here
in SR...Lots of good people sharing their own ESH
with each other....EXPERIENCES, STRENGTHS AND HOPE.

For me I had tried sooo many times to quit drinking
on my own....i had a horrible accident where i had my
first ever ride in the EMS truck and i dont even re-
member it...I spent 10 day in the hospital with them
removing my punctured spleen are i would have bled
to death....Many broken ribs contusions bones etc...

Lets just say i was a mess....

Sure i healed nicely within a few months not drinking...
but i had pain pills to take its place....as soon as
i healed nicely and the pills didnt have much use
anymore....and after vowing to not drink again...

Do u actually think this alcoholic learned her lesson...

NOT..! No way....the obsession from Feb 90 to Aug 90
grew so rapidly that i had no idea....It was in Aug. I
tried to end my life....Amazing how that happened...

So thru family intervention i was picked up by the
police thru a court order and taken to the nut house
first before i was evaluated and told i had a drinking
problem....

My family did for me what i couldnt do for myself...

Thank God for them or i wouldnt be here.

I recieved the tools and knowledge about my
alcoholism after spending 28 days in rehab...

I knew upon release how important it was for me
to follow the suggestions so freely given to me...

So For the next 16 yrs i have crawled and walked
in recovery taking each step of our program and
applying it to my everyday life.....

I am here and now....not perfect....and not exempt
from the thought of drinking....I can avoid the temptation
on a daily bases by shariing my own ESH with those who
wish to listen....This recovery is for me...no one else....

If i dont stay sober then im no good to anyone else
around me....

So staying sober is that important to me....

Thanks for letting me share.

leviathon

Hi and welcome to SR. I am a community greeter at SR. Just dropping you a note to say welcome and hope you find the experience strength and hope here that you are looking for.

If at any time you have questions and are unsure of who to ask, the greeters are identified by their names being in bold green and the moderators are in bold blue. We are all very open to questions or concerns.

Peace, Levi

Tazman53

The urge no longer hits me which is suprising after 40 years of using and a mere 113 days of sobriety. I am in AA so the one time the urge did hit me I simply picked up the phone and called people in my network, people that no matter what the hour will help me, even if it means crawling out of a warm bed at 3 in the morning. I am not alone and as a result of my HP and the fellowship of AA I remain sober and happier then I have been in 30 years.

If you can go it alone then I say go for it, we will be here to cheer you on, I couldn't do it alone, I tried for 10 years and it did not work.

CarolD

Welcome...

Start AA/NA meetings.
Nothing professional about them!

You can find all sorts of support
and new sober friends.