TOPIC: Are You A Real Alcoholic? Can You Ever Drink Normally Again?
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TOPIC: Are You A Real Alcoholic? Can You Ever Drink Normally Again?
Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.
By the Grace of my HP and people
like you here in SR i havent had
a drink of alcohol since 8-11-90.
For that im truely grateful.
"Most of us have been unwilling to admit we were
real alcoholics. No person likes to think he is
bodily and mentally different from his fellows.
Therefore, it is not surprising that our drinking
careers have been characterized by countless vain
attempts to prove we could drink like other people.
The idea that somehow, someday he will control and
enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every
abnormal drinker. The persistence of this illusion
is astonishing. Many pursue it into the gates of
insanity or death."
I use to think i could drink normally. No problems.
I could stop and start with ease. Little did I know
i had a rapid disease destroying my life...my insides...
Then i got sober. Was filled with knowledge of my
disease and had the desire to drink lifted emmediately
from me. Then had the willingness to do whatever it
took to stay sober one day at a time. To go to any
lenghts to do so.
Do i think i can one day drink sucessfully.....???
NO WAY.....
There were to may times i tried that route and failed.
Too many vein attempts and failed.
When i tried on my own and failed countless
times, i became worn out...i wanted to end
my miserable life....when that failed too and
intervention saved my life....i knew i couldnt
drink sucessfully again.
Alcohol is poison to me....If i want to die all i have
to do is drink....
Today i have no desire to end my life nor drink.
How about you?
By the Grace of my HP and people
like you here in SR i havent had
a drink of alcohol since 8-11-90.
For that im truely grateful.
"Most of us have been unwilling to admit we were
real alcoholics. No person likes to think he is
bodily and mentally different from his fellows.
Therefore, it is not surprising that our drinking
careers have been characterized by countless vain
attempts to prove we could drink like other people.
The idea that somehow, someday he will control and
enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every
abnormal drinker. The persistence of this illusion
is astonishing. Many pursue it into the gates of
insanity or death."
I use to think i could drink normally. No problems.
I could stop and start with ease. Little did I know
i had a rapid disease destroying my life...my insides...
Then i got sober. Was filled with knowledge of my
disease and had the desire to drink lifted emmediately
from me. Then had the willingness to do whatever it
took to stay sober one day at a time. To go to any
lenghts to do so.
Do i think i can one day drink sucessfully.....???
NO WAY.....
There were to may times i tried that route and failed.
Too many vein attempts and failed.
When i tried on my own and failed countless
times, i became worn out...i wanted to end
my miserable life....when that failed too and
intervention saved my life....i knew i couldnt
drink sucessfully again.
Alcohol is poison to me....If i want to die all i have
to do is drink....
Today i have no desire to end my life nor drink.
How about you?
Mental Clarity
Join Date: Jan 2007
Location: San Jose, CA
Posts: 7
Amen To That Sharon
Couldn't have put it better myself. Words to live by. I see you even have a few years on me in the 'Sober Saddle'. Congradulations!!
Yep, if you give me one beer you might as well go out & buy me a whole case. 'Cause it'll take that many before I fall down & feel better again.
Happy New Year!
Yep, if you give me one beer you might as well go out & buy me a whole case. 'Cause it'll take that many before I fall down & feel better again.
Happy New Year!
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Join Date: Nov 2005
Location: Nursing Home in Brick, New Jersey
Posts: 5,174
Yeah...I think I passed all the criteria...earned my seat in AA, effective 11/15/79. But, I had to learn to "identify, not compare" early on...because there were so many who had sunk so low, while others seemed to think the rooms had revolving doors. I kept noticing those who weren't able to quit/stay sober...instead of focusing in on the many who were working a good program, including many old-timers.
Once I got past that nagging, stinkin' thinkin', "Maybe I'm not an alcoholic...I'm not as bad as him/her," I was able to admit and believe; and, when I said, "My name is Rae, and I'm an alcoholic", I knew in my heart it was true, and drinking alcohol was no longer an option for me.
Once I got past that nagging, stinkin' thinkin', "Maybe I'm not an alcoholic...I'm not as bad as him/her," I was able to admit and believe; and, when I said, "My name is Rae, and I'm an alcoholic", I knew in my heart it was true, and drinking alcohol was no longer an option for me.
Sober and Free
Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: bay area CA
Posts: 398
I needed this, thank you.
I think one of the things that makes this trip into soberity so different is that I have finially accepted that I can not drink normally. I want to try again, but I know that I would fail and to fail could mean my life, my family, my daughters, my friends, my spiriual group. My world, gone. And only that dark hole in which I once existed.
I know that to try again would be letting it control my life.
This time, unlike any other time, I am deeply mourning the loss of my shot glasses, of my hot liquid jewel. I am mourning the loss of it. I know that sounds odd, but my saddness in it's passing feels like a finality. That portion of my life is over. For the next hour of every hour, my goal is to be sober. And my reward is soberity. If I fall, I will pick myself up again and keep moving forward. I can not hide in denial now that I have finially accepted the reality. My HP see's to that.
No. I can not drink normally. The fact that it is so sad to me only reitterates and strengths the reality that I can not drink normally, nor should I try.
I am an alcoholic. I am a recovering alcoholic, but an alcoholic all the same.
But I take joy in that too. I am strong, self knowedgable, and loved by my HP. And I have all of you, all the recovering community, as my family.
I think one of the things that makes this trip into soberity so different is that I have finially accepted that I can not drink normally. I want to try again, but I know that I would fail and to fail could mean my life, my family, my daughters, my friends, my spiriual group. My world, gone. And only that dark hole in which I once existed.
I know that to try again would be letting it control my life.
This time, unlike any other time, I am deeply mourning the loss of my shot glasses, of my hot liquid jewel. I am mourning the loss of it. I know that sounds odd, but my saddness in it's passing feels like a finality. That portion of my life is over. For the next hour of every hour, my goal is to be sober. And my reward is soberity. If I fall, I will pick myself up again and keep moving forward. I can not hide in denial now that I have finially accepted the reality. My HP see's to that.
No. I can not drink normally. The fact that it is so sad to me only reitterates and strengths the reality that I can not drink normally, nor should I try.
I am an alcoholic. I am a recovering alcoholic, but an alcoholic all the same.
But I take joy in that too. I am strong, self knowedgable, and loved by my HP. And I have all of you, all the recovering community, as my family.
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Originally Posted by BrandiK 
This time, unlike any other time, I am deeply mourning the loss of my shot glasses, of my hot liquid jewel. I am mourning the loss of it. I know that sounds odd, but my saddness in it's passing feels like a finality.
That does not sound odd at all, To me too it is a sad loss a loss of something that has been an intricate part of your life for a very long time.
Deciding to let it goes is a very difficult decision. You should be proud fo your self for making such a tough decision. Fell free to mourn your loss, it is a necessary part of going on.
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I really benefitted from this thread... thank you.
I must admit when I saw that title I was like "Oh no, not the same old debate again...!" but this was very helpful. Thank you!
Levi
I must admit when I saw that title I was like "Oh no, not the same old debate again...!" but this was very helpful. Thank you!
Levi
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Bringing up some of the same topics
allows the newer members to join in
with their ESH.
For me reputition is important....repeating
good habits is also good. It keeps me
in check with whats important....and
not drinking is very important.
Also working my recovery program to the
best of my ability...and to share my own
ESH with you and others ..is that important.
When bringing up a new topic for the newcomers
it allows us to get a fresh insight from them.
They just like us can benifit from old and new
topics. Fresh thoughts for the day.
allows the newer members to join in
with their ESH.
For me reputition is important....repeating
good habits is also good. It keeps me
in check with whats important....and
not drinking is very important.
Also working my recovery program to the
best of my ability...and to share my own
ESH with you and others ..is that important.
When bringing up a new topic for the newcomers
it allows us to get a fresh insight from them.
They just like us can benifit from old and new
topics. Fresh thoughts for the day.
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