please tell me just dont drink !!!
Im not crazy and neither am I
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Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: My place in (M)Assachusetts
Posts: 2,088
please tell me just dont drink !!!
after dealing with losing my insurance, a crappy visit w therapist a usless mail and lack of communication from the X with no signs of loss or sadness
I find myself with out a meeting for a couple hours
I REALLY WANT A DRINK !!!!!!!!
i havent really even wanted for one in the last week just the pain to go away
i think it has increased right along w frustration, anxiety, anger, sadness
as mny can read and see from my last posts that things are rough anyway - I dont need this right now !!!
asking HP for help NOW !
I cant blow it now Ive got nearly a week and I would be kicking myself on the first sip.....but probably drink it anyways and not stop there even if the pancreatits kicked in and causes pain !
I find myself with out a meeting for a couple hours
I REALLY WANT A DRINK !!!!!!!!
i havent really even wanted for one in the last week just the pain to go away
i think it has increased right along w frustration, anxiety, anger, sadness
as mny can read and see from my last posts that things are rough anyway - I dont need this right now !!!
asking HP for help NOW !
I cant blow it now Ive got nearly a week and I would be kicking myself on the first sip.....but probably drink it anyways and not stop there even if the pancreatits kicked in and causes pain !
Garden variety drunk
Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Laramie, Wy
Posts: 13
I hope you won't mind if I call HP "God," because, well, that's what I call It.
If you're like me, you can't handle the urge to drink. God can. Give it to God. Anything you can't handle, just hand it over. Anxiety, sadness, frustration, all that stuff overwhelms us. And when we get overwhelmed, we drink, and when we drink, maybe we die. So just let go of it and give it to the One who can handle anything.
Don't worry about blowing or not blowing anything. All you have is today, and today is a gift. Speaking for myself, I didn't do anything to deserve my alcoholism, and I didn't do anything to deserve the gift of this one sober day. It brings me great peace and security to know that those things do not depend on shaky, unstable, unreliable me.
I just want to send you the same thoughts and feelings that saved me during the times when I couldn't depend on myself.
If you're like me, you can't handle the urge to drink. God can. Give it to God. Anything you can't handle, just hand it over. Anxiety, sadness, frustration, all that stuff overwhelms us. And when we get overwhelmed, we drink, and when we drink, maybe we die. So just let go of it and give it to the One who can handle anything.
Don't worry about blowing or not blowing anything. All you have is today, and today is a gift. Speaking for myself, I didn't do anything to deserve my alcoholism, and I didn't do anything to deserve the gift of this one sober day. It brings me great peace and security to know that those things do not depend on shaky, unstable, unreliable me.
I just want to send you the same thoughts and feelings that saved me during the times when I couldn't depend on myself.
Im not crazy and neither am I
Thread Starter
Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: My place in (M)Assachusetts
Posts: 2,088
thx ed & liiise
just what the Dr ordered. a large glass of dont do it !
ive been almost convincing myself it would be ok
meeting sooooooon...............
just what the Dr ordered. a large glass of dont do it !
ive been almost convincing myself it would be ok
meeting sooooooon...............
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Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: London.On
Posts: 16
12-Step Visit From St. Nicholas
T'was the night before Christmas When I went on a bender,
Not a creature was stirring, not even a bartender.
The empties were stacked by the chimney just fine,
In hopes that St. Nick would fill them with wine.
With Mama in her kerchief and I with my booze,
We'd just settled down for a long winter's snooze.
When out on the lawn there arose such a clatter,
I put down my drink to see what was the matter.
Away to the window I crawled and then stumbled
To open the shutters where I stood and just mumbled.
Then what to my bloodshot eyes should there appear
But a miniature sleigh and eight tiny reindeer.
I thought it was DT's and needed help quick!
I didn't know it was only St. Nick.
I poured myself another as the reindeer came
While he shouted and called them by name:
"Now Barfly! Now Wino! Now Boozer and Rummy!
On Drunkard! On Alky! On Dipso and Dummy!"
So up to the housetop St. Nicholas flew
While I pulled the pop-top on another brew.
I trembled with fear when I heard a new sound--
Down the chimney came St. Nick with a bound.
His cheeks were like roses, he grinned like a possum,
His eyes, how they twinkled, his nose had rum-blossoms!
I offered him a drink, step up to the bar,
"Not today," he said, "I am now so-ber."
He had a clear face and a little beer belly,
That shook when he laughed like a bowl
full of jelly.
This was too much, it increased my thirst.
"Hold it!" said St. Nick, "First things first.
You don't have to drink, easy does it,
Now that wasn't too hard, was it?"
He reached in his sack and with a great fuss
He gave me the book "Alcoholics Anonymous."
"Read this 'Big Book' for a life sublime,
Follow the principles one day at a time.
"This is the best present I can give,
Twelve steps -- a new way to live.
The AA program keeps me sober, it's true."
Then giving a nod, up the chimney he flew.
Then I heard him exclaim as he drove out of sight,
"You now have a choice, starting tonight.
So Merry Christmas to all and to all Season's Greetings,
Don't pick up that first drink, and go to AA meetings!"
Click Santa's Sleigh and Go To A Meeting!
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T'was the night before Christmas When I went on a bender,
Not a creature was stirring, not even a bartender.
The empties were stacked by the chimney just fine,
In hopes that St. Nick would fill them with wine.
With Mama in her kerchief and I with my booze,
We'd just settled down for a long winter's snooze.
When out on the lawn there arose such a clatter,
I put down my drink to see what was the matter.
Away to the window I crawled and then stumbled
To open the shutters where I stood and just mumbled.
Then what to my bloodshot eyes should there appear
But a miniature sleigh and eight tiny reindeer.
I thought it was DT's and needed help quick!
I didn't know it was only St. Nick.
I poured myself another as the reindeer came
While he shouted and called them by name:
"Now Barfly! Now Wino! Now Boozer and Rummy!
On Drunkard! On Alky! On Dipso and Dummy!"
So up to the housetop St. Nicholas flew
While I pulled the pop-top on another brew.
I trembled with fear when I heard a new sound--
Down the chimney came St. Nick with a bound.
His cheeks were like roses, he grinned like a possum,
His eyes, how they twinkled, his nose had rum-blossoms!
I offered him a drink, step up to the bar,
"Not today," he said, "I am now so-ber."
He had a clear face and a little beer belly,
That shook when he laughed like a bowl
full of jelly.
This was too much, it increased my thirst.
"Hold it!" said St. Nick, "First things first.
You don't have to drink, easy does it,
Now that wasn't too hard, was it?"
He reached in his sack and with a great fuss
He gave me the book "Alcoholics Anonymous."
"Read this 'Big Book' for a life sublime,
Follow the principles one day at a time.
"This is the best present I can give,
Twelve steps -- a new way to live.
The AA program keeps me sober, it's true."
Then giving a nod, up the chimney he flew.
Then I heard him exclaim as he drove out of sight,
"You now have a choice, starting tonight.
So Merry Christmas to all and to all Season's Greetings,
Don't pick up that first drink, and go to AA meetings!"
Click Santa's Sleigh and Go To A Meeting!
Top of Page
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Im not crazy and neither am I
Thread Starter
Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: My place in (M)Assachusetts
Posts: 2,088
Hey big sis, izz4us, liiis, Ed!
I cannot even tell you how comletely different today is !
Everyone said it would pass and it actually did !!!!
Maybe that is my HP at work ??
I hate mondays but this last one I felt a little better won the raffel @ a meeting and got a book whick I donated to the prisoners in a nearby correctional institute. Ive got too much stuff anyway.
Tuesday sucked !
Even though I was told on tuesday that my health insurance is being cancelled TODAY I still have hope and I am feeling a boatload different !
Give yourself a huge portion of gratitude and thanks from ME !
My family didnt even call to see how I was doing in nearly a week - maybe more. Dunno.
Y'ALL HELPED ME IN THE TOUGHEST THING IVE EVER DONE !
A huge round of aplause and my thanks & gratitude !!!
I cannot even tell you how comletely different today is !
Everyone said it would pass and it actually did !!!!
Maybe that is my HP at work ??
I hate mondays but this last one I felt a little better won the raffel @ a meeting and got a book whick I donated to the prisoners in a nearby correctional institute. Ive got too much stuff anyway.
Tuesday sucked !
Even though I was told on tuesday that my health insurance is being cancelled TODAY I still have hope and I am feeling a boatload different !
Give yourself a huge portion of gratitude and thanks from ME !
My family didnt even call to see how I was doing in nearly a week - maybe more. Dunno.
Y'ALL HELPED ME IN THE TOUGHEST THING IVE EVER DONE !
A huge round of aplause and my thanks & gratitude !!!
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Originally Posted by frstnm 
I cant blow it now Ive got nearly a week and I would be kicking myself on the first sip.....but probably drink it anyways and not stop there even if the pancreatits kicked in and causes pain !
I'm from the worcester area too....there are a lot of good meetings that you can hit. If I can suggest one...adcare 7AM. It meets every morning. A good way to start your day. The meeting splits off into a 1-2-3 group, which is good for new comers.
Good luck
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