chicago

whoa i just had the most intense relapse dream. this came after last night, which was very rough for me. the night ended fine because i made a 11pm meeting, but this dream was God letting me know how terrible i would feel to use. it happened on my 1 year anniversary and we were having a party for me. not sure of the specifics but all my sober friends were there. somehow an ambulance came because i guess i had threatened suicide. they had a breathalizer and i blew a 1.6!! which would kill a man!

it was the worst feeling ever knowing i was back at 0 after 320 days. that dream was terrifying but i woke up so grateful. it was the first using dream ive had in a couple months.

Anna

It's just your mind messing with you Chicago. I have had that happen, out of the blue, too. And, it can shake you up. Just be grateful it was only a dream and, hey, you're 320 days sober!

TamTam

Last week I dreamt I had a glass of wine and felt swo remorseful. I was so glad when I woke up! 320 days is so great!!!

parentrecovers

my recovering daughter says she has relapse/using dreams. it's good that you are able to share them, i imagine that helps. hang in there! and congrats on 320! blessings - k

GlassPrisoner

It's very common, although I haven't had one for a while.

I still remember the Vivid dreams in early recovery, Wow ! Those were weird.

subliminalurge

My first drinking dream completely freaked me out, but after mentioning it to a bunch of AA friends it turns out that it's not at all unusual. It's just the part of your brain that wants you dead throwing a hissy fit over the fact that you've stopped listening to it.

I had one about six months ago that was so real that the entire next day I felt as if I really had drank. Guilt, remorse, headache, nausea... The whole bit.

Amazing the things our minds can do to us, isn't it?

mikiglen

i actually had a using dream last nite. one of those where i only had ten pills left and was panicking..."let's see, if i take two now, then two later...but, no, then i won't get a buzz. but if i take four now, then i won't have enough..." ooooooooooooh, i used to hate that panic.. so glad it's over today
mis

brians

I have had them and what a wonderful feelong when it finally hit me that it was only a dream..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heartinpieces

i've had them a lot lately too chicago. i think for me its because of the holidays and the parties and that this will be my first clean xmas. i too felt sooooooo guilty when i woke up and freaked out that i had relapsed. i took a sec to pass but i relate to what you are saying/feeling.

duude 320 days rules the skools!!

keep it up!
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Slowbriety

My last using dream was me shooting up Heroin, I havent done it yet, but it messed with me.

For me, looking back on all the using dreams i have had, they always come when a part of "self" is being giving to God. Its like my alcoholism is trying just one more thing to win me over. Good thing God is more powerful!

Astro

It seems like I have at least one relapse dream every month, and the worst ones have been when I wake up and for a moment can taste vodka. I've also got this weird feeling when I'm up late that I'll wake up with a hangover. Strange, weird, but I'm still sober.

Dom

Hey Chicago, glad to see you have 320 days, congrats. I'm still around, thanks for those PMs back in October.

ANGELINA243

I too can relate to what has been said here. Last week I had a using dream which included using methamphetamines. I woke up & ran to the bathroom--looked in the mirror and noticed that both my eyes were dilated ("big time"). that completely scared the crap out of me & for a brief moment I had to ask myself "Is this real, am I still dreaming? Or did I somehow actually use and not remember doing it? Anyway, after the initial shock wore off, I did realize that I was awake and that "no" I hadn't drank/used for about 5 days at that point--but I must say that messed with my mind for awhile. Thank you to everyone who shared concerning this topic. At least now I know that I am not alone.

laurience

I think it might serve as a good reminder. I had dreams that I blacked out and woke up not remembering a thing. I thought, thank god I am not there anymore and was that much more grateful. I also had many dreams questioning myself. Did I quit smoking? Meanwhile, I quit about 6 years ago..
Joanne

tryingtolive

I had one last night!!! It was strange because I was watching myself drunk talking to people, making no sense and falling all over the place. Then someone I was with got arrested. The next part of it was me under my bed dizzy and seeing patterns like I was tripping. In the dream I remember saying to myself this is a dream so just wake up sober....and I couldn't!! Never had a dream were I knew I was dreaming. VERY INTENSE and SCARY! I woke up and the bed was soaked with sweat. But I was very relieved that it wasn't true.