hummingbird07

Hi,
I found this site through searching the web. It looks good so I thought I would join. I'm really worried that I can't stop the pot and pills. I keep trying to quit but I can't. I was in treatment over 15 years ago for alcoholism and drug addiction but then over 4 years ago I started back up with pot and then in the past year with pills (vicodin and percs though I've stopped the percs) and am tapering on the vidocodin though I can't get below 4-6 pills a day. I need help. I'm so scared of facing life again even though I did this once before and sobriety was much better than this. It just seems so much more difficult this time. I've been smoking pot many times a day for the past 4 plus years. For anybody who is considering relapsing-don't-I thought it would just be for a day and here I am 4 years later undoing all the success I had in my first sobriety. I've lost touch or never really was in touch with a higher power. I know pot shouldn't be that big of a deal but I can't stop. THanks for listening.

mikiglen

you are not alone. read the stories on this site, there are a lot of people who have been exactly where you are.
and don't beat yourself up....lots of us had a lot of sobriety under our belt, too, and got slapped with a relapse. the disease never sleeps.
keep posting, and more people will be by soon to offer support
misti

thejig

Hi hummingbird....I have been where you are and know how it feels. Pot, to me, is a big deal, because it still shuts me off from the sunlight of the spirit. After some sobriety time, I started smoking it again and then after 2 years of smoking it, it took me back to harder drugs and drinking again. I hit a really hard bottom. I finally just surrendered to the AA program about 4 1/2 years ago and have been clean since.
Please get yourself to a meeting and admit everything that you have here.....people can relate and can help you...if you want it.
Prayers to you,
AA Hugs
Jig

hummingbird07

Hi thejig, thanks for you reply about pot. It has felt like a big deal because it has brought me back to pills. How did you make it through the withdrawals?

JENNYFER88

Sometimes you just have to stay in bed and drink lots of water and just force yourself to not get up and use. Sometimes I found that leaving the house was enough incentive to use. I try and stay put and get another day under my belt.

liiise

take it one minute at a time, one hour at a time and one day at a time

TamTam

Hi Hummingbirtd- welcome to SR.. This is a great place to be for support. Come back often