embraced2000

xah has been calling on my business phone all afternoon..........drunk.......ranting.....saying the most filthy things one could imagine..,...how in the hell does he think of these things??????

I MADE HIM DRINK. oops, i did it again! i'm so bad.

he had a dream in which i was in a relationship (to paraphrase, BIG TIME)
and since i have not been cooperating with him on his wants and quackity-quacks, he just got a motel room and got drunk.

now, i am the lowest of all life forms, and he's threatening the hell out of my
very existance.

he is court ordered to serve 6 months in a half-way house 40 miles away.
i hope the law gets him before he makes it here.

thank you, my god, for showing me again, how powerless i am over alcohol.

thank you, my god, for playing the tape through for me one more time, just when i was erroneously believing, that this time, maybe this time, he would make it.

thank you, my god, for the wonderful, serene life i am now achieving to obtain.

besides mental illnesses, alcoholism is the only disease i know of that can turn people into such instant a$$holes, violent, hateful, filthy talking, dangerous humans. why is that?????? hell, any other disease, you can help them....
at times like this, it is hard for me to seperate the person from the illness.

jeri

BohemiMamaof3

No sense in it (the disease, the A drama) is there? Take good care of yourself. (((hug)))

Cynay

Hang in there... and just remember its only quacking.

Make sure your safe though.

Janitw

Jeri - what you wrote caused an instant replay in my mind....but picture this??? Alcoholism/Meth addiction... now that's a lethal combination..

Janit