tryinagain

Basically the title says it all. I am the poster child of relapse. 20+ years of hard drinking and everyday for the last 10 years with a few breaks. I will quit and stay sober for 3-6 months then pick up a 6 pack or have a beer at a friends house. Then a couple of days later a couple more then within a week or two it is 12 or more every single night. This goes on for months until I cannot eat or basically function beyond a basic struggle of faking that everything is ok while being completely miserable. I realize my fate if I continue on this path and pattern and once again struggle through the withdrawal and detox to gain a few months of sobriety only to repeat the process. At this point I have re-entered the road of sobriety and hope and pray with all my heart that I remain on this path this time around. Anybody that thinks this all breaks down to a simple choice has obviously never experience the "fun" (IE: Hell) of addiction. Most alcoholics are the strongest people I have ever ran across in my life and I have been through two branches of the military both during wartime.
The moral of this story is that setting the stuff down is the first step in a long journey of hard work and treatment if you are going to succeed and stay sober.
I dont know if this has or will help anybody else but writing it and reading it back to myself helps me and reminds me of things that I already know but do not always practice. When you get lost look for the roadmap. This is mine.
Thanks for letting me share.

Dreamz

I hope you succeed

CarolD

It's great to see you again!..

We have a new sticky in Alcoholism that might interest you

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html

Thank you so very much for your time served in our countrys military.
"All gave some...some gave all"

NEEDTOBESOBER

quittimg is easy- you have got to be kidding me-for me and I am sure plenty of others it is the hardest thing to do at least for me, but good luck to you.

tryinagain

Thanks Dreamz and Carol

Need the thread was in irony, I think you just read the title and not the actual post above.

spring

Peace be with you Tryin.

CarolD

Of course I read all of your share.

I did mention your service


And...Dreamz even quoted tou.

Take care...

tryinagain

LOL Carol, I meant Needtobe.. They know me too well to know that the title was serious. It is serious in a twisted and sad way though. Thank you for your comments about the service, just did my job but appreciate the thanks.

CarolD

sigh...I must be dense tonight.
Please excuse me!

2dayzmuse

We all know quitting is hard. We've all tried a 100 times, but think of it this way...It is easier than staying quit. Hence, quiting a 100 times. Staying stopped is the hardest thing.