PG1968

I have posted a few times here in the past. Stopped partying for maybe a month here, then a month there. To no avail ever. I have been in a great relationship with someone I met at the meetings for about 8 months now, unfortunately, we both started again when we started dating. We have been sort of functional users, until the last few months. The finances, the job, and just taking care of oureselves has gotten out of control.This past weekend, after a feel horrible incidents, we have decided to try to stay clean. We are both on day 4. It feels good, but I am already starting to go stir crazy. I mean, I was going on about a 1/2 liter of whiskey a day and blow 3 to 4 times a week. I am trying though, and I resume my job tomorrow, so that is good. I have been destroying friendships and been blowing off commitments, an to top it off I have a 6 year old girl who I get partial visitation with, due to the stipulations of my divorce. It just feels bad. anyway, I don't know what I am really trying to say here. I am thinking about attending meetings again, however, I find them depressing and the people sometimes creep me out. the girlfriend has no desire to go to them, but that in itself does not stop me. I just cannot believe, how at 38 years of age, my life has gotten so crappy these last few years. it's amazing how bad this disease has destroyed me. not physically yet, but mentally, as in my thought process and the like.The jealousy, inadequacies, paranoia, and all that goes with this crap. I am do feel lucky that I still have someone on my side and my family, but I am just shocked at the extent of my addiction. sorry for making this so long.

CarolD

Yes...the progression is so true!
I don't know of anyone addicted who is immune.

See if this link helps with your alcoholism..

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html

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