hpefrvr

Hello, I am new to the site. My son is in recovery, again thus my name hope forever. I feel so sad today, he needs so much and I know too well that I can't "fix" him. He is sick again, my goodness he has a high tolerance to physical pain. I hate that I am not enjoying a day of him being clean. After spending the day with him at the ER yesterday, I am wiped out emotionally. I can't get the yuck off me over what I have seen and heard. I know you have been there, so I have I. I've been in alanon for 19 years. Have a good day!!

elizabeth1979

Hi Hpefrvr,

COngrats to you for taking care of yourself. I am an alanoner and although not everyone here is, it works for me!

Take care of you and can you do something nice for yourself today or get to a meeting?

denny57

welcome hpefrvr

Have you called your sponsor?

I hope you can do something nice for yourself. I know it's hard, and you've been doing it a long time.

Take care and please keep posting.

hpefrvr

I called my sponser yesterday and I am so glad I did! She reminded me of what it is like to "sit on eggshells" and "waiting for the other shoe to drop" neither of which is helpful to us. She also reminded me not to call "pain". You know, the desire to make sure they did what they said they would do, and dreading that they haven't???!! Today is a new day, and I am healing.

"With my thoughts distorted by fear, despair and resentment, and my nerves overwrought, I could not think clearly nor make wise decisions." ODAT todays reading.

Cynay

Welcome ... Im glad you decided to join us.

WOW 19 years ... congrads.

Im sorry about your son, I know as a Mother it is much harder not to obsess about them ... but keep working it one day at a time...

I look forward to getting to know you.

hpefrvr

Hi, I got to 2 meetings lately and am ready to face the world again. Thanks for your reply. Pat

denny57

yay, Pat!