Sorting out things.....
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Sorting out things.....
Ok I take some advice from an undisclosed source...(you know who
you are..lol) and here's what happens.
As I am sorting through a pile of odds and ends in a drawer I come
across greeting cards. Some to my kids, some from my kids, from other
family members and then of course last years birthday card from John.
One of the most beautiful and loving cards Hallmark makes.
He also writes in his own message:
"I love you in a place where there is no space or time. There are also
no words that can capture the joyous feelings I have when we
are together. Nor are there words to describe my sense of emptiness
when we have been apart.
I Will Love You Forever,
John
So much for sorting through things today.
you are..lol) and here's what happens.
As I am sorting through a pile of odds and ends in a drawer I come
across greeting cards. Some to my kids, some from my kids, from other
family members and then of course last years birthday card from John.
One of the most beautiful and loving cards Hallmark makes.
He also writes in his own message:
"I love you in a place where there is no space or time. There are also
no words that can capture the joyous feelings I have when we
are together. Nor are there words to describe my sense of emptiness
when we have been apart.
I Will Love You Forever,
John
So much for sorting through things today.
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Oooops. Although, didn't I suggest going on a bike ride?
You know where all my stuff like that is filed? In the circular filing cabinet. I don't need reminders of the hooks that I fell for.
It's just words, Patty. Well chosen ones admitttedly (apart from the fact that he couldn't think of any to describe how he was feeling - hmmm), but still just words. Where were the actions to back them up?
You know where all my stuff like that is filed? In the circular filing cabinet. I don't need reminders of the hooks that I fell for.
It's just words, Patty. Well chosen ones admitttedly (apart from the fact that he couldn't think of any to describe how he was feeling - hmmm), but still just words. Where were the actions to back them up?
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Originally Posted by minnie
Oooops. Although, didn't I suggest going on a bike ride?
Yes actually you did!:
You know where all my stuff like that is filed? In the circular filing cabinet. I don't need reminders of the hooks that I fell for.
A very good place for this rubbish I have I might add!
It's just words, Patty. Well chosen ones admitttedly (apart from the fact that he couldn't think of any to describe how he was feeling - hmmm),
yeah I am still wondering what he meant by no space or time but still just words. Where were the actions to back them up?
At the bar with something named Absolute!
Yes actually you did!:
You know where all my stuff like that is filed? In the circular filing cabinet. I don't need reminders of the hooks that I fell for.
A very good place for this rubbish I have I might add!
It's just words, Patty. Well chosen ones admitttedly (apart from the fact that he couldn't think of any to describe how he was feeling - hmmm),
yeah I am still wondering what he meant by no space or time but still just words. Where were the actions to back them up?
At the bar with something named Absolute!
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I call my circular file the "God box". In there I put stuff that I can't handle and that I'm letting my HP deal with. (no, not the forms from the IRS 
) Once a week the God box gets promoted to heaven, and the big blue heaven bus stops on the corner where a couple of guys pick it up and take it away forever.
Yeah it's corny, but it does help.
Mike
) Once a week the God box gets promoted to heaven, and the big blue heaven bus stops on the corner where a couple of guys pick it up and take it away forever.Yeah it's corny, but it does help.
Mike
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Patty, I recently ran across a calendar of 2005. Why did I keep it? I had written things in that calendar that pertained to AH and events that were negative.
Why did I keep holding onto that? I guess I was still searching for the truth of some questions I had and this kept me with the dates, etc. of that time. But I've realized that I am never going to know the truth and therefore; it was time to let go of that calendar.
Of all the places to find it, I found it in the basket where I keep my Bibles. Hmm.....
I do still have some cards and whatnot items that AH had given me during the time we were trying to work things out (?), but they are hidden away and I don't look at them, I'm just not ready to part with them. I may never be. But when I run across items like that, I put them with the others and maybe someday I'll be ready to really face them.
Sorry that you got an unexpected surprise when you found the card. It really sucks when things like that pop up and bring forth so many of the emotions that are within ourselves.
sending you hugs
Why did I keep holding onto that? I guess I was still searching for the truth of some questions I had and this kept me with the dates, etc. of that time. But I've realized that I am never going to know the truth and therefore; it was time to let go of that calendar.
Of all the places to find it, I found it in the basket where I keep my Bibles. Hmm.....
I do still have some cards and whatnot items that AH had given me during the time we were trying to work things out (?), but they are hidden away and I don't look at them, I'm just not ready to part with them. I may never be. But when I run across items like that, I put them with the others and maybe someday I'll be ready to really face them.
Sorry that you got an unexpected surprise when you found the card. It really sucks when things like that pop up and bring forth so many of the emotions that are within ourselves.
sending you hugs
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I am a calendar keeper too....
I guess if I need to keep track of the dates on paper instead of in my mind,
they really aren't that important.
(mental note throwing out 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003......)
I guess if I need to keep track of the dates on paper instead of in my mind,
they really aren't that important.
(mental note throwing out 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003......)
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Patty, I was just looking back at some of your old posts and look what I found from 2004:
Does that card still mean the same now?
Originally Posted by pmaslan
Petunia, I know how you feel. My A B/F couldn't find $3.00 to give me a birthday card in September but he sure found plenty of money to drink in the bars. He still hasn't given me a card. Even now that he is in recovery and not drinking I would appreciate the card today months later. It hurts to know that he sat there buying his bar pals drinks and tipping some bartender just to boost his ego. It hurts to know that I wasn't important enough to even call that day.
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Patty (and live), I was actually going back to pick out an example of how far you have come for the "trivial" thread to show how far from trivial your recovery has been. And lo and behold, there was a post about a birthday card. Funny how these things happen.
I think everyone in here knows how much store I set by going back over our old posts. In fact, I went back to my very first one the other day which was quite an eye opener, as I usually only read my early threads, rather than posts. And I do sometimes go back to other people's early posts too - it helps me get to know them better if I missed reading them when they joined.
And I have a memory like an elephant.
I think everyone in here knows how much store I set by going back over our old posts. In fact, I went back to my very first one the other day which was quite an eye opener, as I usually only read my early threads, rather than posts. And I do sometimes go back to other people's early posts too - it helps me get to know them better if I missed reading them when they joined.
And I have a memory like an elephant.
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Haven't done the way back when thread yet but I am thinking about it.
Isn't it embarrassing to think we actually did those things....
23 trips to the ER in less than 2 years...yeah humbling to say the least!
Isn't it embarrassing to think we actually did those things....
23 trips to the ER in less than 2 years...yeah humbling to say the least!
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