Anxiety/Fear
 

Might as well see if I can find any way to solve this mystery...
I can remember when I was seven or so, being constantly anxious.
Before this time, I wasn’t- not at all.
The nervousness stayed with me until age 15... then it changed into something worse...hard to describe but I felt horrible daily
Lasted until I was 18, and I began a romance with my first true gf
As this began, the anxiety vanished!
When we broke up less than a year later, it didn’t reappear
Not for 3 years
Then I had it for a time and it vanished again
I was 22
For 30 years, no issues in that particular hellishness
Been drinking more heavily for the past 2 years and it’s back
With something new- fear, a bit different
I wonder if these are relatable
Anyhow- I’ve stopped drinking for the first time ever, so here goes somethin’

Sounds a bit like my story. The fear was a different level for me too. Almost primal fear. Like I was about to be attacked by a lion, complete with my heart pounding out of my chest.

Also a lot more fearful thoughts of the future. Something that wasn't much of an issue until drinking became a problem. I often think it was my spirit / subconscious being terribly afraid of where I was heading if I didn't stop drinking. Probably saw a future of jails and institutions...or death.

Everything settled down after about a month sober. Month 2 had a few days that were anxious. By month 3 I was cured.

Well, it’s just enlightening to see that someone can relate because I don’t ever remember trying to explain this til now.