Astro

Excellent playlist, that's some good therapy for sure!

kzaug2014

Yea, I'm at a point in my life where I don't really need new friends. I'm married to my best friend...have my long time friend...hang out mostly w/my adult children, who I adore...and have my SR friends to discuss addition with. My life is richly full, I'd say.
Thanks for sharing a bit of your back story. How long were you addicted to heroin, if you don't mind me asking.
When I 1st joined SR, I was so ashamed of being a heroin addict that I referred to it as H a lot of the time. I had joined another addiction site about a week prior to joining SR and was promptly banned for life after 1 post. Apparently, it was against the rules to write heroin, which I found preposterous considering it was an addiction site.
I'm not longer ashamed of being a heroin addict & I don't even regret using heroin because I never thought I had a problem when I was prescribed methadone, norco & klonopin. See, I had always taken medication, as prescribed. My hubs, on the other hand, had a distinct problem with over taking his meds, so he just gave them to me to hang onto. But, just because I took them as prescribed, didn't mean I didn't have a problem, because being on all those drugs changed who I was. They made me "not care." And I never realized that until I got clean & I believe that God guided me through the entire process...reason that things happen.

Winslow and Blacky, how are you guys doing?

Wkend (( Hugs ))

Blacky

I'm doing fine and feel ok.

I also only have a few friends that live across the Country that I talk on the phone with every so often. People I have known for 20 or 30 years that know the real me and I can say anything to.

I installed the sheet rock on my job and will recoat the joints tomorrow and rip up the floor.

Banned from an addiction forum for writing heroin .. ha ha .. probably not funny at the time .. I got banned from a mental health forum for going off saying crazy stuff one time when I was lit up .. then they made jokes at my expense when I could not post anymore in the thread. .. meh ..

kzaug2014

You got kicked off a mental health forum for sayin crazy things...I got kicked off a drug forum for sayin heroin...we're just a couple of recovery rejects lol!

Steely

Ya won't believe it but I got kicked off an anti-depressant web site. I'm glad you said it before me I was too scared to mention in case I looked bad. I really didn't do anything wrong, in fact I was supporting another member and someone didn't like me there and I got the boot. It was really depressing, and I'm a good girl I promise. I used heroin for about two years not long I know but long enough to develop a habit. Had to finish a relationship with the love of my life to get myself out of the fix I was in as he was much more dependent. He was a mad classical guitarist and last I heard he was seen drunk in a gutter somewhere. I've tried to find him for old times sake but to no avail and hope he is still alive. Makes me want to cry.
Home detoxed and started drinking, taking prescription medication, and smoking heaps of dope. And now I'm sober and trying to pull it all together and reckon this time I'm in with a chance. Hope I didn't say anything wrong.

Steely

The recovery rejects that's good .

kzaug2014

Hi Steely, Let me start by saying please don't ever be afraid to say the wrong thing. Your thoughts and feelings will always be respected with no judgement on this thread.
Second, I think it's great you got kicked off that other site because it brought you here with us.
Lastly, I'm so very sorry you lost your love to heroin. I was willing to loose mine, as well. I gave him an ultimatum nearly a yr ago now, in April. Get clean or get out. He's my soul mate, but I knew I couldn't live with a heroin addict for the rest of my life. He chose get clean, but it could have easily gone the other way. I know it couldn't have been easy to let him go, but you I think you made the right decision hun.

Big (( Hugs ))

Steely

Thank you so much kzaug your post really meant a lot. I look back and think how much drugs and alcohol have removed from the lives of so many good people. I thought I might have left my run too late but here I am giving it another shot and this time getting and understanding the benefits and desire to no longer escape. How extraordinary that 3 of us have been given the bum's rush. Oh well, their loss our gain as we got to meet. Thanks again that was really lovely of you and now I can sleep. Gotta stop that thinking that always has me think I'm doing something wrong.

Winslow

Hey all,that's crazy you guys got kicked off other forums,I always thought they only did that when you fight with someone,nothing new to report here,finding certain foods to be anxiety triggers,sugar and doritos so far,weird,will keep eliminating things just to be sure, hope everyone has a great day😊

kzaug2014

Hey guys,
Going to our grandpa's bday party at Skyzone today! Will check in later! Have a great day! (( Hugs ))

Soberwolf

Have a great time kzaug

Steely

My neighbour just dropped in for a cuppa and good to have a friend. Lazy day today but intend to get a few things done. Beautiful day in Sydney and the sound of a rotary lawn mower outside is somehow hypnotically relaxing. Enjoy Skyzone (?) kzaug and good weekend to all.

Blacky

Floor is repaired on my job now ..

cut out the damage



new treated wood



I'll be back at it tomorrow, will install new trim for the baseboard and window.

Steely

Mate, that's a big job. I think you have more talents than you realise, though probably true of us all, hey? Just wait til I restore my table and little desk we can get a comp running. I'm going to try and work out how to attach photos from my iPad that should keep me occupied for a while. I can do it with standard e-mails but forums are different for some reason I think. I'll give it a go. Hi fellow travellers.

Steely

Kookaburra test.

Can't figure how to attach photo from iPad. Have to ask someone.

Soberwolf

blacky you are amazing

Astro

Blacky, you do some really nice work. I'm always impressed when people take the initiative to do whatever it takes to earn a living.

I do side work a couple nights a week and sometimes over the weekends, I take what I can get and squeeze in. Yesterday I installed some opaque window film and hung a TV for a client, it was Murphy's Law for 4 hours. Then I came home and started stripping the finish off our dining room table.

I wish I could rest today.....but I need to start sanding the table.

Winslow

Hey all,Blacky,you do good work😊 Astro,I hate starting a project all gung-ho then losing my mojo half way,I'm like that with cleaning and organizing cabinets/closets too,Kzaug,hope you had a fun time yesterday at Skyzone,I've never gone,Steely, hope you're having a nice day,same old,same old here buy that's ok😊

kzaug2014

Hi guys,
I think my spellcheck changed "grandson" to "grandpa?" Oops! Steely, Skyzone is an indoor trampoline place w/different themed sections. The kids had a blast!

I'm feeling pretty unmotivated today, which is okay since I don't have any commitments today. So I watched the nascar race in Atlanta and my fave driver, Jimmy Johnson won!

Winslow, we'll just to kick you off our thread...then promptly welcome you back w/open arms, so you can be a recovery reject too! Lol!

Blacky, I'm just amazed at your quality of work! I hope you get paid well to commiserate with your skill level.

Hi Wolfie & Astro! I hope you guys are having a great wkend!

(( Hugs )) all!

Steely

That made me laugh with the spellcheck going to grandpa kzaug. I'm having trouble getting motivated today too same old same old Winslow as you say. Seems that depression comes and goes so must really force myself to get up and do something constructive, but organising a flat has its limitations let's face it. Then of course there is my book. Nothing really seems to fill the bill. Thanks for reminding me that it's OK to feel this way, down in the dumps. My only saving grace at the moment is the fact that I'm sober and forever grateful. See what the morrow brings. Best to all.