Losing Faith
Losing Faith
I feel like I'm losing it. I keep relapsing with methadone pills. I keep thinking of destructive things to do, and i'm losing motivation. I am so ******* nervous all the time and I just started working a few hours a at a golf course and I am starting to be around people again and i find myself stumbling on my words, second guessing every move and I am always nervous but not like this and I don't feel like myself. I'm loud and outspoken and funny... And now I feel week, tired, and shy.
I know with time this is supposed to fade and get better with more sober time...But I just am not sure how to get through this part of it.... I keep relapsing to get my courage back. And I am ******* better than that. I know I am... But my addiction talks my right back into that deep dark whole.
I know with time this is supposed to fade and get better with more sober time...But I just am not sure how to get through this part of it.... I keep relapsing to get my courage back. And I am ******* better than that. I know I am... But my addiction talks my right back into that deep dark whole.
I feel like I'm losing it. I keep relapsing with methadone pills. I keep thinking of destructive things to do, and i'm losing motivation. I am so ******* nervous all the time and I just started working a few hours a at a golf course and I am starting to be around people again and i find myself stumbling on my words, second guessing every move and I am always nervous but not like this and I don't feel like myself. I'm loud and outspoken and funny... And now I feel week, tired, and shy.
I know with time this is supposed to fade and get better with more sober time...But I just am not sure how to get through this part of it.... I keep relapsing to get my courage back. And I am ******* better than that. I know I am... But my addiction talks my right back into that deep dark whole.
I know with time this is supposed to fade and get better with more sober time...But I just am not sure how to get through this part of it.... I keep relapsing to get my courage back. And I am ******* better than that. I know I am... But my addiction talks my right back into that deep dark whole.
I feel like I'm losing it. I keep relapsing with methadone pills. I keep thinking of destructive things to do, and i'm losing motivation. I am so ******* nervous all the time and I just started working a few hours a at a golf course and I am starting to be around people again and i find myself stumbling on my words, second guessing every move and I am always nervous but not like this and I don't feel like myself. I'm loud and outspoken and funny... And now I feel week, tired, and shy.
I know with time this is supposed to fade and get better with more sober time...But I just am not sure how to get through this part of it.... I keep relapsing to get my courage back. And I am ******* better than that. I know I am... But my addiction talks my right back into that deep dark whole.
I know with time this is supposed to fade and get better with more sober time...But I just am not sure how to get through this part of it.... I keep relapsing to get my courage back. And I am ******* better than that. I know I am... But my addiction talks my right back into that deep dark whole.
at least you can get to work. i noticed when i was working and had anxiety it usually made me feel better once i got to school or work, if i avoided it then it made it worse. best thing to do is just tackle it head on everyday. u dont wanna get agoraphobia and trapped in the house like me. i just flat out tell people i have anxiety and if i cant do something i dont care what they think or how it effects there feelings anymore if they dont understand.
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