Coping with anxiety/panic attacks over your past?
...And if you do, how do you cope with it?
I've been sober for a year, and every day, I am still tormented with anxiety and panic attacks over the memories of the things I've done in the past.
I was on drugs for 9 years of my life, and when I was using, I did and said so many horrible things, and to so many countless people. In the year I've been sober, I have managed to get and maintain a job, sign a lease on an apartment in a nice area, finish my college education, and make several new lovely, classy friends. However, I live every day in a constant state of fear that, somehow or another, my past is going to come back and get me. I'm terrified that people are going to start coming out of the woodwork, the rumors are going to start circulating, and everyone in my "normal life" that I have now is going to find out about the person I've been.
It's a small world, and not to mention, I live a life that is very much in the public eye. Does anyone else have similar fears, or advice on coping with these sorts of problems? I feel so alone in this.