No one to turn to...
 

I have had anxiety/depression/OCD since I was 10, but have kept it secret until very recently. I'm under huge pressure from everyone to find a job and start supporting myself, but all my symptoms are just getting worse and worse.

A lot of the advice says it helps a lot to talk to a trusted friend or family, but I have none. I just broke up with my boyfriend because I tried telling him about my anxiety and depression, but he doesn't understand any of it and instead started judging me and being condescending about it every time I brought it up. He doesn't seem to understand the concept of it at all and just thinks they are personality flaws, as in people with depression are just "losers, pessimistic, and shouldn't be like that because why would anyone want to be around you if you are like that."

As for my parents, when I told them about my anxiety and panic attacks they tried to get me to see a cardiologist... but also I have a pretty bad relationship with them as the last time I talked to my mom we fought and she basically said I "have no rights as a person" and that I belong to her since she raised me. Sometimes I wonder if any of this has to do with me having anxiety and depression, along with the fact that I would get hit with a shoe if i didn't want to do math homework when I was little.

Anyhow.. it was only lately that I started to think, hey something about my relationship with these people might not be right..

So now I have no one close to turn to at all. My family is very conservative and traditional, and most of the people I know are the people like them.. and I don't know what to do. :help

I found out yrs. after I got sober
that I had a chemical imbalance.

I turned to a physician for that
and keep my alcoholism to AA.

Without hurting or jeopardizing
my recovery I told my physician
i was in recovery and thus help
me with getting my anxiety under
control.