Losing it all
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Join Date: Apr 2006
Location: New England
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Thanks to everyone for their input. Today begins day 5 for me and Im getting very edgy. No withdrawal symptoms, just dont know what to do with myself. I work a swing shift and have this Saturday, Sunday and Monday off. We have a seasonal camper that we go to every weekend and this is opening weekend. I feel like I have nothing to look forward to if I cant have my beer.
Does that sound stupid? Its like I know how much trouble the drinking causes, yet, I want to look forward to that next drink.
WHY cant I be like others and control the drinking? WHY did this happen to me?
Does the urge ever go away for a drink? Does it ease some with time?
Ive never really gone this long before (sad isnt it, 5 days) and hope the urge subsides soon.
Any suggestions out there?
Thanks!!
Does that sound stupid? Its like I know how much trouble the drinking causes, yet, I want to look forward to that next drink.
WHY cant I be like others and control the drinking? WHY did this happen to me?
Does the urge ever go away for a drink? Does it ease some with time?
Ive never really gone this long before (sad isnt it, 5 days) and hope the urge subsides soon.
Any suggestions out there?
Thanks!!
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Join Date: Dec 2004
Location: Livonia, MI
Posts: 675
Originally Posted by cruiser
Thanks to everyone for their input. Today begins day 5 for me and Im getting very edgy. No withdrawal symptoms, just dont know what to do with myself. I work a swing shift and have this Saturday, Sunday and Monday off. We have a seasonal camper that we go to every weekend and this is opening weekend. I feel like I have nothing to look forward to if I cant have my beer.
Does that sound stupid? Its like I know how much trouble the drinking causes, yet, I want to look forward to that next drink.
WHY cant I be like others and control the drinking? WHY did this happen to me?
Does the urge ever go away for a drink? Does it ease some with time?
Ive never really gone this long before (sad isnt it, 5 days) and hope the urge subsides soon.
Any suggestions out there?
Thanks!!
Does that sound stupid? Its like I know how much trouble the drinking causes, yet, I want to look forward to that next drink.
WHY cant I be like others and control the drinking? WHY did this happen to me?
Does the urge ever go away for a drink? Does it ease some with time?
Ive never really gone this long before (sad isnt it, 5 days) and hope the urge subsides soon.
Any suggestions out there?
Thanks!!
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Join Date: Apr 2006
Location: New England
Posts: 4
Hi everyone...
Day 6 and struggling!! Thanks for that posting earlybird.... It actually helped me a little.
I dont even want to camp this weekend because my best friend... my beer cant go with me.... LOL
I hope you are right about things turning around for me. But I do feel like I have nothing to look forward to anymore.
I know it will pass, and I do believe you.. .the question is will I hang in there that long?
I have even been coming up with creative ways to drink and keep it from my wife and family. buying non alc beers, emptying them and filling them with the real stuff. pretty sad that my mind is in overdrive coming up with ways to get my "friend" back...
I can only take it a day at a time. For today... I wont drink... tomorrows another day.
Take care everyone and keep the posts coming... You dont know how much I appreciate them.
Thanks
Cruiser.....
Day 6 and struggling!! Thanks for that posting earlybird.... It actually helped me a little.
I dont even want to camp this weekend because my best friend... my beer cant go with me.... LOL
I hope you are right about things turning around for me. But I do feel like I have nothing to look forward to anymore.
I know it will pass, and I do believe you.. .the question is will I hang in there that long?
I have even been coming up with creative ways to drink and keep it from my wife and family. buying non alc beers, emptying them and filling them with the real stuff. pretty sad that my mind is in overdrive coming up with ways to get my "friend" back...
I can only take it a day at a time. For today... I wont drink... tomorrows another day.
Take care everyone and keep the posts coming... You dont know how much I appreciate them.
Thanks
Cruiser.....
Congrats on day 6, good for you. One piece of advice. Quit trying to ask "why me". Nearly took me out again. We may never know that answer but what I've learned is because it's your experiance, your unique story that someday someone else walking through those doors to sobriety will relate to and help realize they to can overcome this aspect of what makes us, us. We are what we are because we are.
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Join Date: Apr 2006
Location: Portland, Oregon
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Not everyone agrees, Frito.
Step One: Admitted powerlessness.
(this can also be a negative for folks who become capable of self-direction and self-responsibility.)
Step Eight: Make a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.
(this step may increase guilt. the concept of making amends can be therapuetic, but before one can achieve harmony with others, they must be at peace with themselves.)
Step Nine: Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
(Personally, I found that folks just didn't really care all that much about amends, they wanted to see me living with integrity today.)
Unhooked.com has an article on their website written by a therapist who has a different take on the twelve steps, and some suggestions for folks who don't necessarily resonate with them.
--Scott
Step One: Admitted powerlessness.
(this can also be a negative for folks who become capable of self-direction and self-responsibility.)
Step Eight: Make a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.
(this step may increase guilt. the concept of making amends can be therapuetic, but before one can achieve harmony with others, they must be at peace with themselves.)
Step Nine: Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
(Personally, I found that folks just didn't really care all that much about amends, they wanted to see me living with integrity today.)
Unhooked.com has an article on their website written by a therapist who has a different take on the twelve steps, and some suggestions for folks who don't necessarily resonate with them.
--Scott
Originally Posted by tantricblaze
Unhooked.com has an article on their website written by a therapist who has a different take on the twelve steps, and some suggestions for folks who don't necessarily resonate with them.
Unhooked.com? Oh great, another recovery website for me to read obsessively!! Thanks a lot!!
No, I'm kidding: the more input from other addicts, the better. My last drunk (1.5 days ago) very nearly killed me, and included nearly 24 full hours of active poisoning. I hope to NEVER forget the feeling of waking up from that experience, because death seemed honestly preferrable at that point...
I read and post at SMART online, here, and OzRecover, but now it's off to Unhooked to see what's happening over there! I know I should be getting out of the house, getting busy, getting better...just not strong enough yet for that, so I'm glad these online communities are so numerous, and so supportive.
Thanks, y'all,
Arp
No, I'm kidding: the more input from other addicts, the better. My last drunk (1.5 days ago) very nearly killed me, and included nearly 24 full hours of active poisoning. I hope to NEVER forget the feeling of waking up from that experience, because death seemed honestly preferrable at that point...
I read and post at SMART online, here, and OzRecover, but now it's off to Unhooked to see what's happening over there! I know I should be getting out of the house, getting busy, getting better...just not strong enough yet for that, so I'm glad these online communities are so numerous, and so supportive.
Thanks, y'all,
Arp
But before I go......!!.......
I've decided that last drunk I just described was my last drunk, seriously enough that I'm changing the "Sobriety Date" in my profile right now, from "Tomorrow" to yesterday's date. I have the entire "drunkalogue" saved in several emails I've sent, and simply referring back to it should do wonders toward recalling the genuine horror of it...
Enough already,
Arp
I've decided that last drunk I just described was my last drunk, seriously enough that I'm changing the "Sobriety Date" in my profile right now, from "Tomorrow" to yesterday's date. I have the entire "drunkalogue" saved in several emails I've sent, and simply referring back to it should do wonders toward recalling the genuine horror of it...
Enough already,
Arp
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