Functional Alcoholic...I guess?
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I blame my problem on compulsion also. Once I get a thought of drinking in my head it consumes me until I finally have the drink. There have been many times that I nearly drove myself crazy because my bottle was empty (when I was trying to quit or cut down) and I couldn't stand not having a drink. Fortunately (or unfortunately) there is a store within walking distance so when I couldn't stand it any longer, I would just go buy more.
I decided 2 weeks ago that my behavior was way out of line and I told myself and my husband that it was going to stop. Things have been pretty calm here lately and I haven't had that crazy desire for alcohol. There have been a few days when I knew I would have a drink (no more than 2) and I thought about it constantly until I finally got to have it, but even those thought are beginning to loosen. I hope it lasts even when things get stressful at home.
Anyway, Pingo, my belief is that if it's really important to you and you really want to change then you have the power to change. If you can't do it by yourself, then tell someone who will be there to support you. I find being accountable to someone other than myself helpful since I can lie to and deceive myself very easily.
Good luck
I decided 2 weeks ago that my behavior was way out of line and I told myself and my husband that it was going to stop. Things have been pretty calm here lately and I haven't had that crazy desire for alcohol. There have been a few days when I knew I would have a drink (no more than 2) and I thought about it constantly until I finally got to have it, but even those thought are beginning to loosen. I hope it lasts even when things get stressful at home.
Anyway, Pingo, my belief is that if it's really important to you and you really want to change then you have the power to change. If you can't do it by yourself, then tell someone who will be there to support you. I find being accountable to someone other than myself helpful since I can lie to and deceive myself very easily.
Good luck
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It's in the mind...
Originally Posted by Pingo
Iam almost to the point of not giving a @$%#@.....but I still do give a $%@^ about things....I see some people and realize how worse off I could be and shouldn't feel sorry for myself and just quit and snap out of it....everyone tells me if you want to to stop you can..its in the mind Pingo
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