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Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: London
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Originally Posted by Phillips
I'm just a bloody loser.
I could stop drinking easily, but I could never go more than a few days without drinking again. Once I started to drink, I always got drunk, and then of course suffered with all the social, health, financial and spiritual problems that getting drunk brings.
I'm going to just concentrate on today, if I stay sober today, then I am a winner again. Just today. I'll start on tomorrow, tomorrow.
much love
JC
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Join Date: Nov 2005
Location: Waco, TX
Posts: 637
This is the first time I've ever tried this and I hope I do it right.
"Welcome home! We've been waiting for you."
I enjoy saying that to people. Those were the first words that were said to me by the woman who would become my sponsor. They mean a lot to me even today. I don't know much about you right now. I don't know how old you are, but I was 29 when I came through the doors of my first AA meeting. I felt totally alone and frightened. I didn't know if AA could help me. All I knew is that I wanted the pain to stop. You see my best friend had turned its back on me. I had found what I thought to be the answer to all my problems at the bottom of a bottle, but suddenly that solution, that friend, stopped working for me. I started having blackouts and things happened that make me shudder to this day. It had only taken me five years to get to the point that I was. I had reached that coldest, darkest, loneliest place on earth...
Oh, I hadn't lost everything... yet. (Y.E.T. means You're Eligible Too!) My sponsor taught me that. I hadn’t lost a job due to my drinking… yet. I hadn’t lost my car or my home… yet. I hadn’t totally lost my health… yet. I didn't have a husband or kids to lose. But in almost every other way I was bankrupt. At 29 years old.
When it was suggested that I attend AA, I found the answers to most of the problems that had been troubling me and learned that my drinking was just a symptom of my real problem. I had a living problem. (I didn't have any problems with my drinking... I had trouble with my "stopping!") By the guidance of those that have gone on before me and by those who are still “trudging the road to happy destiny” like my sponsor, I haven’t found it necessary to take a drink since May 1, 1985.
Find yourself a home group. Find some people who “walk what they talk.” Climb into their hip pocket and learn what they are doing. Study the literature, the Big Book, the 12 & 12… and note, I said study it, not just read it. Do service work. Start talking to God. Do it even if you don’t believe… If it can work for someone like me, it can work for you. That mental obsession can and will be lifted. But God rewards honest effort, not wishful thinking.
So, welcome home. We’ve been waiting for you! Have a great day.
"Welcome home! We've been waiting for you."
I enjoy saying that to people. Those were the first words that were said to me by the woman who would become my sponsor. They mean a lot to me even today. I don't know much about you right now. I don't know how old you are, but I was 29 when I came through the doors of my first AA meeting. I felt totally alone and frightened. I didn't know if AA could help me. All I knew is that I wanted the pain to stop. You see my best friend had turned its back on me. I had found what I thought to be the answer to all my problems at the bottom of a bottle, but suddenly that solution, that friend, stopped working for me. I started having blackouts and things happened that make me shudder to this day. It had only taken me five years to get to the point that I was. I had reached that coldest, darkest, loneliest place on earth...
Oh, I hadn't lost everything... yet. (Y.E.T. means You're Eligible Too!) My sponsor taught me that. I hadn’t lost a job due to my drinking… yet. I hadn’t lost my car or my home… yet. I hadn’t totally lost my health… yet. I didn't have a husband or kids to lose. But in almost every other way I was bankrupt. At 29 years old.
When it was suggested that I attend AA, I found the answers to most of the problems that had been troubling me and learned that my drinking was just a symptom of my real problem. I had a living problem. (I didn't have any problems with my drinking... I had trouble with my "stopping!") By the guidance of those that have gone on before me and by those who are still “trudging the road to happy destiny” like my sponsor, I haven’t found it necessary to take a drink since May 1, 1985.
Find yourself a home group. Find some people who “walk what they talk.” Climb into their hip pocket and learn what they are doing. Study the literature, the Big Book, the 12 & 12… and note, I said study it, not just read it. Do service work. Start talking to God. Do it even if you don’t believe… If it can work for someone like me, it can work for you. That mental obsession can and will be lifted. But God rewards honest effort, not wishful thinking.
So, welcome home. We’ve been waiting for you! Have a great day.
Hi Sheryl85 
Welcome to SR! Thanks for sharing. '55 Classic
Join Date: Nov 2005
Location: Waco, TX
Posts: 637
Phillips,
How’s it going? Have you been able to make any meetings? (I don’t even know if you are in a position to make meetings…) If not, please make sure you are keeping in touch with fellow AA’s for support. This isn’t something that is easy to battle, and any AA left alone for too long is in bad company.
Keep the faith and keep in touch.
Sheryl
How’s it going? Have you been able to make any meetings? (I don’t even know if you are in a position to make meetings…) If not, please make sure you are keeping in touch with fellow AA’s for support. This isn’t something that is easy to battle, and any AA left alone for too long is in bad company.
Keep the faith and keep in touch.
Sheryl
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Join Date: Oct 2005
Location: UK
Posts: 85
Thanks. Do you think that 'sticking around' means for many years? Every day?
There is only one other forum I do stick around on everyday, and it's a bit more light-hearted than SR (that's not a criticism, btw, but it's not exactly fun carrying fear all the time, which is what I am doing.)
When I get over any fear, I tend to drift away and not post, or even visit. Remember, I was here a long time ago moaning about the same old things that I am today.
There is only one other forum I do stick around on everyday, and it's a bit more light-hearted than SR (that's not a criticism, btw, but it's not exactly fun carrying fear all the time, which is what I am doing.)
When I get over any fear, I tend to drift away and not post, or even visit. Remember, I was here a long time ago moaning about the same old things that I am today.
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