UrbanFool

I feel like I'm going to start screaming and not stop. I'm having the hardest time "staying in the moment." My stress level is through the roof and I'm having an awful time picking up the phone to call someone.

I'm also having problems letting go, and I don't think I've stopped praying for days.

I guess I feel a little better just getting that off my chest. *take a deep breath Kelly*

Anna

Hi Kelly,

I'm sorry you're having a tough day! If you are really stressed, just try to take some deep breaths and do something different. Go out for a walk, soak in the tub, listen to some music, anything that will relax you a bit.

Letting go is really hard. I was such a control freak and I didn't even realize the extent until I'd stopped drinking. It's hard to let go, but it's so much easier in the end.

Hang in there.

FriendofBill

As children bring their broken toys With tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God, Because He was my friend.

But then, instead of leaving Him In peace, to work alone,
I hung around and tried to help In ways that were my own.

Finally I took them back and said,
Dear God, why are you so slow?

My child, He said, what could I do? You never did let go.


Call someone today, you'll never know how much *they* might need a call,themselves.

fraankie

yeaH, ME, TOO
even with 10 years in AA
enjoy it
it gets better

best
fraankie

RRecovery

What's the cause of the stress?

UrbanFool

2nd DUI, possibly losing my job, losing my house, losing my husband... I feel like it's all choking me (it IS choking me.) Sundays are bad for meetings, but I'll be going to one at six.

Anna

Kelly,

I hope you're feeling a little better this evening. Be kind to yourself. You can only do what you can do.

RRecovery

No matter what, put your sobriety first. At a time like this it may be hard to grope for some positives, so you need to surround yourself with supportive people.

UrbanFool

I went to the meeting tonight, but for some reason it wasn't as calming as it normally is. Maybe my home meeting tomorrow night will fare better.

I'm not drinking, but this well of panic inside me hurts physically. Guess I need a soak in a hot bathtub.

Thanks all,
Kelly

Chy

In early recovery I felt close to a few meltdowns myself. I talked to my sponsor and she suggested I journal. I didn't think it would help but as I wrote and cried the anxiety began to fade and I don't know how long I wrote but it turned into several pages of "stuff". I was able to sleep easier and the morning didn't look so bleek. Write!

CarolD

I ditto Chy.
The problems seem to lessen with writing.
I would look back a few weeeks later and realize my progress.

Please remember...nothing will improve if you drink again.

Blessings...

KelKel

Kelly

UrbanFool

My M.D. gave this to me today. It's the St. Teresa prayer, and I'm to memorize it by next monday when my next doctor's appointment is.

Let nothing upset you
Let nothing frighten you
Everything is changing
God alone is changeless
Patience attains the goal
Who has God lacks nothing
God alone fills every need.

Unfortunately, in addition to missing the Broncho's kickoff tonight, The doctor did NOT prescribe A-a-a whatever it is. Evidently my husband thought it was THE golden pill to turn me into a Stepford Wife. So when I came out gleeful that my Cholesterol level was so low, he went through the roof. I told him it would probably take two hours to explain what the doctor told me in one, but I didn't even bother with that much. I think I'm going to bed --after meditating for fifteen minutes.

Dreamingtree

Hey Kelly-

God bless and prayers of healing... You are going to be just fine.

Peter

"When all else failed, work with another alcoholic saved the day."

Quote from AA Big book.