daisy12326

Anyways, had a great vacation...had a few slips..and then slipped back again just as bad once I got back...anyways..long story short...few too many a couple of times...and a bit of gambling..won $4000.00 but then lost $3000.00 of it back...I am seriously done with all of it...I understand if no one here believes me anymore, but I just have to say it and get it off my chest...I feel so guilty all the time for the way that I am living and I cant do it anymore...I mean live this way...I know that it could be so much worse but I need to feel that I am normal. Anyways, I will do this now...tomorrow is a new day...I have no alcohol in the house and I am not going back to that damn casino...I am serious this time. Well thanks for listening...tommorrow is a new day and I will not live with the guilt of how I am living anymore...because I am not going to live this way...anymore. Thanks everyone for your support....dont know what else to say but thanks...I am going to do this!

2dayzmuse

I wish you well Daisy. Do you have a plan? What are you going to do differently? It has been my experience that if I didn't make drastic changes, it was easy to fall back into my old patterns. The disease is a tricky one... It appears that once you start to drink, one addiction fuels the other one. I understand the longing to feel normal. I had lost all accounts of what that may be. I'm glad you are ready to take on tomorrow sober. I will be here tomorrow if you need some support. Have a great night and remember...there is a solution!

Dan

Welcome back Daisy

CarolD

Good to see you lived thru your drinking. So many of us die while on a bender.

AA is where I learned how to stay in sobriety and enjoy it.

findingout

Welcome back daisy12326 The important thing is that you are still willing to try. It's all in the trying and you can do this.