I just can't quit for good
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Originally Posted by peplepew
I'm certainly not feeling sorry for myself, that is not what I'm feeling. I'm mad. Mad mad mad. I've been breaking things and throwing dishes at walls for two days now. I'm glad I havent hit a window or a tv yet.
I'm not blaming my dad either. I just wish he would actually care cuz I don't have anybody. Yes he is an alcoholic too. I suppose he just doesn't want to have anything to do with my problem because he might have to face his own.
All I'm saying is that i don't have confidence in any methods for sobriety right now and that is NOT an excuse.
I guess I don't believe psychology is a load of crap, I just think as it is applied by my provider it ends up being ineffective for some people. For Christ's sake they heard people through like cattle and just pump them full of drugs. Nobody has even spent the time to actually find out what my correct diagnosis is. The only person I have confidence in is my new doc and all I get is 10 min with him and out the door I go. And half that time is spent talking about scuba diving.
I'm so frustrated right now I think I need some really loud Guns and Roses. AAAAAGGGHH!
I'm not blaming my dad either. I just wish he would actually care cuz I don't have anybody. Yes he is an alcoholic too. I suppose he just doesn't want to have anything to do with my problem because he might have to face his own.
All I'm saying is that i don't have confidence in any methods for sobriety right now and that is NOT an excuse.
I guess I don't believe psychology is a load of crap, I just think as it is applied by my provider it ends up being ineffective for some people. For Christ's sake they heard people through like cattle and just pump them full of drugs. Nobody has even spent the time to actually find out what my correct diagnosis is. The only person I have confidence in is my new doc and all I get is 10 min with him and out the door I go. And half that time is spent talking about scuba diving.
I'm so frustrated right now I think I need some really loud Guns and Roses. AAAAAGGGHH!
You are 35. That seems young to me. If you find a way to stop now, you can still have a normal and decent life. It will be hell at first, but hopefully it'll get better. I have had my fair share of rehabs, and they are pretty much the paid version of AA, unless you can find one that is unorthodox. The point is to hopefully either remove you from your environment (as in in patient) so you can break the habit, or maybe something will click, on some level, if you do an OP deal. For some people they really do work. For me, they worked temporarily and it was an expensive temporarily.
I've been through countless therapists and a few shrinks, so I understand that whole deal as well. Well, pretty much I just wanted to let you know you're not alone. BTW, I'd give anything to meet a guy who just wanted a nice girl, and it wouldn't bother me if he was an "addict," so maybe checking out an AA or NA meeting wouldn't be such a bad idea. :-)
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Ok I feel better. I'm going to get a scrip for that drug tomorrow, I think its called antibuse or something like that. It makes you sick if you drink. I really don't think I'll have the urge to drink for several weeks but at least that's a good reminder and safe guard. Next I'm going to say F everybody in my life I don't need them. I guess I'll pick myself up by the proverbial boot straps and start kicking ass on this stupid thing. It obviously isn't going to go away. I only have two months to go and I can join civilization again. I can make it. I screwed up, I'll get over it. If nobody else does, too bad for them. They will be sorry they lost a really awesome person in their life.
I'm still mad but I do feel better. I always kinda been on my own mostly. I guess thats just the way my life is.
Music, I've been thinking about what you said:
"Matter of fact, in order to make things move along a lot faster, why don't you just get blasted every night. Two things could happen. You may just die faster, or the old farts in AA might start looking a little better."
You should really be careful to who you say stuff like that to. The wrong person would tkae that as a prescription for death. I am absolutely certain if I went to jail again or was completely stripped of my dignity somehow, I wouldn't make it.
I'm still mad but I do feel better. I always kinda been on my own mostly. I guess thats just the way my life is.
Music, I've been thinking about what you said:
"Matter of fact, in order to make things move along a lot faster, why don't you just get blasted every night. Two things could happen. You may just die faster, or the old farts in AA might start looking a little better."
You should really be careful to who you say stuff like that to. The wrong person would tkae that as a prescription for death. I am absolutely certain if I went to jail again or was completely stripped of my dignity somehow, I wouldn't make it.
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Originally Posted by peplepew
Ok I feel better. I'm going to get a scrip for that drug tomorrow, I think its called antibuse or something like that. It makes you sick if you drink. I really don't think I'll have the urge to drink for several weeks but at least that's a good reminder and safe guard. Next I'm going to say F everybody in my life I don't need them. I guess I'll pick myself up by the proverbial boot straps and start kicking ass on this stupid thing. It obviously isn't going to go away. I only have two months to go and I can join civilization again. I can make it. I screwed up, I'll get over it. If nobody else does, too bad for them. They will be sorry they lost a really awesome person in their life.
I'm still mad but I do feel better. I always kinda been on my own mostly. I guess thats just the way my life is.
Music, I've been thinking about what you said:
"Matter of fact, in order to make things move along a lot faster, why don't you just get blasted every night. Two things could happen. You may just die faster, or the old farts in AA might start looking a little better."
You should really be careful to who you say stuff like that to. The wrong person would tkae that as a prescription for death. I am absolutely certain if I went to jail again or was completely stripped of my dignity somehow, I wouldn't make it.
I'm still mad but I do feel better. I always kinda been on my own mostly. I guess thats just the way my life is.
Music, I've been thinking about what you said:
"Matter of fact, in order to make things move along a lot faster, why don't you just get blasted every night. Two things could happen. You may just die faster, or the old farts in AA might start looking a little better."
You should really be careful to who you say stuff like that to. The wrong person would tkae that as a prescription for death. I am absolutely certain if I went to jail again or was completely stripped of my dignity somehow, I wouldn't make it.
One more thing to consider...when a person stops drinking neurotransmitter levels will drop for a while. I've gone through this enough times to know that around day 10 I just become extremely depressed and catatonic. So, an anti-depressant combined with the Antabuse might not be a bad idea. There are several, as I'm sure you know. While some people will say to ride it out, not for this alcoholic. I was six months sober long time ago and had my intro to anxiety disorder, so I know for me this thing is not just about alcohol. Maybe you can talk to your Dr. about this. Mine put me on Wellbutrin, and I've had fairly decent results with this. If you're a smoker, you might consider this drug. Also, the SSRIs are worth looking at, although I'd be careful about Effexor, as it's been shown to actually INCREASE cravings for alcohol. Good luck, and I am glad you feel better :-)
P.S. I understand the sentiment behind F everybody. Maybe you need to do that. However, if you do, please do check out an AA or NA or SMART meeting for human contact. We all need that. I am not saying these people are going to be your best friends, but there have been several times I've gone to a meeting and, just being around other humans who share my condition, it's taken the edge off.
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**** and carol,
I am a highly emotional person, thats one of the reasons I took psych as a undergrad major, that and I couldn't ever understand the needs of my women. I guess the irony isn't that bad considering I haven't taken that many psyche credits yet, I'm just getting myself wound up. I just finished my two years of liberal arts and some psyche classes for my bachelors. That's how I guess I know my provider is crap. Its not as bad as it sounded. Sorry for misrepresenting myself, like I said I was just blowing off steam. I was just typing as I was thinking and venting.
I am a highly emotional person, thats one of the reasons I took psych as a undergrad major, that and I couldn't ever understand the needs of my women. I guess the irony isn't that bad considering I haven't taken that many psyche credits yet, I'm just getting myself wound up. I just finished my two years of liberal arts and some psyche classes for my bachelors. That's how I guess I know my provider is crap. Its not as bad as it sounded. Sorry for misrepresenting myself, like I said I was just blowing off steam. I was just typing as I was thinking and venting.
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Second,
Thanks. I am on welbutrin right now. I don't think my situation is as bad as your thinking. I havent drank anything for months until last weekend and this weekend. Two big nights spaced in two weeks. I'm not sure that will damage too much, but then again I've had one of my old docs tell me one good drunk will knock a guy back for three weeks. My experience is that a couple of days and I'll be back on top for a while.
Thanks. I am on welbutrin right now. I don't think my situation is as bad as your thinking. I havent drank anything for months until last weekend and this weekend. Two big nights spaced in two weeks. I'm not sure that will damage too much, but then again I've had one of my old docs tell me one good drunk will knock a guy back for three weeks. My experience is that a couple of days and I'll be back on top for a while.
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Originally Posted by peplepew
Second,
Thanks. I am on welbutrin right now. I don't think my situation is as bad as your thinking. I havent drank anything for months until last weekend and this weekend. Two big nights spaced in two weeks. I'm not sure that will damage too much, but then again I've had one of my old docs tell me one good drunk will knock a guy back for three weeks. My experience is that a couple of days and I'll be back on top for a while.
Thanks. I am on welbutrin right now. I don't think my situation is as bad as your thinking. I havent drank anything for months until last weekend and this weekend. Two big nights spaced in two weeks. I'm not sure that will damage too much, but then again I've had one of my old docs tell me one good drunk will knock a guy back for three weeks. My experience is that a couple of days and I'll be back on top for a while.
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Thank you for the correction..Now
Time to get sober.
I took Antabuse in early sobriety. And I drank with it.
Did I quit drinking? Nah! I quit the Antabuse because it made me violently ill. Typical drunk thinking!!
BTW... Antabuse stays in your body for several days after you stop the pill. Check with your Dr. for precise time line...I have forgotten.
You can do this...
Time to get sober.
I took Antabuse in early sobriety. And I drank with it.
Did I quit drinking? Nah! I quit the Antabuse because it made me violently ill. Typical drunk thinking!!
BTW... Antabuse stays in your body for several days after you stop the pill. Check with your Dr. for precise time line...I have forgotten.
You can do this...
Originally Posted by peplepew
This Goddam booze really pisses me off. I got rippin drunk last night again. At least I didn't sleep with some strange woman. I was driving around all blacked out with a burned out headlight and no license. F'n nice. My dad saw me and followed me to the bar and drove me home. He got my car today and told me I had to put the car in my own name. I don't blame him but it was the first time I "slipped up" and drove since my second dwi 8 months ago. <?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" /><o:p></o:p>
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The thing that really sucks is even though i don't drink very often, I get so drunk when I drink. I'll be just fine and having the most fun of my life and then all the sudden the next thing I know, I'm waking up the next day with a terrible hangover and wonder how disgustingly weird I might have been at the bar. My dad told me today that our family is full of drinking problems but I'm the worst. That's just F'n great. It is so unfair that I have this "curse" I did nothing to deserve it. It has really destroyed my personality and I feel so alienated from the world. At least other people can't tell for the most part.<o:p></o:p>
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I'm at my wit’s end with whole thing. I've really been trying to stay away from it but I get so lonely I just need some social interaction with people. In my neck of the woods the only socializing is at the bars, and there are many around here. I've tried a few aa meetings but although I'm 35, the people at those meeting are all older. I don't feel comfortable there anyways. I've tried psychologists and I've been on one med or another for years. When I'm sober I still have bouts of stress, loneliness, and hopelessness and the only release seems to be getting a buzz on. I've tried God too. What an embarrassing disaster that was. I am NOT compatible with organized religion, especially Christianity. <o:p></o:p>
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I really need to make some more friends but it's awful hard without a drivers license. Now that I can't afford insurance in my name I'm really screwed even when I get my dl in two months. The only friend I needed was my wife, now that she's out of the picture I'm soooo lonely I could die. I spent this entire winter in my house in the woods by myself. My best friend is a daily drinker right now so I can't hang with him. I feel like my life is imploding and the end is near. I laid on my couch with a hangover all day and thought about ways to kill myself. Pretty pathetic huh? You want to know what is even worse? I'm a psychology major and an honor student! I guess I haven't learned a F'n thing. Or worse, it's all b.s. and I wasted these last few years in school. <o:p></o:p>
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I need to get busy living or get busy dying. The only problem is that it seems I have been at this crossroads so many times before and I'm more and more leaning toward the latter. I just don't know if I have the strength to try again especially since I'm not convinced anything will work for me. <o:p></o:p>
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The thing that really sucks is even though i don't drink very often, I get so drunk when I drink. I'll be just fine and having the most fun of my life and then all the sudden the next thing I know, I'm waking up the next day with a terrible hangover and wonder how disgustingly weird I might have been at the bar. My dad told me today that our family is full of drinking problems but I'm the worst. That's just F'n great. It is so unfair that I have this "curse" I did nothing to deserve it. It has really destroyed my personality and I feel so alienated from the world. At least other people can't tell for the most part.<o:p></o:p>
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I'm at my wit’s end with whole thing. I've really been trying to stay away from it but I get so lonely I just need some social interaction with people. In my neck of the woods the only socializing is at the bars, and there are many around here. I've tried a few aa meetings but although I'm 35, the people at those meeting are all older. I don't feel comfortable there anyways. I've tried psychologists and I've been on one med or another for years. When I'm sober I still have bouts of stress, loneliness, and hopelessness and the only release seems to be getting a buzz on. I've tried God too. What an embarrassing disaster that was. I am NOT compatible with organized religion, especially Christianity. <o:p></o:p>
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I really need to make some more friends but it's awful hard without a drivers license. Now that I can't afford insurance in my name I'm really screwed even when I get my dl in two months. The only friend I needed was my wife, now that she's out of the picture I'm soooo lonely I could die. I spent this entire winter in my house in the woods by myself. My best friend is a daily drinker right now so I can't hang with him. I feel like my life is imploding and the end is near. I laid on my couch with a hangover all day and thought about ways to kill myself. Pretty pathetic huh? You want to know what is even worse? I'm a psychology major and an honor student! I guess I haven't learned a F'n thing. Or worse, it's all b.s. and I wasted these last few years in school. <o:p></o:p>
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I need to get busy living or get busy dying. The only problem is that it seems I have been at this crossroads so many times before and I'm more and more leaning toward the latter. I just don't know if I have the strength to try again especially since I'm not convinced anything will work for me. <o:p></o:p>
Originally Posted by peplepew
Second,
Thanks. I am on welbutrin right now. I don't think my situation is as bad as your thinking. I havent drank anything for months until last weekend and this weekend. Two big nights spaced in two weeks. I'm not sure that will damage too much, but then again I've had one of my old docs tell me one good drunk will knock a guy back for three weeks. My experience is that a couple of days and I'll be back on top for a while.
Thanks. I am on welbutrin right now. I don't think my situation is as bad as your thinking. I havent drank anything for months until last weekend and this weekend. Two big nights spaced in two weeks. I'm not sure that will damage too much, but then again I've had one of my old docs tell me one good drunk will knock a guy back for three weeks. My experience is that a couple of days and I'll be back on top for a while.
Originally Posted by peplepew
I'm certainly not feeling sorry for myself, that is not what I'm feeling. I'm mad. Mad mad mad. I've been breaking things and throwing dishes at walls for two days now. I'm glad I havent hit a window or a tv yet.
I'm not blaming my dad either. I just wish he would actually care cuz I don't have anybody. Yes he is an alcoholic too. I suppose he just doesn't want to have anything to do with my problem because he might have to face his own.
All I'm saying is that i don't have confidence in any methods for sobriety right now and that is NOT an excuse.
I guess I don't believe psychology is a load of crap, I just think as it is applied by my provider it ends up being ineffective for some people. For Christ's sake they heard people through like cattle and just pump them full of drugs. Nobody has even spent the time to actually find out what my correct diagnosis is. The only person I have confidence in is my new doc and all I get is 10 min with him and out the door I go. And half that time is spent talking about scuba diving.
I'm so frustrated right now I think I need some really loud Guns and Roses. AAAAAGGGHH!
I'm not blaming my dad either. I just wish he would actually care cuz I don't have anybody. Yes he is an alcoholic too. I suppose he just doesn't want to have anything to do with my problem because he might have to face his own.
All I'm saying is that i don't have confidence in any methods for sobriety right now and that is NOT an excuse.
I guess I don't believe psychology is a load of crap, I just think as it is applied by my provider it ends up being ineffective for some people. For Christ's sake they heard people through like cattle and just pump them full of drugs. Nobody has even spent the time to actually find out what my correct diagnosis is. The only person I have confidence in is my new doc and all I get is 10 min with him and out the door I go. And half that time is spent talking about scuba diving.
I'm so frustrated right now I think I need some really loud Guns and Roses. AAAAAGGGHH!
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Kahlia,
Yeah, I can tell you what makes me sad and lonely. I live in the woods by myself with no drivers license to start with. A peaceful place but it's like being in solitary confinement. Nights get sooo lonely-its like being on another planet when I'm alone in the dark out here. Weekends are even worse. Nobody ever calls or stops by hardly at all. my best friend would call once in a while on Sundays for the last two months but he's been off his ankle bracelet and back to drinking for two weeks now, he came and got me last weekend and it was the bomb. We went just driving around, well then we started stopping at bars later, but you get the idea. My dad lives 15 minutes away and only comes by to bring me places like doctor appointments. I have been able to drive to and from school since January but have to leave immediately after class and can't go in early. I get to attend classes and leave, not conducive to socialization, and this semester is over now. I feel like I am not part of the human race anymore. My wife and I separated in nov of 03. not cuz of my drinking either- a long story but essentially she decided she would be happier with someone else after telling me how much potential I had and that I should quit my job and go to college. I didn't go out at first under my doctors orders to not get involved in a relationship for a year, that and I was a wreck. the first night I did, july2 of 04, I got a dwi. spent 30 days in jail, 45 days sts service, and the rest of it until december just sitting here by myself in the woods. The one break I did get was when I went to hawaii in december of last year and drank myself silly for three weeks with some guys I went to h.s. with. They don't like being around me anymore cuz of my drunken escapades out there. I won't be invited back.
This non-interaction with other people is really killing me at the moment but I have such a story when it comes to my life and all the parts of it, my therapist even started to cry. yeah, some other people have had worse, nonetheless it is a sad story of missed opportunities for a normal life, a very good life, for no reason other than family alcoholism and dysfunction. I'm not fishing for sympathy but you were interested.
I'm just really freaked out over my dad telling me I have to register my car in my name. It is a big setback. It's not the worst thing in the world but it is going to break me financially and I'll have to put w-plates on it. W-plates are for convicted dwi people and they can pull you over for no reason whatsoever. When they do pull you over they will ticket you for anything they can find. It means I won't be able to sneak into the grocery store or movie rental place without worrying to death of being caught where I'm not supposed to be and loosing my license for another year. It's been 10 months of being grounded and I have 2 more to go, I just couldn't do another year. It means back to a more isolated existence for a while. I guess if my son had been through what I have, i would be more concerned about finding a way to help him back on his feet instead of knocking him down again. I would try to help him with his real problem instead of being ashamed of him. It was the first time I did something like this since my dwi, actually I was supposed to leave my car at the bar and stay at my friends house but I got wasted and went looking for companionship of the opposite gender at another bar.
Yeah, I can tell you what makes me sad and lonely. I live in the woods by myself with no drivers license to start with. A peaceful place but it's like being in solitary confinement. Nights get sooo lonely-its like being on another planet when I'm alone in the dark out here. Weekends are even worse. Nobody ever calls or stops by hardly at all. my best friend would call once in a while on Sundays for the last two months but he's been off his ankle bracelet and back to drinking for two weeks now, he came and got me last weekend and it was the bomb. We went just driving around, well then we started stopping at bars later, but you get the idea. My dad lives 15 minutes away and only comes by to bring me places like doctor appointments. I have been able to drive to and from school since January but have to leave immediately after class and can't go in early. I get to attend classes and leave, not conducive to socialization, and this semester is over now. I feel like I am not part of the human race anymore. My wife and I separated in nov of 03. not cuz of my drinking either- a long story but essentially she decided she would be happier with someone else after telling me how much potential I had and that I should quit my job and go to college. I didn't go out at first under my doctors orders to not get involved in a relationship for a year, that and I was a wreck. the first night I did, july2 of 04, I got a dwi. spent 30 days in jail, 45 days sts service, and the rest of it until december just sitting here by myself in the woods. The one break I did get was when I went to hawaii in december of last year and drank myself silly for three weeks with some guys I went to h.s. with. They don't like being around me anymore cuz of my drunken escapades out there. I won't be invited back.
This non-interaction with other people is really killing me at the moment but I have such a story when it comes to my life and all the parts of it, my therapist even started to cry. yeah, some other people have had worse, nonetheless it is a sad story of missed opportunities for a normal life, a very good life, for no reason other than family alcoholism and dysfunction. I'm not fishing for sympathy but you were interested.
I'm just really freaked out over my dad telling me I have to register my car in my name. It is a big setback. It's not the worst thing in the world but it is going to break me financially and I'll have to put w-plates on it. W-plates are for convicted dwi people and they can pull you over for no reason whatsoever. When they do pull you over they will ticket you for anything they can find. It means I won't be able to sneak into the grocery store or movie rental place without worrying to death of being caught where I'm not supposed to be and loosing my license for another year. It's been 10 months of being grounded and I have 2 more to go, I just couldn't do another year. It means back to a more isolated existence for a while. I guess if my son had been through what I have, i would be more concerned about finding a way to help him back on his feet instead of knocking him down again. I would try to help him with his real problem instead of being ashamed of him. It was the first time I did something like this since my dwi, actually I was supposed to leave my car at the bar and stay at my friends house but I got wasted and went looking for companionship of the opposite gender at another bar.
I got rippin drunk last night again. At least I didn't sleep with some strange woman. I was driving around all blacked out with a burned out headlight and no license. F'n nice. My dad saw me and followed me to the bar and drove me home. He got my car today and told me I had to put the car in my own name. I don't blame him but it was the first time I "slipped up" and drove since my second dwi 8 months ago.
I guess if my son had been through what I have, i would be more concerned about finding a way to help him back on his feet instead of knocking him down again.
Actions speak louder than words. Once your Dad sees your serious about making changes in your life, he may start trusting you again. Maybe he can learn a valuable lesson from all of this as well. Maybe you can help one another? Like I mentioned earlier, nobody wants to hear the truth, it hurts. After you've been sober for awhile, the gibberish that people like myself spout, starts to make sense. I hope it starts to make sense to you soon. That would mean you're making progress. I hope so. I wish you the best...
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Yup. I'm loaded with baggage and it doesn't look like I can deal with it.
I think my dad is a big dick and just wants to wash his hands with me. I think its time to break out the ought-six and 12.
Thank you for your time everybody. Sorry for bothering you with my issues. This really isn't the place.
I think my dad is a big dick and just wants to wash his hands with me. I think its time to break out the ought-six and 12.
Thank you for your time everybody. Sorry for bothering you with my issues. This really isn't the place.
Originally Posted by peplepew
Yup. I'm loaded with baggage and it doesn't look like I can deal with it.
I think my dad is a big dick and just wants to wash his hands with me. I think its time to break out the ought-six and 12.
Thank you for your time everybody. Sorry for bothering you with my issues. This really isn't the place.
I think my dad is a big dick and just wants to wash his hands with me. I think its time to break out the ought-six and 12.
Thank you for your time everybody. Sorry for bothering you with my issues. This really isn't the place.
Don't take offense if they push back a little. It's part of the process. Please do stick around. No need to argue if you disagree. Just read some of the threads and see if you identify with what's being said.
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Uh-oh!! Here we go with the "Everybody hates me, nobody loves me, guess I'll go eat worms routine." Can't get all the sympathy the way you want it so you're going to threaten to break out the hardware and try to get attention that way.
Pep,You're 35 going on 15. Grow up!!
Pep,You're 35 going on 15. Grow up!!
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What was it you posted elsewhere that your sponser said to you?
"honesty without love was...?"
What was it you posted elsewhere that your sponser said to you?
"honesty without love was...?"
This the place.....
Originally Posted by peplepew
Yup. I'm loaded with baggage and it doesn't look like I can deal with it.
I think my dad is a big dick and just wants to wash his hands with me. I think its time to break out the ought-six and 12.
Thank you for your time everybody. Sorry for bothering you with my issues. This really isn't the place.
I think my dad is a big dick and just wants to wash his hands with me. I think its time to break out the ought-six and 12.
Thank you for your time everybody. Sorry for bothering you with my issues. This really isn't the place.
HI Pep... Glad you reached out here..
I am Linda. I am a recovering alcoholic. What you wrote is how most of us felt.. We understand, we have been there and we care.
What you drink, where you drink, when you drink and how often you drink has nothing to do with it.. In short: If drinking causes us a problem then we have a problem.
This disease is progressive.. Often times we keep drinking until we reach a point where we simply cannot stop.. Its an addiction. It gets ahold of us good.. (smile).. Its called cunning, baffling and powerful.. Sounds like you are seeing that.
If your alcoholic there are only 3 ways out out of this thing.. Get locked up, get covered up or get sobered up.. I was locked up quite a few times, nearly covered up a couple of times and finally sobered up.. I am extremely thankful for that every day.
I can only share what worked for me and countless others.. I got to AA meetings.. I got the Big Book (alcoholics anonymous).. I read it from the beginning thru Chapter 1.. At that point I realized I definately fit. I was an alcoholic.. Chapter 2 is titled "There Is A Solution".. I wanted to know the solution - so started reading again..
I became willing to go to any lengths. I started taking the suggestions from those who had what I wanted.. They told me I had to do what they did. Go to meetings, read the book, get a sponsor and start working the steps..
So, if you have become willing to go to any lengths and you want what we have.. then I pass on what was told to me.. You have to do what we do.. No easier, softer way. No thinking we are special, different or unique... Make the choice to live and get to a meeting..
You never have to drink again or feel this way again..
My best to you........ Linda C.
Nothing changes if nothing changes
I am Linda. I am a recovering alcoholic. What you wrote is how most of us felt.. We understand, we have been there and we care.
What you drink, where you drink, when you drink and how often you drink has nothing to do with it.. In short: If drinking causes us a problem then we have a problem.
This disease is progressive.. Often times we keep drinking until we reach a point where we simply cannot stop.. Its an addiction. It gets ahold of us good.. (smile).. Its called cunning, baffling and powerful.. Sounds like you are seeing that.
If your alcoholic there are only 3 ways out out of this thing.. Get locked up, get covered up or get sobered up.. I was locked up quite a few times, nearly covered up a couple of times and finally sobered up.. I am extremely thankful for that every day.
I can only share what worked for me and countless others.. I got to AA meetings.. I got the Big Book (alcoholics anonymous).. I read it from the beginning thru Chapter 1.. At that point I realized I definately fit. I was an alcoholic.. Chapter 2 is titled "There Is A Solution".. I wanted to know the solution - so started reading again..
I became willing to go to any lengths. I started taking the suggestions from those who had what I wanted.. They told me I had to do what they did. Go to meetings, read the book, get a sponsor and start working the steps..
So, if you have become willing to go to any lengths and you want what we have.. then I pass on what was told to me.. You have to do what we do.. No easier, softer way. No thinking we are special, different or unique... Make the choice to live and get to a meeting..
You never have to drink again or feel this way again..
My best to you........ Linda C.
Nothing changes if nothing changes
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