Back at it
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Back at it
I haven’t posted here in a really long time. The last time I did, I was pregnant and worried about resuming my drinking after my son was born. In the end I held out for the first couple of months of breastfeeding, but then I thought I would try my hand at moderating again (because parenting is hard and I totally deserved a drink to relax, right?!)
You already know how this ends. Moderating didn’t work (it’s not ever going to work for me) and I spent quite a few early mornings nursing a hangover while trying to tend to my little boy. It made me irritable, my weight was going up, the works.
my husband and I decided awhile ago that enough was enough, we just don’t have any wiggle room to intentionally make ourselves MORE tired than we already are. I don't know what switch has flicked to make this time different, but I can tell you for sure that it is. Perhaps it’s that this time around I am better educated and can recognise alcohol for what it is- a poison that only temporarily masks my problems before making them much bigger, and prevents me from being the parent that my child deserves. He didn’t ask to be born so it doesn’t seem very fair to bring him up in an environment that is any less than the best I can provide.
Sobriety this time around has been great. I feel good, I’m looking better. Sitting with uncomfortable emotions isn’t super fun but it beats the pants off of hangover parenting. I know the AF drink options aren’t really recommended, but I have always enjoyed the ceremony of something special at events so I’ve been sampling some of the new AF drink options that are booming in Australia. I haven’t had a single craving so far and for that I count myself really, really fortunate. Alcohol was just taking too much from me and it doesn’t have a place in my future. I don’t feel like I can’t drink, I feel like I don’t want to drink. I haven’t lost anything, but I have gained more than I can quantify. Other people drinking doesn’t trigger me because I don’t want to be reliant on a toxic chemical just to relax and have fun. So **** you, alcohol, don’t let the door hit you in the way out!
best wishes to everybody still in the struggle. I tried to quit so many times but this time has been an entirely different experience, and if it happened to me it can happen for you! Just keep trying and keep going back to the strategies that work, ditch the ones that don’t and never give up. Xx
You already know how this ends. Moderating didn’t work (it’s not ever going to work for me) and I spent quite a few early mornings nursing a hangover while trying to tend to my little boy. It made me irritable, my weight was going up, the works.
my husband and I decided awhile ago that enough was enough, we just don’t have any wiggle room to intentionally make ourselves MORE tired than we already are. I don't know what switch has flicked to make this time different, but I can tell you for sure that it is. Perhaps it’s that this time around I am better educated and can recognise alcohol for what it is- a poison that only temporarily masks my problems before making them much bigger, and prevents me from being the parent that my child deserves. He didn’t ask to be born so it doesn’t seem very fair to bring him up in an environment that is any less than the best I can provide.
Sobriety this time around has been great. I feel good, I’m looking better. Sitting with uncomfortable emotions isn’t super fun but it beats the pants off of hangover parenting. I know the AF drink options aren’t really recommended, but I have always enjoyed the ceremony of something special at events so I’ve been sampling some of the new AF drink options that are booming in Australia. I haven’t had a single craving so far and for that I count myself really, really fortunate. Alcohol was just taking too much from me and it doesn’t have a place in my future. I don’t feel like I can’t drink, I feel like I don’t want to drink. I haven’t lost anything, but I have gained more than I can quantify. Other people drinking doesn’t trigger me because I don’t want to be reliant on a toxic chemical just to relax and have fun. So **** you, alcohol, don’t let the door hit you in the way out!
best wishes to everybody still in the struggle. I tried to quit so many times but this time has been an entirely different experience, and if it happened to me it can happen for you! Just keep trying and keep going back to the strategies that work, ditch the ones that don’t and never give up. Xx
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I did the same similar thing as you back when I had my 2
beautiful little babies. Drinking was moderate during the
pregnancies and nursing, but i caved and began drinking
at a designated time around 2pm to relax and whine down.
Moderation never worked and the progression of the disease
of alcoholism took its toll on me with many consequences to
follow.
First was a single car accident landing me in the hospital
for ten days and the second was an attempt to end my life
which I thought was a failure in so many ways.
I began to really drink when I left home at 18 till 30 yrs
old when family stepped in placing me into the hands of
those capable of teaching me about my addiction and
hand me the gift of a recovery program to use as a
guideline to living a sober life a day at a time to achieve
a better quality of life and become the best person I
was meant to be.
My recovery journey began in a 28 day rehab on Aug. 11th
1990. From that point on I used those teachings to guide me
thru motherhood and family life with never finding it necessary
to pick up another drink again.
There has been many rewarding changes in my life over
the past 31 sober yrs and the greatest one of all is to see
my 2 babies grow up healthy and wise raising their own
families.
There are many gifts waiting for you to achieve with no
reason to return to the insanity of your addiction no matter
what life throughs at us.
Keep listening, learning, absorbing and applying the tools
and knowledge of addiction and recovery to become the
best version of yourself in years to come. Sober Free.
beautiful little babies. Drinking was moderate during the
pregnancies and nursing, but i caved and began drinking
at a designated time around 2pm to relax and whine down.
Moderation never worked and the progression of the disease
of alcoholism took its toll on me with many consequences to
follow.
First was a single car accident landing me in the hospital
for ten days and the second was an attempt to end my life
which I thought was a failure in so many ways.
I began to really drink when I left home at 18 till 30 yrs
old when family stepped in placing me into the hands of
those capable of teaching me about my addiction and
hand me the gift of a recovery program to use as a
guideline to living a sober life a day at a time to achieve
a better quality of life and become the best person I
was meant to be.
My recovery journey began in a 28 day rehab on Aug. 11th
1990. From that point on I used those teachings to guide me
thru motherhood and family life with never finding it necessary
to pick up another drink again.
There has been many rewarding changes in my life over
the past 31 sober yrs and the greatest one of all is to see
my 2 babies grow up healthy and wise raising their own
families.
There are many gifts waiting for you to achieve with no
reason to return to the insanity of your addiction no matter
what life throughs at us.
Keep listening, learning, absorbing and applying the tools
and knowledge of addiction and recovery to become the
best version of yourself in years to come. Sober Free.
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