tidalwaves

I slipped up last night. I had 24 sober days a few months ago but I haven't been able to be sober for more than five days which was about two weeks ago. I am determined to make it to one day sober tonight. I usually have to take melatonin and go to bed early (around six thirty) in order to avoid my depression and awful cravings.

Dee74

Post here before you drink. It got to be worth a try next time, yeah?

D

Scd619x

Jeez you have done 5 days recently, that's great! I was drinking daily in the last years and couldn't get past 5pm let alone 5 days!! Keep going, look after yourself, you will get there!

ScottFromWI

Glad to hear you are making a commitment today Tidalwaves. Other than taking the melotonin, do you have any plans to go about your day differently or any official sobriety plan as such? By that I mean perhaps a recovery meeting of some kind, or dedicating time to spend here, or anything else of the sorts?

tidalwaves

I plan on spending time here, drinking tea as that's like a self care thing for me, saving my shower until the evening so I have something to look forward to and lighting candles, listening to music. My husband has also committed to not drinking with me today.

Anna

Tidalwaves, it sounds like you have a good plan for getting through the day. And, you know that each day you get through will make the next day a bit easier.

advbike

Sounds like you need to take action, Tidalwaves.

How about a commitment to post here on SR 3 times a day? Joining the July class would really help that.

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-part-one.html

Or maybe reading a very helpful book like Alcohol Explained by William Porter? Where you will learn WHY we slip up after a period of sobriety. Knowledge is power so learn about your enemy.

We have to take action and make a commitment to beat this thing. Self care isn't going to get you to sobriety, but it does help of course.

Hevyn

Hi Tidal - I'm glad you're not giving up. It's hard to get rolling, but once you do - it'll get less stressful. A better life awaits.

100

I couldn't stay sober until I started going to aa meetings. Sometimes you have to do what's necessary to get sober, even if you don't want to. You can get sober,but I found that you have to put some action to it. If not aa mabey smart recovery. I hope you find what you need to find.
David

tidalwaves

I've actually read several books and go back to them at times. Yes, I do need to do it more and keep up with it.

Either way, I made it! Onto day two.

Patcha

Day two! Welldone tidalwaves!! How are you feeling?

tidalwaves

I'm feeling good! I made it and plan on making it tonight too

fishkiller

Good work on Day1!

Your husband making the commitment with you is awesome.
Just remember you have to do this for yourself.
If he slips keep going.

Hevyn

So good to hear this, tidalwaves. I like your attitude.

tidalwaves

Another day down. I was pretty depressed last night, but I still didn't drink. I'm so proud of myself!

fishkiller

As you should be.

My emotions were all over the place at 1st also.
It gets better. Believe it

adair

Great effort so far tidalwaves. Those first days are always brutal and tough to get through. The depression, anxiety and emotional anguish are all ways the body lets us problem drinkers know that yes, we do have a problem. Keep stringing together days and things will improve.

tidalwaves

Unfortunately depression is something I've suffered severely with since I was 12. I'm in treatment, but it's still hard. Thank you guys.

Anna

Depression is hard to deal with, tidalwaves. I hope you find that your depression improves a bit as you continue your recovery. Alcohol is a depressant so maybe you will notice an improvement. Good job on getting through Day 2.

Patcha

I have struggled with depression and anxiety all my life, too. Drinking didn't help. I take medication and that helps. Being sober is much better. I can cope with anything if I'm sober, even the very depressed days.