LadyBug66

I am about 3 1/2 years alcohol free. It was hard in the beginning but I do well for the most part on triggers and cravings now. I was diagnosed with cancer 2 years ago and am still going thru treatment. I am thankful for the treatments they offer and the thought of it prolonging my life but honestly chemo is brutal. Sometimes my thoughts go to why am I denying myself alcohol when my life expectancy isn't long. I think I have found myself complacent on not posting here and visiting the chat and the little voices (AV) are starting to creep back in. I will not drink but it's not because I'm not thinking about it. I'm having a pretty down day today and wanted to talk about it. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Cocojanie

Sorry your going through this LadyBug66, how are you feeling now? Stay strong 💪

biminiblue

LadyBug, it sounds rough. Well done for recognizing that alcohol would just make everything exponentially worse.

Keep talking about it...we'll be here.

LadyBug66

Thank you. Today is a better day!

novips

Thanks for sharing. Alcoholism is a disease of isolation, and sharing where I'm at in my recovery journey -- both the ups and downs -- with my recovery family is essential to my sobriety. I won't pretend to know what you're going through with your chemo, and I imagine that if I was in your shoes I'd be asking the same question about staying sober. However, I recall a regular attendee at one of my A.A. meetings a number of years ago who was diagnosed with inoperable and terminal brain cancer. Nonetheless, he continued to show up at our our M-F 7:00 AM meeting till it was time for him to move on. As far as I could tell, he had fully digested the truth that for an alcoholic there's nothing so bad that a drink won't make it worse. As far as I could tell, he had embraced a spirituality that viewed dying sober as a great gift -- since so few alcoholics do. He remains a great inspiration to me.

Surlyredhead

I am so glad to hear this! You are stronger than you think, and for the record, I think you are a Rockstar!

Anna

Ladybug, congratulations on 3 1/2 years of recovery. I'm sorry to hear you are going through cancer treatment, but glad to know you are feeling better today.

Dee74

I am glad you're a feeling better today LB - remember all of SR is with you through this - you are not alone

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advbike

I'm sorry to hear of your cancer diagnosis, Ladybug, and the difficult chemo treatment. I had a coworker going through that for years. So amazing you choose not to drink through it all - your courage is an inspiration to me. Wishing you a healthy long term outcome!